Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 123

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I shift, trying to find comfort as I sit on the chair. Jake is sitting beside me while Aiden and Zaid sit across from us.

My blood is rushing through me, my breath shallow. I've been trying to get this conversation started since we sat down for dinner, but I haven't been able to get

the

words out.

Zaid sets his fork down and leans back in his chair. I raise my eyes to him and can tell with just the tilt of his head that he knows I have something to say. The last thing I want is for him to interrogate me.

I sigh. "Can we talk about how this is going to work?"

Jake turns to me mid-chew. "How what is going to work?"

I look at all of them before saying, “This relationship.”

Aiden looks at Zaid, then back at me. "What do you mean?"

I set my fork down and take a breath. "I mean, there's three of you and only one of me. I don't know... I don't know how I'm meant to juggle it. You and Zaid felt like a lot and now there's a fourth person."

Silence fills the room and I shift, grimacing when it makes the plug inside me

move.

Jake clears his throat and then leans forward. "We need a schedule."

Aiden groans immediately, throwing his head back in his chair. "Oh my God, you're making this sound like a job."

Zaid snorts, and I have to hide my smile.

"I hate the idea of something so rigid. What? I can only have my girlfriend on Mondays?" Aiden raises an eyebrow, clearly distraught at the idea.

Jake shoots him a sharp look. "You got a better idea?"

"Yeah. Let it just happen naturally."

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Zaid doesn't say anything, but I glance at him and see the way his jaw is tight, the way his fingers drum against the table. He doesn't like the idea of a schedule either. He acts when he feels something. I have no doubt about how impulsive he can be.

1 press my lips together, thinking. I get where Jake is coming from. If we don't figure this out, someone is going to get hurt. Not only are three men a lot for me to handle, but someone is going to feel left out. Still, the idea of scheduling who gets my time like I'm booking appointments? It doesn't feel right.

I take a deep breath. "Okay, what if, instead of a strict schedule, I decide which days I want for myself and which days I need a break? The rest can just... flow naturally."

Jake frowns. "That sounds a little too loose."

Aiden grins, crossing his arms over his chest. "I think it sounds perfect."

Jake purses his lips. "What if we at least each get a day a week?"

I smile, placing my hand on his arm. "I won't leave you out."

He eyes me.

"I promise. I want you all. Evenly." For some reason, that statement makes my face burn and my breath catch.

Zaid finally speaks, his voice low. A frown mars his face, and he tightens his hands into fists. "As long as I don't have to wait for a fucking schedule to be with you when I want to, I'm fine with whatever you want."

I smile at him, my chest tightening at the intensity in his eyes. "You won't."

Jake sighs, rubbing a hand down his face. "Okay, but you're spending tonight with me."

My body breaks into prickles, but I nod. "Okay."

There's probably a lot he wants to talk about. The brokenness in his voice tells me that it's going to be a long night. It doesn't bother me; I need to make it up to him. Fix what I can for waiting too long.

plate, then frowns.

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shudders, my heart rate spiking as

in the dishwasher and the pots are soaking in the sink. Jake takes my hand and we all make our way to the living room. When Aiden suggests we watch a movie, everyone agrees and I

at least to mentally prepare for my talk with

Aiden while Zaid sits alone in the recliner. He doesn't seem bothered and part of me thinks that it's because Jake and Aiden were the

fine and I relax into

only wearing Jake's

and they hold on tight to my knee and pull my leg to drape it over his lap. I tense, his name on my lips, to ask him what he's doing when he trails his fingers up my thigh and

hand. Zaid looks back

then looking at Jake.

rubbing circles around my clit. Zaid returns his attention

jaw clenching.

he actually wants me to come. I wrap my hands around his arm and lean

shakes his head once, not even looking in my

He does the same as Jake, draping my leg over his lap,

the couch. My hips jerk and I'm seeking my release, the pent up pressure already too much

take.

I look at Aiden,

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toward him,

is pouring out of me,

and I gasp,

his hands, his eyes glued to where Jake and Aiden

to drive me over the edge. The hunger in his

over the edge. The attention of all

rush

lips part and I

Zaid says in that beautiful,

pull their hands away, leaving me

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ends, and everyone

any of us to take. Aiden presses a flutter of kisses on my

shirt, I blow out a breath of relief. He pushes the

into goosebumps. Jake watches me, pressing a soft kiss

with Zaid and Aiden. Aiden comes up to me first, his hands cupping my face

away, breathing heavy, his eyes are dark,

My chest aches.

"Hurt."

"I'm sorry."

my hair behind my

on the forehead before walking away.

me toward him; other hand fisting the back of my

kisses me.

and I

take a cold shower,

my arms around his neck. "Think of

His nostrils flare. "Always."

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looking over my shoulder. I see

I know Jake

my arms as he pulls them from his

I whisper, thrown off by the

eyes taking me in. He devours me with

my lip, using every last

myself with my

breath, I whisper. "Jake, I'm so

eyes lift from my