Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 123

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I shift, trying to find comfort as I sit on the chair. Jake is sitting beside me while Aiden and Zaid sit across from us.

My blood is rushing through me, my breath shallow. I've been trying to get this conversation started since we sat down for dinner, but I haven't been able to get

the

words out.

Zaid sets his fork down and leans back in his chair. I raise my eyes to him and can tell with just the tilt of his head that he knows I have something to say. The last thing I want is for him to interrogate me.

I sigh. "Can we talk about how this is going to work?"

Jake turns to me mid-chew. "How what is going to work?"

I look at all of them before saying, “This relationship.”

Aiden looks at Zaid, then back at me. "What do you mean?"

I set my fork down and take a breath. "I mean, there's three of you and only one of me. I don't know... I don't know how I'm meant to juggle it. You and Zaid felt like a lot and now there's a fourth person."

Silence fills the room and I shift, grimacing when it makes the plug inside me

move.

Jake clears his throat and then leans forward. "We need a schedule."

Aiden groans immediately, throwing his head back in his chair. "Oh my God, you're making this sound like a job."

Zaid snorts, and I have to hide my smile.

"I hate the idea of something so rigid. What? I can only have my girlfriend on Mondays?" Aiden raises an eyebrow, clearly distraught at the idea.

Jake shoots him a sharp look. "You got a better idea?"

"Yeah. Let it just happen naturally."

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Zaid doesn't say anything, but I glance at him and see the way his jaw is tight, the way his fingers drum against the table. He doesn't like the idea of a schedule either. He acts when he feels something. I have no doubt about how impulsive he can be.

1 press my lips together, thinking. I get where Jake is coming from. If we don't figure this out, someone is going to get hurt. Not only are three men a lot for me to handle, but someone is going to feel left out. Still, the idea of scheduling who gets my time like I'm booking appointments? It doesn't feel right.

I take a deep breath. "Okay, what if, instead of a strict schedule, I decide which days I want for myself and which days I need a break? The rest can just... flow naturally."

Jake frowns. "That sounds a little too loose."

Aiden grins, crossing his arms over his chest. "I think it sounds perfect."

Jake purses his lips. "What if we at least each get a day a week?"

I smile, placing my hand on his arm. "I won't leave you out."

He eyes me.

"I promise. I want you all. Evenly." For some reason, that statement makes my face burn and my breath catch.

Zaid finally speaks, his voice low. A frown mars his face, and he tightens his hands into fists. "As long as I don't have to wait for a fucking schedule to be with you when I want to, I'm fine with whatever you want."

I smile at him, my chest tightening at the intensity in his eyes. "You won't."

Jake sighs, rubbing a hand down his face. "Okay, but you're spending tonight with me."

My body breaks into prickles, but I nod. "Okay."

There's probably a lot he wants to talk about. The brokenness in his voice tells me that it's going to be a long night. It doesn't bother me; I need to make it up to him. Fix what I can for waiting too long.

looks down at his plate, then frowns. "Are

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my heart rate spiking as I think about what he has

pots are soaking in the sink. Jake takes my hand and we all make our way to the living

to mentally prepare for my talk with

sits alone in the recliner. He doesn't seem bothered and part

movie starts off fine and I relax into the cushion,

I'm still only

grips my knee, I know I've relaxed too soon. His fingers are hot, soft, and they hold on tight to my knee and pull my leg to drape it over his lap. I tense,

mouth with my hand. Zaid looks back at

then looking at Jake.

circles around my clit. Zaid returns his

jaw clenching.

soft. Nothing about this makes me feel like he actually wants me to come. I wrap my hands around his arm and

shakes his head once, not even looking in

thigh and heat rushes through me. He does the same as Jake, draping my

and I moan, throwing my head back onto the couch. My hips

take.

to look at me, but when I look at Aiden, he's looking right at me.

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lean toward him, begging with my eyes.

pouring out of

and I gasp, turning

his hands, his eyes glued to where Jake and Aiden are playing with me. His

enough to drive me over the

over the edge. The attention of

rush

me. My lips part and I feel my muscles about

come," Zaid says in that beautiful, gravelly

away, leaving me breathless and completely

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movie ends, and everyone sighs

take. Aiden presses a flutter of kisses on

feel so hot and when Jake's fingers unbutton the shirt, I blow out a breath of relief. He pushes

watches me, pressing a soft kiss

to the kitchen, leaving me with Zaid and Aiden. Aiden comes up to me first, his hands cupping my

his eyes are

My chest aches.

"Hurt."

"I'm sorry."

behind my

kisses me on the

lower back, and he turns me toward him; other hand fisting the back of my neck

kisses me.

hips against mine, and I moan

"I'm gonna have to take

smile, wrapping my arms around his neck.

His nostrils flare. "Always."

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looking over my shoulder. I see a

know Jake

He rubs his hands down my arms as he pulls

thrown off by the expression

turn to face Jake, his eyes taking me in.

clenching. I chew on my lip, using every last bit of my

cover myself

a shaky breath, I whisper.

from my legs