Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 123

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I shift, trying to find comfort as I sit on the chair. Jake is sitting beside me while Aiden and Zaid sit across from us.

My blood is rushing through me, my breath shallow. I've been trying to get this conversation started since we sat down for dinner, but I haven't been able to get

the

words out.

Zaid sets his fork down and leans back in his chair. I raise my eyes to him and can tell with just the tilt of his head that he knows I have something to say. The last thing I want is for him to interrogate me.

I sigh. "Can we talk about how this is going to work?"

Jake turns to me mid-chew. "How what is going to work?"

I look at all of them before saying, “This relationship.”

Aiden looks at Zaid, then back at me. "What do you mean?"

I set my fork down and take a breath. "I mean, there's three of you and only one of me. I don't know... I don't know how I'm meant to juggle it. You and Zaid felt like a lot and now there's a fourth person."

Silence fills the room and I shift, grimacing when it makes the plug inside me

move.

Jake clears his throat and then leans forward. "We need a schedule."

Aiden groans immediately, throwing his head back in his chair. "Oh my God, you're making this sound like a job."

Zaid snorts, and I have to hide my smile.

"I hate the idea of something so rigid. What? I can only have my girlfriend on Mondays?" Aiden raises an eyebrow, clearly distraught at the idea.

Jake shoots him a sharp look. "You got a better idea?"

"Yeah. Let it just happen naturally."

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Zaid doesn't say anything, but I glance at him and see the way his jaw is tight, the way his fingers drum against the table. He doesn't like the idea of a schedule either. He acts when he feels something. I have no doubt about how impulsive he can be.

1 press my lips together, thinking. I get where Jake is coming from. If we don't figure this out, someone is going to get hurt. Not only are three men a lot for me to handle, but someone is going to feel left out. Still, the idea of scheduling who gets my time like I'm booking appointments? It doesn't feel right.

I take a deep breath. "Okay, what if, instead of a strict schedule, I decide which days I want for myself and which days I need a break? The rest can just... flow naturally."

Jake frowns. "That sounds a little too loose."

Aiden grins, crossing his arms over his chest. "I think it sounds perfect."

Jake purses his lips. "What if we at least each get a day a week?"

I smile, placing my hand on his arm. "I won't leave you out."

He eyes me.

"I promise. I want you all. Evenly." For some reason, that statement makes my face burn and my breath catch.

Zaid finally speaks, his voice low. A frown mars his face, and he tightens his hands into fists. "As long as I don't have to wait for a fucking schedule to be with you when I want to, I'm fine with whatever you want."

I smile at him, my chest tightening at the intensity in his eyes. "You won't."

Jake sighs, rubbing a hand down his face. "Okay, but you're spending tonight with me."

My body breaks into prickles, but I nod. "Okay."

There's probably a lot he wants to talk about. The brokenness in his voice tells me that it's going to be a long night. It doesn't bother me; I need to make it up to him. Fix what I can for waiting too long.

looks down at his plate, then frowns.

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shudders, my heart rate spiking as I think about what he has

takes my hand and we all make our way to the living room. When Aiden suggests we watch a movie, everyone agrees and I almost

gives me another hour at least to mentally prepare for my

couch between Jake and Aiden while Zaid sits alone in the recliner. He doesn't seem bothered and part of me thinks that

I relax into the cushion, covering

still only wearing

relaxed too soon. His fingers are hot, soft, and they hold on tight to my knee and pull my leg to drape

mouth with my hand. Zaid

then looking at Jake.

face serious and hard like he isn't rubbing circles around

jaw clenching.

hand slowly, his fingers soft. Nothing about this makes me feel like he actually wants me to come. I wrap

his head once, not even looking

the same as Jake, draping my leg over his lap, but he doesn't look for

me and I moan, throwing my head back onto the couch. My hips jerk and I'm seeking my release, the pent up pressure already

take.

to look at me, but when I look at Aiden, he's looking right at

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toward him, begging with my eyes. He smiles, slightly shaking his

out of me, my

warmth of the blanket disappears, and I gasp, turning to

to where Jake and Aiden are playing with me. His eyes

the edge. The hunger in his eyes is enough

over the edge. The attention of all three of my

rush

My lips part and I feel my muscles about to

Zaid says in that beautiful,

pull their hands away, leaving me breathless

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ends, and

just too much for any of us to take. Aiden presses a flutter of kisses on my neck and I melt into the couch, but Jake's hands wrap around my arm and I'm pulled

Jake's fingers unbutton the shirt, I blow out a breath of relief. He

me,

comes up to me first, his hands cupping my

his eyes are dark, lips pursed. "I'm

My chest aches.

"Hurt."

"I'm sorry."

my hair behind my ears.

nod, and he kisses me on the forehead before walking

he turns me toward him; other hand fisting the back of my neck

kisses me.

and I moan when I feel his erection between

have to take

wrapping my arms around his neck.

His nostrils flare. "Always."

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my

eyes and I know Jake has walked back

He rubs his hands down my arms as

off by the expression in

his eyes taking me in. He devours me with his

and jaw clenching. I chew on my lip, using every last bit of my

cover myself with my

a shaky breath, I whisper. "Jake, I'm

eyes lift from my legs to