Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 123

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I shift, trying to find comfort as I sit on the chair. Jake is sitting beside me while Aiden and Zaid sit across from us.

My blood is rushing through me, my breath shallow. I've been trying to get this conversation started since we sat down for dinner, but I haven't been able to get

the

words out.

Zaid sets his fork down and leans back in his chair. I raise my eyes to him and can tell with just the tilt of his head that he knows I have something to say. The last thing I want is for him to interrogate me.

I sigh. "Can we talk about how this is going to work?"

Jake turns to me mid-chew. "How what is going to work?"

I look at all of them before saying, “This relationship.”

Aiden looks at Zaid, then back at me. "What do you mean?"

I set my fork down and take a breath. "I mean, there's three of you and only one of me. I don't know... I don't know how I'm meant to juggle it. You and Zaid felt like a lot and now there's a fourth person."

Silence fills the room and I shift, grimacing when it makes the plug inside me

move.

Jake clears his throat and then leans forward. "We need a schedule."

Aiden groans immediately, throwing his head back in his chair. "Oh my God, you're making this sound like a job."

Zaid snorts, and I have to hide my smile.

"I hate the idea of something so rigid. What? I can only have my girlfriend on Mondays?" Aiden raises an eyebrow, clearly distraught at the idea.

Jake shoots him a sharp look. "You got a better idea?"

"Yeah. Let it just happen naturally."

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Zaid doesn't say anything, but I glance at him and see the way his jaw is tight, the way his fingers drum against the table. He doesn't like the idea of a schedule either. He acts when he feels something. I have no doubt about how impulsive he can be.

1 press my lips together, thinking. I get where Jake is coming from. If we don't figure this out, someone is going to get hurt. Not only are three men a lot for me to handle, but someone is going to feel left out. Still, the idea of scheduling who gets my time like I'm booking appointments? It doesn't feel right.

I take a deep breath. "Okay, what if, instead of a strict schedule, I decide which days I want for myself and which days I need a break? The rest can just... flow naturally."

Jake frowns. "That sounds a little too loose."

Aiden grins, crossing his arms over his chest. "I think it sounds perfect."

Jake purses his lips. "What if we at least each get a day a week?"

I smile, placing my hand on his arm. "I won't leave you out."

He eyes me.

"I promise. I want you all. Evenly." For some reason, that statement makes my face burn and my breath catch.

Zaid finally speaks, his voice low. A frown mars his face, and he tightens his hands into fists. "As long as I don't have to wait for a fucking schedule to be with you when I want to, I'm fine with whatever you want."

I smile at him, my chest tightening at the intensity in his eyes. "You won't."

Jake sighs, rubbing a hand down his face. "Okay, but you're spending tonight with me."

My body breaks into prickles, but I nod. "Okay."

There's probably a lot he wants to talk about. The brokenness in his voice tells me that it's going to be a long night. It doesn't bother me; I need to make it up to him. Fix what I can for waiting too long.

plate, then frowns.

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as I

and we all make our way to

at least to mentally

Jake and Aiden while Zaid sits alone in the recliner. He doesn't seem bothered and part of me thinks that it's because Jake

starts off fine and I relax into the cushion, covering my

only wearing

soft, and they hold on tight to my knee and pull my leg to drape it over his lap. I tense, his name on my lips, to ask him what he's doing when he trails his fingers up

my hand. Zaid looks

then looking at Jake.

his face serious and hard like he isn't rubbing circles

jaw clenching.

like he actually wants me to come. I wrap my hands around his arm

head once, not even looking

does the same as Jake, draping

throwing my head back onto the couch.

take.

when I look at Aiden, he's looking right at

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have someone on my side. I lean toward him, begging with

wetness is pouring out of me, my orgasm right

blanket disappears, and I gasp, turning to face Zaid. He has

his eyes glued to where Jake and Aiden

the edge. The hunger in his eyes is

edge. The attention of all three

rush

and I feel my

to come," Zaid says in that beautiful,

pull their hands away,

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ends, and

is just too much for any of us to take. Aiden presses a flutter of kisses on my neck and I melt into the couch, but

feel so hot and when Jake's fingers unbutton the shirt, I blow out a breath of relief. He pushes the shirt down my arms until it falls to my

goosebumps. Jake watches me, pressing a soft kiss to my hip. "Kiss

his hands cupping my face before his lips press to mine. His tongue delves into

heavy, his eyes are dark, lips pursed. "I'm still

My chest aches.

"Hurt."

"I'm sorry."

my ears.

me on the forehead

lower back, and he turns me toward him; other hand fisting the back of

kisses me.

hips against mine, and I moan when

have to take a cold

wrapping my arms around his neck. "Think

His nostrils flare. "Always."

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shift from mine, looking over my shoulder. I see a

Jake has walked back into the

my arms as he pulls

off by

to face Jake, his eyes taking me in. He devours me with his

and jaw clenching. I chew on my lip, using

cover myself with

shaky breath, I whisper. "Jake, I'm

eyes lift from my legs to