Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 213

Hurry Up, Please

I look over at my empty closet and finish folding the last hoodie into the suitcase and stop to take a breath. My heart feels like it's trying to crawl out of my chest, and I can't tell if it's fear or longing or both.

Maybe it's all of it.

I don't want to leave. Not really. Not Aiden's warm hands and soft mouth, or Jake's intense touches and heated glances. I don't want to leave behind the arms that still pull me in like I'm something they crave, because I know Zaid won't. Not like that.

And I hate that I'm even thinking about the lack of intimacy. Because it means Zaid was right. About me. About the way I run to sex instead of dealing with what's actually wrong.

Then, part of me wants to go. Wants to be alone with him. Because maybe if we're together again, if he sees me trying, if he hears the way I breathe easier around him than anyone else, maybe he'll want us again.

Maybe I can show him that I'm okay. Or at least trying to be. Maybe we could fix this.

I don't know how I'm supposed to live in a house with him again. With his quiet patience, with his eyes that still look at me like I'm made of the stars. I want him. God, I want him. But he doesn't want me. Not like that. Not anymore.

The truth is, that even if it's just awkward silences and polite distance and him sleeping down the hall, I'm still looking forward to leaving.

Melview's heavy with memories now. Arizona was supposed to be a clean slate, a place to start over. Instead, it turned into a collage of pain and mistakes and blurred lines. It got messy fast.

But this? This house in the green somewhere? It's a real fresh start. No history. No pressure. Just space. And it's with Zaid.

Zaid, who never talks unless he has something real to say.

Zaid, who listens all the way through and remembers every word I don't mean to say out loud.

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He's the only one I can have long conversations with and not want to run halfway through them, or avoid them altogether.

He makes silence feel full, not empty. Because he's the only person I've ever known who

it hurts. My hands shake slightly as I zip the

1. up.

and I haven't been alone together since the breakup. Since I walked away from him and into Aiden's arms like a coward. I tell myself I

the truth is simpler, and worse: I was

wanted

at the

"Yeah?" I call out.

his eyes

biting the

inside, closing the door gently behind him. "What are

serious frown

my nose. "I'm just trying to figure out how I'm going to do all

Zaid."

frowns. "What

being around him. Living with him. I still..." My voice breaks. I look down at my hands.

into a hug, resting his chin on the top of my head. "Of course you

at him. "You think

I'll join

press a kiss to his cheek, then another to

and leaves without another word.

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and head downstairs.

me before I reach the

one yet," Zaid is saying, voice clipped. "We'll figure it

She wants somewhere quiet,

sound like he's already tired of this. I round the

just

see them, while

do, send me the details.

of silence before the shift. The tension