Secrets of Us A Forbidden Love Romance (Alina)

Chapter 240

Chapter 240

I sit on the windowsill of the art room, knees tucked to my chest. I've had that confusion build inside my chest for the past weeks and it's killing me.

I feel like a coward because I haven't talked to Zaid or Cami about. I blow out a slow breath and pick up my phone, deciding to just get it over with.

Cami picks up after two rings. "Hey, Alina."

"Hi," I say, soft. "Do you have time to talk?"

"It is my office hours, so yes, I have time for you," she replies warmly. "Is

everything okay?"

I stare out the window, watching Zaid through the glass as he waters the little herb garden we planted last week. "Tired. Nervous, maybe."

"Because Aiden's flying in tomorrow?"

"Yeah." I exhale. "I thought I was okay with everything. But now that it's real, now that he's coming, I feel off."

There's a pause. "Tell me more."

"I've been talking to him on the phone," I start, "and it's fine. He's sweet. Kind. Always checks in. I don't feel tense or weird like I did with Jake. But is that enough? Is that enough to stay with someone?"

Cami hums gently. "That's a very important question. And I think, instead of rushing to

answer it, we should first explore what's behind it. What does it mean to you that Aiden has been kind to you?"

I chew on my lip. "It means he loves me. That he's safe. That he deserves someone who

as much as he wants

have

I close my eyes.

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trauma, grief. And in the wake of that, your instinct has been to cling to any love that doesn't hurt, and in some cases, love that does hurt. The pain feels like a distraction for you. It makes sense. That's

ungrateful. He's been good to me. He's never made me feel small. But when

see him in it."

"What do you see?"

image comes too fast. Zaid's laugh. Us. Kissing, sleeping

his brow creases

swallow hard. "Zaid. He's all I

"And when you picture Zaid, do you

I don't hesitate. "Peace."

Alina," she says, her tone kind but firm. "You've grown up believing that you owe your loyalty to anyone who sees your worth.

hurts him? What if I become the person

Aiden. Not him."

for your truth. And for respecting his enough to not lead

passes. Then she asks, “Do you think part of you feels that

I want Aiden

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exhales softly. "That fear makes sense. You've had love taken from you, by force, by trauma, by abandonment. Your instinct is to hold on tight. But healing

eyes. "I

is in the right place. But staying in something you no longer want will hurt you both in the

to stay with him, that I did want him. But being alone with Zaid this past month makes me question