Shackled (The Lord Series) by Amy T

198. Olivia - Old friend III

Jasper pats his lap, but Tyson is still holding me by my waist. "You can let go of me now," I say to him.

"Not before I make it clear that you are not to engage with the other Lords. You know I don't make light of my threats. Don't make me drag you back to the shed," Tyson snarls into my ear.

My back stiffens. "You can do as you wish. We both know you are much stronger. Besides, I don't want to engage with the Lords, just talk to my friend Levi. Or am I forbidden to do that?"

Tyson's grip on me tightens. Maybe he is right. Ever since I was forced to stopped using drugs, I've had a hard time holding back my words. And then there's this anger that keeps building and building inside of me and I don't even know why I feel like this. Or when it began. But I want to scream until I lose my voice. Jason would have never accepted such disobedience from me.

Levi's eyes are fixed on me, but I try to pretend everything is fine.

In a low voice, Tyson tells me, "Whores like you don't have friends. Only men desperate enough to want to fuck a pussy like yours.” To Rueben, he says, "We are taking the bitch shopping.”

Shopping. Right. Maybe Tyson finally decided he has had enough of me and he wants to get rid of me. Some feeling similar to happiness fills me. I wasn't lying when I said I was so tired of living. The idea of being with Camila in the next life is the only thing keeping me sane. When I close my eyes, I always see her waiting for me in a meadow. A lump forms in my throat. The stitches on my right arm itch. It would be so easy to reopen that wound and bleed to death. I can't do this to Ansel, I remind myself.

Why did he have to bond with me? Was it to punish me by forcing me to live and endure all the painful memories that won't let me sleep during the night?

Jasper feels there's something wrong with what Tyson said, as he

finally lets go of me and I quickly

had to ask favors from our friends, we might as well save them from having to look at her scars. I think it is time we buy her some proper clothes.” Is Tyson ashamed

lap and kisses my cheek. Is he trying to comfort me? Because I am so past caring about what men think of me. My life ended

and says to Tyson, “I

Tyson's temple. "You know nothing about me so don't pretend we are friends. The only reason you are here is because you are Rin's blood-brother and I trust

at her house. Tyson and Rueben never liked Levi, considering him not good enough for Camila. No one was ever

my friend. You and Rueben can go get fucked if you don't like if she

is so thick in the air it can be cut

voice breaks upon saying her name, "would have liked that." "Don't

to our dysfunctional family," he says to Gavin, Isak, and Steven who appear

living in this house

against

sure which one he is since Rin didn't make it clear. The man clears my confusion quickly. "I'm Gavin." He will be easy to remember since he is the only one with dirty blond hair. Pointing at the other two men, Gavin adds, "These are my blood-brothers. They are