Shackled (The Lord Series) by Amy T

209. Olivia - Kiss I

*I don't think that I can take no more.*

Jason didn't always have to beat me to incite fear in me. His favorite way to control me was to lock me up in a closet and leave me there for days. The longest time I was locked up was a few months before he took me to the Celestial Heaven. Celestial Heaven, my ass. I don't even know why it's called that when women are abused there daily. Angels were supposed to be the good guys but the reality is another. Not that the demons are any better, but so far, I have been treated better by Mose and his blood-brothers than any of the Dukes, even if they don't give me drugs or Tyson and Rueben tortured me.

Mose runs his thumb over the bandage that still covers my right arm. "Tomorrow, I'll remove the stitches. Only a few more steps until we get to the kitchen."

I almost forgot about the stitches.

If Ansel had not entered the house that day, what would have happened to me? I would probably not be here today. In a way, Ansel saving my life opened a new chapter in my life. I'm still not sure what that means, but with each passing moment, the bond between him and me grows stronger until it becomes permanent. And now Mose wants to bond with me. I don't think I've been more confused in my entire life. I don't understand what Jasper, Ansel, and Mose want from me. There is nothing left that I can give them.

"Can I take the blind off now?" I don't know why I bother asking since I already know the answer.

"Not unless you want to break our promise."

Not ripping the blind off and letting Mose guide me around the house is a bigger challenge than I expected. I've spent so much time in the darkness, staring at it until it stared back at me. I hate not being able to see. But I have to keep my end of the deal-trust Mose and he won't tell the others what I confessed to him.

I still don't know why I told Mose that I have something evil inside me. When the doctors placed it inside me, inside my uterus, I was numb for days, refusing to accept such a cruel thing was done to me, but now, after years of feeling the darkness spreading inside me, I can no longer ignore it. What will happen to me when it will overpower me?

I can't let such a thing happen.

are playing. Too many people have been affected already. And for what? To destroy the Garden of Eden. Or perhaps they want to control it? They are not the only ones ploying against God and his creation. There are others like Carlos. But after he tortured Angelica and she got away from his clutches, he

there's this Blight that Wasp told me

fight

left in this world

my strength, hoping, praying that he would come for me, but it never happened. When Jason showed me videos of Ansel, Tyson, and Rueben fucking women after women, I knew I had lost everything. But I still hoped that I could

my thoughts. Without the sweet numbness of the drugs, my mind is slowly clearing and I can think logically again. Or I'm trying to do so, but there are still many dark thoughts and memories

to peek from beneath the blindfold, but I can't see a thing.

with me. "Maybe they went to check on the

walk several steps more

Mose kisses me. "And don't take off the blindfold. I'll know if you did do so and then I'll have to punish

"I won't," I

leaves the kitchen and the

is one thing that I've learned is to stay put no matter what. Once, while I was in the Celestial Heaven, Carlos had me stand in the middle of a room and he had his men shoot around me. The sound of the guns reminded me of... the night when Camila died and...

life the way I wanted, I still didn't have a choice regarding my future. Just like the night Camila died. If there

and the

the kitchen opens and someone enters. My pulse quickens because I

is *he* here? I thought Mose said that only he, Ansel, and Jasper

I found here. A lost Little