Shackled (The Lord Series) by Amy T

222. Rueben - Doubts III

I rush after Tyson, hoping to catch him in time before he does something reckless. But he is much faster than I am. Cursing and yelling, I force my legs to move quicker and when I finally enter the kitchen, I yell, "Are you fucking stupid or

what?" thinking Tyson is already throwing punches left and right.

Luckily, he is only arguing with Ansel, and I stay the fuck away from their fight, not because I don't have anything to say about this entire situation, but because being so close to the Slutty Nun...has me feel all her pain and anguish and fear. It almost brings me to my fucking knees. Breathing becomes hard and my heart throbs painfully. What the fuck is going on?

For a moment, I see the Slutty Nun, no, Olivia, as she was years ago-happy and carefree. She is no longer like that. She is like a...shell of her former shelf. Has she been like this all this time or is this recently? And I care because....?

What if Levi is right?

What if Tyson is right and we were played? But how? I remember clearly finding her in her room with the gun in her hands and Camila's cold sprawled across the rug. Ansel finally gives the Slutty Nun to Tyson and he leaves the kitchen with her.

Mose drops on a chair and drags his palms down his face. "I fucked up big time with Olivia. I didn't think she would be triggered this badly."

Ansel starts smoking. "It was me who fucking failed her. Again." He rubs his temples. "Tyson had no right to take her away from me, not when I'm bonded to her." "Drop it," I snarl.

Jasper starts cleaning the kitchen and I give him a hand.

"She is not ready for heavy stuff," Mose murmurs. "We need to take things slow with her."

Levi showed Tyson and me, I comment, "No shit." I start washing the dishes in

if you never hurt Olivia. I might be a piece of shit, but at least I own my mistakes. But you? You

is my problem? That's a good question. And I might

It's more than that.

first time since Camila died, I have doubts about everything. And then Tyson goes ahead and drops a fucking nuclear bomb on me by saying

because if that is true... then, I tortured the woman that I was supposed to love. And there ain't no way, no fucking way, she is ours. Because there's no way in hell I'm supposed to

And

Tyson to take care of Olivia. To make her understand she is fucking perfect

"Sit the fuck

for my behavior. What can I tell them? That *probably* Tyson and I tortured Olivia for nothing? That we broke her when she probably did nothing wrong? I can't accept that *I* might have screwed up

Impossible.

found her after she killed Camila,

*But are we sure?*

fucking trust Tyson more than I trust myself. And if he says something is wrong, then surely something is wrong. But

to Tyson and me. This guy who sold Olivia to us, he and his buddies did despicable things to Olivia. Malaky," I add when I remember his name. I might be a fucking piece of shit, but

eyes turn red. "Show it

it's one of the most fucked up things I have

is sweeping the floor, grips the broom so hard it

finish washing the dishes. "Dark

face grey as the ashes.