She Accepted Divorce, He Panicked by Nyx Rai

Chapter 54

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Sebastian's POV

She doesn't love me anymore. Still having a hard time getting used to it, but I can't deny that anymore.

It's not supposed to be like this, but I feel like I lost something precious. How could you feel bad for losing something you never wanted in

the first place? How is that fair?! I didn't want it, but she forced her love into my hand, and now she is taking it back, still with force. I never had a chance to make a decision in this.

Never in my life, have I ever felt what "unreachable desire" is.

I never knew what I had until it was lost. But it was gone too fast. One second, it was as solid as the ground under my feet, and the next second it was just gone. How could someone shut down their love, so firm and decisive?

She didn't just take care of our house, she built a home for us. When I "go home", she should be there. With a smile, in a lingerie, cooking. Anything. It was a place where no problem could penetrate, where I could rest and refresh for the next day. She made it so safe that I How could she just...leave?

I don't even know what exactly went wrong. I mean, I didn't treat her the best, I know that now, and I want to amend. But I don't even know where to start.

when I "accepted" her divorce papers, but she accused me of seeing her as a blood vessel; later I thought it was because of the past few months when I was occupied by Ava's surgery, but then

that there is still more and meaner things that I have

be so cruel. And I can't even justify any of those.

such a vicious, evil,

can't even find a

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mean, aside from Ava's

direction, but when I took out Ava's weight on my judgment of Scar, I

want a divorce," I open with as genuine a tone as

I'm willing to work on them. I'm sorry I didn't hear you five years ago, and I wasn't happy when I got into the marriage, but even then, I never considered ending it. It wasn't my way of tricking you

it's because she still cares about my feelings. I

manner.

I mess up

And then again. She wants to say something, and I can literally see her effort of trying to make them less hurtful. I have seen that process on her countless times - when she loved

dare not to fathom

she would be cold and sarcastic like before, and

me the one question