She Approved the Split He Fell Apart

Chapter 54

054 Undesired

Sebastian’s POV

She doesn’t love me anymore. Still having a hard time getting used to it, but I can’t deny that anymore.

It’s not supposed to be like this, but I feel like I lost something precious. How could you feel bad for losing something you never wanted in the first place? How is that fair?! I didn’t want it, but she forced her love into my hand, and now she is taking it back, still with force. I never had a chance to make a decision in this.

Never in my life, have I ever felt what “unreachable desire” is.

I never knew what I had until it was lost. But it was gone too fast. One second, it was as solid as the ground under my feet, and the next second it was just gone. How could someone shut down their love, so firm and decisive?

She didn’t just take care of our house, she built a home for us. When I “go home“, she should be there. With a smile, in a lingerie, cooking. Anything. It was a place where no problem could penetrate, where I could rest and refresh for the next day. She made it so safe that I never even considered that it could be gone.

How could she just…leave?

I don’t even know what exactly went wrong. I mean, I didn’t treat her the best, I know that now, and I want to amend. But I don’t even know where to start.

At first I thought I went too far when I “accepted” her divorce papers, but she accused me of seeing her as a blood vessel; later I thought it was because of the past few months when I was occupied by Ava’s surgery, but then it was about the one time kiss that she should never know about; I thought it was because I didn’t give her the love she required, only to be told that I misunderstood her this whole time.

and every time I do, I have to find out that there is still more and meaner things

could be so cruel. And I can’t even justify any of those. How could I have been

did I think of her as such a vicious, evil, unreasonable

now I can’t even find a shred

054 Unidesired

+25 BONUS

mean, aside

want to think in that direction, but when I took out Ava’s weight on my judgment of Scar, I suddenly found the

five years ago, and

at some point she

dare not hope it’s because she still cares about my feelings. I guess it was

manner.

I mess up my

something, and I can literally see her effort of trying to make them less hurtful.

to fathom her motivation behind it

actions at my face. I thought she would be cold and sarcastic like before, and I was

she didn’t. She throws me the one

“Can you love me…ever?”