She Approved the Split He Fell Apart

Chapter 54

054 Undesired

Sebastian’s POV

She doesn’t love me anymore. Still having a hard time getting used to it, but I can’t deny that anymore.

It’s not supposed to be like this, but I feel like I lost something precious. How could you feel bad for losing something you never wanted in the first place? How is that fair?! I didn’t want it, but she forced her love into my hand, and now she is taking it back, still with force. I never had a chance to make a decision in this.

Never in my life, have I ever felt what “unreachable desire” is.

I never knew what I had until it was lost. But it was gone too fast. One second, it was as solid as the ground under my feet, and the next second it was just gone. How could someone shut down their love, so firm and decisive?

She didn’t just take care of our house, she built a home for us. When I “go home“, she should be there. With a smile, in a lingerie, cooking. Anything. It was a place where no problem could penetrate, where I could rest and refresh for the next day. She made it so safe that I never even considered that it could be gone.

How could she just…leave?

I don’t even know what exactly went wrong. I mean, I didn’t treat her the best, I know that now, and I want to amend. But I don’t even know where to start.

At first I thought I went too far when I “accepted” her divorce papers, but she accused me of seeing her as a blood vessel; later I thought it was because of the past few months when I was occupied by Ava’s surgery, but then it was about the one time kiss that she should never know about; I thought it was because I didn’t give her the love she required, only to be told that I misunderstood her this whole time.

out that there is still more

could be so cruel. And I can’t even justify any of those. How could I have been

a vicious, evil, unreasonable person for so

a shred

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aside

that direction, but when I took out Ava’s weight on

I open with as genuine a tone as I can manage, “I know we have I know I have problems, but I’m willing to work on them. I’m sorry I didn’t hear you five years ago, and I wasn’t happy when I got into the marriage, but even then, I never considered ending it. It wasn’t my way of tricking you into helping

surprised, and that enlightenment hurts. I think at some point she was about to

not hope it’s because she still cares about my feelings. I guess it was

manner.

did I mess up my

see her effort of trying to make them less hurtful. I have seen that process on her countless times – when she

to fathom

actions at my face. I thought she would be cold and sarcastic like before, and I was ready

me the

“Can you love me…ever?”