Shifted Fate by Alicia S.Rivers

Is a mistake from the Moon Goddess 189

Chapter 189

The knock on the door has the two of us jumping apart. I stared up at him with wide eyes. What the fuck was that? Was he toying with me now? I shook my head to clear the muddled thoughts racing through my mind. I needed to take a few steps back, but the counter was behind me. I wanted to push him away, but I knew if I touched him, I would fall apart. I would jump into his arms and I would allow him to walk over my heart like I did with Brandon.

He isn't him. Megan's soft voice countered my inner thoughts. He is nice, and just, and-

And not mine. I stopped her. If I allow myself to think about him in any other way, I think I will shatter this time. He might not be Brandon, but I never really liked him as a person. I loved him as my mate because we were destined to be together. As the moon goddess intended, but I never viewed him as a friend, a partner. Someone I could grow with. I felt the burn of tears. I can see that with Rowan.

Then why not? Nix's voice was softer than I had ever heard her. Why not see where this could go?

me. I have to be smarter than I was in my last life. We need to be smarter. I coughed as I realized we were just staring at each other. "I should get that." I looked away as I reached back to turn off the water. I trailed against the cupboards, trying my best not to touch him, but his eyes trailed

to collect myself. But I didn't have long as the knock sounded again and I could hear the faint sniffles coming from my mother. I think Rowan heard her too. His voice came closer. "I

my face for a second too long, and I knew he probably caught the slight redness in my eyes from fighting the tears. I coughed again and turned back to the door. "Thank you for coming. I appreciated the backup when talking to everyone. You aren't mad that

my shoulder and I closed my eyes. Please, goddess, don't let him touch me. I prayed. "I won't be around, and I want you

"Thank you for the apartment. It is amazing." I smiled over my

could tell he wanted to discuss it. But I cut my eyes away before he caught the

begged. Not right now. "Yeah?" I turned

eyes cut away as he tucked his hands into the front pockets of his jeans. "I'm heading back out tonight, and I don't know when I will get to see you

words hit me like physical blows.

have a lot of things