Sold as the Alpha King’s Breeder

Chapter 71 : I Need Your Help

*Lena*

“What do you mean?" I sneered as Adrian slammed the door shut behind him. His blue eyes narrowed on mine for a split second before peering around the room. “He's not here! I thought he went back to Egoren–"

“He didn't. I haven't heard from him in two weeks."

My heart dropped into my stomach as I searched Adrian's eyes for understanding. His gaze lingered on mine, furious and intense, but then he glanced at the dying embers in the hearth and bared his teeth.

“It's f*****g freezing," he sneered through chattering teeth as he shrugged off his sodden coat and let it drop to his ankles. He began striping down while I stood there, shellshocked. “Do you have a blanket, or a towel?"

He was standing in only a wet undershirt and his boxers now, the fabric clining wetly to his skin.

“Lena?"

“Yeah, I–I'm sorry."

I walked around one of the couches and tossed him a thick wool blanket before kneeling by the hearth and stoking the embers until they began to glow. I heard him slump into the armchair closest to the fire, his teeth chattering violently as I added a handful of kindling and bark to the embers. My fingers felt numb as I worked to stoke the fire into a hot blaze. The heat of the fresh flames so close to my hands did nothing for the chill that ran through me, and it wasn't from the cold.

“He hasn't contacted you?"

“Not at all," I replied, glancing over my shoulder at him before tossing a log on the fire and closing the grates.

His cheeks were pink with cold, and his wet hair was dripping onto the blanket, little puddles of moisture casting shadows over his shoulders.

“How did you find me?"

“Do you realize the chaos you caused in Avondale? Your family is in an absolute f*****g fit, Lena. Abigail told me where to find you," he bit out, his eyes reflecting from the flames like a mirror as he looked at me. “And don't worry. No one else knows where you are. That's what you wanted, right? Leaving behind only a note telling your parents you were sorry.... Your father is threatening war against Egoren. He thinks Xander ran off with you."

“He's what?" I rose onto my knees, my stomach clenching painfully as I wrung my hands together.

Adrian shook his head, his mouth tightening into a smirk. “Yeah. You heard me correctly. I almost got arrested by your uncle's warriors just for showing up at the palace. The only reason they let me go is because I explained that I was there for Xander regarding Crimson Creek, and your grandfather stepped in–"

“Crimson Creek?" I interrupted, rising to my feet. “What about it?"

“What do you mean, what about it?"

I blinked down at him. I prayed he could see the confusion and panic behind my eyes.

“Xander hasn't told you s**t, has he?"

I shook my head, and Adrian groaned dramatically as he leaned his head back against the armchair and closed his eyes.

“You two are a mess, you know that? I've never met two people so dead set on self-sabotage–"

“Excuse me?" I snapped, crossing my arms over my chest. “What the hell do you want, Adrian? I don't know where Xander is. He left, for all I know. We fought, and then he was just… gone. I had my back turned to him for a second and when I turned back around he was gone. I haven't seen him or heard from since that day, and I left Avondale a few days later. I have a job now. I have a home, and a new pack. I have no plans to go to Avondale, or Valoria, or anywhere for that matter. Whatever mess Xander created that he's running from is not my problem–"

“Something is wrong, Lena. That's why I came here, to find you. Xander wouldn't just disappear–"

“He's disappeared on me multiple times!" I cried, my pain and heartbreak spilling over the edge of my calculated grip on my composure. Tears rolled off my eyelashes and streamed down my cheeks, trailing along my jaw as I gripped my arms, hugging myself. “I loved him, Adrian. He broke my heart over and over and lied to me. He hasn't told me anything about Crimson Creek, you're right. He wouldn't. He couldn't even give me the peace of mind of knowing the warriors for Breles were still there looking for signs of Elaine and Henry. I don't know how Bethany is doing, or what Gideon and his family are up to. Xander is a liar, a manipulator, and I hope I never, ever see him again."

Adrian pressed his tongue against the inside of his lower lip, shaking his head slowly from side to side. “You're wrong about him–"

“Am I? If I was wrong, he'd be here right now. He would've chased me here and tried to make things right, but he's not that kind of man–"

“You don't realize what he's done for you, to keep you safe."

“I don't need saving!"

“For f**k's sake, Lena. You do. You do need saving because you refuse to save yourself. You refuse to use your powers. You refuse to learn. You're stuck in this fantasy world you created based on your own fear of who you really are, and Xander has stuck his neck out for you time and time again!" Adrian rose, the wool blanket cocooned around him the only thing to soften the look of pure hatred lining his features. His stance and expression sent a shock through my system. He looked terrifying, and for the first time, I noticed the faint scars that rippled over his cheeks and the bridge of his nose, the patches of white skin highlighted by the fire that was now roaring in the hearth.

“He loves you, and he's a fool for it in my opinion. He came to this realm to find a wife with White Queen blood that wouldn't die bearing his heir, and he chose you. He loved you, against his better judgment."

“You're a f*****g bastard!"

“YOU," he said hotly, narrowing his eyes on me, “haven't given him any credit for what he's done to protect you. And unless you help me find him, you won't have the chance."

“Xander and I are nothing!" I cried. “He didn't even have the decency to reject our bond so I could move on. Adrian, for the love of the Goddess, you don't understand–"

“Xander and I have killed together. Did you know that? Has he ever mentioned his time fighting the wars in our homeland, the bloodshed he tried to end? He saved my life more than once, and those acts bound me to him for life. I am his Beta, but I'm also his friend, and I know him. I know him, okay? And I know that something is wrong–"

“What do you want me to do, Adrian?"

“Help me find him. Despite what you think of him, he wouldn't abandon you. I've never seen him like he was around you. He told me, that day he ran into you and Slate on campus.... He said he'd found her. He found 'the one.' He was f*****g giddy, if you can believe it. I thought that meant we were packing up to go home, but he refused to just… just take you back to Egoren. He said you were his mate. I believed him. And I believe him now."

I didn't have the words to convey my feelings. I felt like I was being ripped to shreds, and rightfully so. Adrian hadn't been wrong at all about his description of me. No matter how badly it hurt to admit, he was right. I was a coward. I ran when things get tough. I hid when I get scared. I'd been hiding, and running, my entire life.

Xander had been one of the only people in my life who embraced me for my faults. He was also the only person who had ever pushed me to be better, to learn… and most importantly, he'd done so without putting me into a box and forcing me to go somewhere, and be something that I didn't want to be.

But his omission of an incredibly painful truth had hit me like a freight train as I looked up at Adrian, tears clouding my vision.

“He was going to propose to me. He'd asked for my parents' blessing. He had a ring and everything. We were arguing about how this all could possibly work. And then he told me… he told me I couldn't have children, because of what happened–"