Strings of Fate

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“Great! Well in that case, want to come over for a bit? I thought we could look at some bridesmaid dresses and wedding dresses online and stuff. Search for inspiration.” Her sudden mood swings are giving me whiplash. I’m not awake enough to keep up with them.

“Uh, yeah sure. Okay. I’ll need a bit, I need to wash my hair and stuff before I can come.”

“You only just woke up didn’t you?” She accuses, her tone is amused though.

“I thought you sounded half asleep. It’s already almost midday, time to get up sleeping

beauty.”

“What? That can’t be right? I feel like I haven’t slept at all. Maybe I’m coming down with something.” I slept terribly and I feel super tired even though I slept in late. Maybe I caught at bug. Or all the stress in recent days is finally catching up with me.

“Maybe. If it makes you feel any better, you’re probably less of a mess than my brother is. I found him wandering the house at like five in the morning. I’m pretty sure he didn’t sleep again. He’s back in bed now but I’m not sure he’s actually sleeping, I swear I heard him answering phone calls in there. He seems pretty strung out. Maybe you’re both sick?” she

suggests.

“I hope not. If it’s something contagious I should probably stay away.”

“Nah, if I was going to catch something from you or Bellamy I would have by now, I’m sure it’s fine. Come on over when you’re ready, kay?”

see

I’ve ever needed it more. When I climb out the shower I groan, I STILL have raccoon eyes. I use the corner of my towel and a bit of water to wipe away as much as I can. I don’t have any makeup remover since I don’t tend to wear makeup often enough to need it. Whatever, Megan will have something I can use to get the rest later. Since I feel like crap I decide to stick to comfy

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be able to leave the house and not be totally embarrassed. I pull a brush through my hair but don’t worry about drying it. I’m just gonna chill with Megan, she won’t be bothered about my hair

I slept so late. Have you eaten?” Aaron shakes his head. Darn it, still not speaking. I phrase my next

you prefer to just wait and eat after you’ve dropped me off?” There, he has to answer that out loud,

set up the

talk!” He gives me a look that says ‘of course I can talk.

I figure Aaron is not going to be providing me with any kind of conversation, I pull my phone out to scroll through random internet stuff. Oops, I left it out. last night so it’s already only on twenty percent power. Well, whatever, who is going to call me anyway? Megan and Bellamy are the only ones who ever call, and I’ll be at their house……. oh no. I totally forgot that I might run

repeat. I climb out the car and work to keep myself composed. Still, I’m dragging my feet a little as we head up to the door. I am insanely nervous as the door swings open to reveal… Megan. I breath a sigh of relief. Megan gives me a curious

mistaken. I doubt I’ll actually

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kitchen. Chicken sandwiches and apple juice, I didn’t realise I was so hungry but I’m suddenly starving. I’m just sitting and eating when Megan suddenly jumps to her

start to get up too but she pushes me back

for Bellamy to arrive. Darn, she has apparently decided we need to talk things out. Not that she actually knows what’s wrong. It helps a little that Bellamy looks almost as uncomfortable as I do, and twice as tired. He also looks… incredibly depressed. At least he does for the few seconds it takes for him to compose himself. He steps into the kitchen and begins making himself a sandwich with the stuff Megan and I have

he

reach his eyes. What does he understand perfectly? I don’t even understand perfectly, so how can

it doesn’t matter. Everything will stay the way it was. Alright?” he looks to me for some kind of agreement. So he wants to pretend it didn’t happen? I guess I can work with that. For now at least, until the awkwardness passes a bit. I nod wordlessly. Bellamy smiles

well… I should… go.” He turns and walks straight out the kitchen. It takes me moment to realise that he left the sandwich he made behind on the bench. He didn’t eat any of