Strings of Fate

84- Ideas and intentions

“Aaron isn’t coming.” I point out.

“He has the day off. I figure I’ll be with you guys all day so he doesn’t need to hang around.” Megan nods absent mindedly, typing something into her phone. I’m not sure she’s really listening. Well, whatever, I’ll try again another time. I finish eating then go to shower and get dressed. Megan picked out a cute little sundress and sandals outfit combo for me. It’s a light blue colour that brings out my pale eyes and emphasises the blue in my hair. I’m still not sure about dressing in a way that emphasises my eyes but she is determined to convince me to. I agreed to try things her way for a while and see if it makes any difference in how people treat me. So far… she’s right. No one has been any different than they usually are. Megan insists on taking the time to do my face up with some light makeup and then she braids my hair for me. She then borrows my bathroom and gets herself dressed. While she is getting ready, I check my phone and realise I have a message from Darrien.

Darrien- How is she today?

Ryann- Good I think. We managed to watch a romance movie last night and she was okay with it. No nightmares last night either which is a good sign.

Darrien- I’m glad. I am hoping to have a chance to do something today.

Ryann- Do something? Like what?

Darrien- I’m not sure yet. I plan to play it by ear. Just… something to make my intentions a little more clear to her maybe? I think it depends how she is feeling though.

Ryann- !!! Ooh now I am super excited. If I’m not there when it happens you’ll have to tell me how it goes, yeah? And hopefully that will get Megan thinking a little so she talks to me

about it so I can talk you up.

Darrien- I am not so sure about that… that might be a little more than i’m aiming for.

Ryann- We shall see… Good luck today!

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door and let him in. He greets me with a kiss in my hair and a tight hug. Darrien is only a minute or so behind him and arrives quickly. They took separate cars as Bellamy

me teasingly and skips off with Darrien to his car. I roll my eyes..The teasing wasn’t necessary but I do want her to spend more time with

make a move on Megan at some point today.” I tell

even ready for something like that?” He

It’s okay. He adores her, he wouldn’t do anything to

intentions long term. He won’t expect anything from her. Besides, I think it will be good for her.” I tell him calmly. He

he looks very

I know you said they’re fated and you have faith they will be together, but isn’t it a bit soon?” Bellamy

But all he wants is for her to be aware of him and consider him as a potential option. I think it will be good for her because she needs to feel wanted right now.

to you. He didn’t care for her personally at all. That’s got to hurt her self–esteem quite a bit. She was used and now she doesn’t trust her own judgement. I think knowing exactly what he wants will allow her to learn to trust herself again, and it will also help her self–esteem. Feeling like someone

make

done wonders for my self esteem. I’m dressing in’new ways, wearing makeup, going out, meeting people. It’s so different, and I am terrified but there’s no way I could have gotten through it

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his feelings… for her ego?”

might not even react well, and if she does react poorly it won’t matter, because it will still help her realise that her worth isn’t diminished because of one idiot. But honestly, I think she just has never even considered him. So while I don’t expect her to fall into his arms, I think she will consider him, and maybe choose to discuss him with me. Really,

sense. What exactly is he planning

exactly, he wasn’t very specific. I think he plans to just wait for a good opportunity. I’m looking forward to seeing how

booth type seat. Megan and I sit across from each other by the wall while Darrien and Bellamy sit beside us. Bellamy beside me of course. We take our time looking over the menus and I pick some basic pasta dish. Not

in Bellamy’s ear keeping my voice as low as possible since Megan and

to prove some point that I don’t really understand?” I question. Bellamy winks at me and pulls his wallet out