Strings of Fate

88- Naps and nerves

I release my breath as I realise he’s decided to let me direct the topic away from my own

issues.

“No, she basically ran up to her room as soon as we got back. She said she has homework but I suspect that she just wanted some time to process things. I bet she will want to talk about it tomorrow, or maybe even later tonight.” I explain. He nods.

“Right, right. That makes sense. What… What are you going to tell her?” He questions

nervously.

“You mean am I going to tell her about your red thread? Well, honestly I’m not sure yet. It depends on what she asks me. If she wants to know she will ask and I won’t lie to her. But I

doubt she will ask just yet. I will just be encouraging and when she’s ready I’m sure she will bring it up on her own.”

“Yeah, okay. That’s fair. Good plan, I think.” He pauses before continuing.

“Thanks for your help with this. And for being there today. I know it must have been awkward for you, particularly once Alpha Kane left. I didn’t anticipate that.” he says apologetically. I

shrug.

“You couldn’t have planned for that. I am curious though, why did you choose to do that while we were there? You’re alone with Megan all the time. Why choose a group outing to declare your intentions. Was it impulsive or planned?” I ask, mostly to keep him talking so that the topic won’t swap to Bellamy and I. But I do actually want to know the answer.

“I planned to do it with you both around. Partially in case it upset her and she needed you to comfort her, or if she wanted me to leave then Bellamy would be there to keep her safe. But also because you two are the only people whose opinions she would worry about. So this way she is reassured that you both approve. At least I know you approve of the relationship. I’m not so sure about Alpha Kane, but he didn’t say anything against it…” he trails off and I roll

my eyes.

I’m sure of it. He’s just protective of

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first time.” I consider his explanation

silence.

very sweet of you.” I tell him. He blushes and

time to

at my home.

and makes sure I’m safely inside before heading off. I use my phone to set my security system and realise

okay? You

get home, I’ll call

that’s good. I’m just

answer. I kick my shoes off in the doorway messily, drop my phone on the table and head straight into my room. I collapse into my bed, fully clothed. It’s so quiet here. The more time I spend with Bellamy and Megan, the more I find that my home is disturbingly quiet. I guess I appreciate the background noises and signs of life that come with being around other people. The sound of Bellamy’s keyboard clicking, or Megan dragging her feet as she shuffles around in slippers. How they will randomly bring me a drink or snack every time they get up to get something for themselves, even the

feel better, but if anything, I feel worse. The guilt is still here, the only difference is that now I’m alone. Maybe I should have stayed and talked to Bellamy about it. But I already know what he’s going to say, that he doesn’t mind and not to feel rushed and blah blah. I know he means it too which honestly makes it feel worse. I find myself starting to doze

my

A loud banging at my door answers the second question at least. I sit up and rub the sleep out of my eyes. What is it

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makes a difference which. The knocking at my front door continues and pushes me into action. I climb out of bed, catching my foot in a blanket and tripping as I go. I glance out

wrong?” I ask, alarmed. He releases me and steps back.

good explanation, then didn’t answer your phone. You missed your last check in and I have called you five times and you haven’t responded! I thought something might have happened to you!” He half yells the words and begins pacing my small kitchen. I stay