Strings of Fate

151- Push and pull

“This is definitely not working out how I planned. You weren’t supposed to be worried about it. Just the opposite. I was trying to make you more comfortable by backing off a bit.” Bellamy

explains. I frown.

“I never told you to do that.” I comment quietly. He shrugs.

“You don’t have to tell me. If I think you want something I’m going to do my best to give it to you, even if in this case it means giving you… less.” He tries to explain.

“But… I don’t want you to… I mean. I never meant for you to… UGH I don’t know how to say this!” I complain. Bellamy lifts his eyes to meet mine.

“You don’t want me to back off? But you always seemed… uncomfortable.” He points out.

“I know that! But it doesn’t mean you needed to stop. I WAS uncomfortable, some of the time. at least. But I’m awkward and anxious and terrible at dealing with new things. I was always going to be uncomfortable! We discussed this the day after Megan’s wedding. I can’t tell you what is okay. But I will always tell you if something isn’t okay. How am I meant to tell you how I feel about the things you do if you never do anything?!” I ask, completely frustrated.

Bellamy’s jaw drops open. He looks puzzled.

“So… you want me to… pressure you more?” He asks. Wrinkling up his nose in distaste.

“No, that’s not what I mean. Or maybe it is a little? But it’s not pressuring. It’s… opportunities. I might not know what I’m ready for, but.. I do enjoy being wanted. I like knowing that I could take you up on your offers at any time if I chose to. That all I would have to do is just accept. At this point in time there’s no way I would be confident enough to approach you myself. I need you to make the first move so that I can decide how far I want things to go. Does that make sense? I know it isn’t totally fair to you, but…” I trail off.

“I just… didn’t want to make you scared of me. Didn’t want to push you too far.” Bellamy says quietly.

“I need a push or I’ll never change. We both know that. It’s why you’re good for me. And I

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you and I

smirk. He grabs me and lifts me so that I’m sitting and straddling his lap. He brushes a loose piece of my hair behind my ear and when he answers, it’s with his lips against

you can come to me, any time and any place and I will never turn you down. I always want you Ry. And in the meantime…” He presses

you lots of opportunities to be

Whatever he sees there must satisfy him because before I can even process what is happening, he pulls me tight against his chest and presses his lips into mine. Bellamy k*sses me at a leisurely pace, like he has all the time in

about, is rather thrilling. His hand is stroking my back, keeping me close and is somehow exciting me and reassuring me at the same

that it is steadily moving up my leg, stroking little shapes on

very aware of the skirt that Megan picked

playing with the fabric and running his fingers just along the edge, teasing the skin just barely.

murmurs.

the hand on my back at some point made it underneath my top and is gently massaging between my upper and lower back, his fingers pressing into my waist. How did that happen without me noticing? I am completely overwhelmed. Not in a bad way necessarily, but this is starting to reach the point where I don’t quite know how I’m supposed to respond. Okay, that’s

pulls back a

answer, oh so eloquently. He smiles, apparently pleased with how completely dazed I am, or maybe how

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his and I can feel just how aroused he actually is. Now that gives me pause.I tense up a little but instead of pulling away, I wrap my arms around his neck to secure myself and hug him tight, bed.hiding my face against his shoulder, feeling shy. Bellamy chuckles before turning and lowering me onto the bed, my head against the pillows. He pulls back and gives me another deep k*ss

I didn’t say you had to stop.” I comment

think when I’m holding you.” he admits and that makes me smile. I’m glad I’m not the only one who loses my mind when he’s touching me. Bellamy takes several deep breaths and closes his eyes for a second. When he looks back at me, he groans and I can see his eyes are that molten gold colour that they seem to go whenever he’s particularly…

isn’t coming back online anytime soon so i’m leaving this

want more or should I go take

and Bellamy begins to turn away and head towards the ensuite. He has just reached

one quick