Strings of Fate

Strings of Fate

221- Endings and everything

Bellamy k*sses me, then k*sses me again until my knees go weak. When they start to buckle he slips his arms around my waist, lifts me up and steps backwards until he reaches the bed where he sits down pulling me into his lap. Then he k*sses me again. We stay like that, k*ssing and holding each other for who knows how long until we pause to breathe. I’m panting collapsed against him with my head on his shoulder when I realise that despite everything, Bellamy is definitely holding back. His hands are both still respectfully above my clothing and haven’t moved from my waist and back. I’m sitting sideways over his lap but our hips have enough space between them that I can tell he is working to keep things relatively tame. Damnit. I shouldn’t have bolted earlier when he sat next to me. He might have understood why I was freaking out but he didn’t understand my actual answer. He doesn’t notice my distraction and turns his head to run his lips gently over my n*ck, then up my jaw until they meet mine again. No, wait. I need to actually tell him what I want, I need him to understand, and in order to do that… I NEED to stop k*ssing him. I pull away with a groan and Bellamy loosens his grip on my waist so that I can lean away. He sighs but smiles at me, accepting that, once again, I’m putting a stop to things. Yeah, he really didn’t get the point I was trying to make.

“Wait a second.” I tell him. He nods and adjusts his hands, clearly about to move me off his lap to give us more space. I throw my hands around his n*ck and hold on tight.

“I said wait, not move. Just give me a second, please?” I say quietly, still a little breathless.

“Whatever you need.” He answers, just as softly. I can feel his breath on my n*ck. We stay like. that as I wait for my heart rate to slow. It’s really hard to stay anxious when I can feel his arms around me and feel his heart beating next to mine. His heart is going fast too, I’m not the only one who is affected by the contact. But like mine, his heart begins to slow down as he relaxes. I wait until we both reach a reasonable point of calm, then I pull away so that I can see his eyes. I feel a lot more confident now, I don’t know what it is. Maybe just that he gave me time to calm down. He helps me be calm, even if he is half of what works me up

sometimes.

“I need to tell you something.” I say slowly. He nods.

“Is this about the note I wrote you? You read it… didn’t you?” He actually sounds nervous. I

nod.

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221- Endings and everything

“Yes. Sort of. I haven’t had time to think through what I want to say, so I’ll probably screw this up. But I’m going to try. So here it goes. My whole life, I wanted a family. Having people. who care about when I get home and how my day went has always been my personal crazy, impossible dream. Then I got one. You gave me one and this whole time I’ve been anxious and stressed out which is stupid because I have everything I’ve ever wanted and I couldn’t bring myself to believe I would get to keep it. I was talking with Aaron about my magic and I’ve realised that I’ve been able to change my threads this whole time and now that I can it on purpose… I’ve still never even considered changing ours. Because I want it. I don’t just want a family. I want this family and I don’t just want a partner, I want you.” Bellamy is staring at me in a combination of what looks like disbelief and awe.

“Ryann… I–1…” He seems stumped for words. Huh, is this what it feels like for him when I’m stammering things out all of the time? I decide to push forward. I don’t want to have to have this conversation a second time because he doesn’t know what I want. I’m here, I’m doing it, I’m already bright red and completely embarrassed. Might as well follow through with it.

“About Kiara.” I start. Bellamy blinks in confusion.

about her?”

her to ever feel like she doesn’t have

I tell him. He nods.

course, that was always the plan.”

a proper family.” I tell him, ugh I

nods.

course.” he agrees easily again. Ugh why is this so HARD? I groan

to be a secret family.

this family too. That I belong here… With you.” I force the words out. Bellamy studies me a

a smile.

Shifters, the other Alphas? I don’t

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and

be sure. You can’t take it back once you’ve told them.” He

against him as he pulls. me in tight

just made me.” He says. I can hear that deep purring sound vibrating from

shrug. I don’t really want to move. I’m comfortable and happy where I am. I stroke a hand over his ch*st as I

forward to spending some time with you.” I say pointedly. Bellamy tenses for half a second, then relaxes again. I squeal and giggle as he rolls us over so that he

right?” he murmurs, k*ssing me softly. I nod against

I want everything

face.

him awkwardly. He sits

He asks, an eyebrow raised. I am probably as red as a stop

signal I want

down and k*sses me until

mine.” He practically growls out the

answer breathlessly.