Strings of Fate

Strings of Fate

Cam 54- Interest and intention

I try to be patient, I really do. But I’ve been waiting all week to see Harry and now he’s just standing there and not saying anything. He looks completely miserable. If he’s so unhappy why doesn’t he do something about it? He looks like he has something that he wants to say so why isn’t he talking? He’s never been one to hold his words back before, and I just made a total fool of myself pouring my heart out to him. Is it really so hard for him to just talk to me? I lose my patience.

“Stop holding back and just ask me your question. Whatever it is you want from me, whatever you want to know, just ASK!” My words are demanding but my tone makes it sound more like I’m begging. I can’t quite bring myself to care.

“You really want to know what I want…” Harry starts. His voice is agitated and he runs a hand through his hair, shoving his hood back as he does. He takes a step towards me. I’m standing on the top of the little stairs leading up to my home and he’s at the bottom but he’s so much taller than me that it actually makes us about eye level.

“I want to know if I can love you. If you will actually let me.” His words come out in a single burst, like he’s been holding them in for too long. As soon as he says them, his shoulders slump and his eyes drop to the ground again. I don’t understand what he’s asking.

“I don’t understand. Shouldn’t you be asking if I love you? You’ve told me in the past that’s

what you want. Is it not true anymore?” I try to understand what he’s telling me but I don’t know what he wants anymore. Harry straightens his shoulders and his stunning blue eyes stare into mine. I can feel his magic pushing through me leaving me with weak knees and a desperate need to throw myself at him and kiss him silly. I resist the urge, but only because I’m not totally sure that’s actually what he wants. I might be misinterpreting things.

“No, I’m not asking if you love me, I’m not sure if you ever will. But I’ve been thinking these last few days. I thought the worst thing would be that you might never want me, but it’s not. Being away from you was the worst thing. Only seeing your smile in pictures and having to

imagine how you sound when you compl hout customers or get excited about a potion…

it was horrible. I tried to stay away, I promised myself that I would. That I would get over you and move on because there is no point wasting my life on someone who won’t even trust me.

But I can’t do it and I don’t want to anymore. I’ve thought about it a lot and in every relationship there is always someone who cares more, so it might as well be me. I can’t stop

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feeling or change what I want. But that’s no reason to throw away what I DO have. So, I’m just hoping you’ll let me love you, regardless of our actual relationship, and I’ll just have to hope that one day you might actually grow to want me back the same way I

the only person I’ve ever REALLY wanted is the only one my magic seems to do nothing to. It’s forced me to take my time and actually get to know you and learn what

exactly? If he can just be my friend? I don’t want to just be his friend! And has he seriously still not realised what his magic has been doing to me all these

at reading the signs. I think it’s probably about time I just spell it out for him. I’m sick of all the misunderstandings.

intend to answer your question. But before I do, I feel like there are a

to you. First… your magic

for months now.” I start. Harry’s eyes fly open in surprise.

seen how my magic

how much I wanted you… I don’t think it’s possible that you would have rejected me for so long. You would have invited me to your bed ages ago. I’d give basically anything if it meant I could have you and I can’t see how you could possibly feel that way and not act on it. The only thing stopping me was the knowledge that YOU

thought that you only wanted me physically and I wasn’t willing to give myself up like that. Then once I realised you wanted more than that I knew

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mean you CAN’T be with me? Shouldn’t it mean the opposite? Why wouldn’t you just accept me?”

answer.

you’ll leave me for good. I’ve thought about it and I’ve

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admitting that I don’t think I’m good enough for him. Harry is speechless for a moment before he answers. His voice is gentle, I suspect he knows I’m about two seconds away from crying.

whole time that

meant it.” He insists.

But what about after? Just because a relationship is fated to happen doesn’t mean it’s fated to last.”

for you to think of