Stronger by Ang Chris

As was the tradition I was bathed the morning of the tournament. I had herbs and scent blockers placed all over me.

I was dressed in a simple blue dress that was cotton and flowed. It didn’t go past my knees so that I wouldn’t attract attention.

My mother put my hair in a simple braid. She covered me in a jacket.

She k*ssed my cheeks and left me with Gia and Cea.

They had to watch me until it was time.

I wasn’t allowed to leave until there were only five men left.

I had selected 10.

I didn’t even know who to hope for. I hadn’t said a word all morning. I ate what they placed in front of me and drank when told to. I felt hollow.

Something was missing. I felt like I was betraying a part of myself. I didn’t know everything I needed to.

I felt like I should be doing something anything to fix this.

Then at the same time, I was so ready to find the person I was going to spend my life with today. The outcome wasn’t the problem, it was the Who.

I felt like I was hurting someone. I had no clue why.

My mother closed the door and my heart picked up pace.

What was I missing? Why was there this gnawing feeling clawing up my arms and wrestling into my tummy?

I had done everything I could this week to find someone I’d like. They still had to prove their strength but I believed in them.

Believed in who?

There was someone I was hoping for. I felt it like a pinprick on my tongue. There was something that I knew was waiting and I couldn’t quite get to it.

“You ready for this?” Cea grabbed my arms and spun me towards her. “I’ll run if you want as fast as we can,”

I shook my head before I even thought.

There was something about to happen.

“Are you alright?”Gia rubbed my shoulder. “You look like you’re gonna pass out,”

“No,” my voice was so serious. “I’m ready. I’m ready,”

I was ready. I wanted to be there to go now. I felt a strong pull forward.

*Something was going on. *

in our pack would be there. They would all help to mask my scent and witness the

anxious that I was not out there yet.

voice

towards the window itching

*I needed more. *

of me

you?” Cea

want to

Gia smiled

needed. I

I don’t know.

was out there

“Anna?”

cheering crowd made my heart leap

*Yes hurry. Hurry. *

“Anna?”

me get out

desperation and certainty were like smoke in my lungs growing with

grunts and cheers from the crowd, calls of anger,

all-out battle. They could either take wolf form or human form; that choice was up

chose human for

at the men who fell and others who were cursing them to get back

me

“Anna?”

smell the blood now. It’s iron scent wafting into

me be

“Anna!”

into the

I was too but most of me craved to be out there. Burned

slowly stepped

took off running leaving my shoes where they had been

arrow loose for its target. There was a strong

that wants to turn around now. No need to stay here

the hall and steps watching my feet while maintaining

home and did not

forward desperation was

*Take me there *

had were gone. This destiny was all I had to

the road kicking up the rocks behind me furthering myself

saw the crowd of my people in a circle

I smelled him.

The pine.