System vs Rebirth

Noel sat down in a lotus pose, following Shale's instruction.

"Take a few deep breaths and start closing your eyes."

Noel took one deep breath while closing his eyes before stabilizing his heartbeat, which was probably the purpose of his instruction.

"You only need to answer this in your heart. First question, do you have anything you want to accomplish?" Shale asked with a soothing tone to help Noel keep his calm.

Noel recalled all the memories that had happened not long ago. The Royal Family executed his parents, seized his property and sent him to this place because they believed he would die facing those monsters.

Noel wanted to take his revenge against the Royal Family. Yet, he felt something was wrong with this desire. His heart was asking him, 'What if all those stuff never happened? What was your dream if you still had your family, wealth and status?'

Noel's heart skipped a beat when he found this question. In the past, he was just a normal nobleman that had average talent and no desire. He just followed whatever happened.

He always believed that he would succeed his father's position sooner or later and would take a wife before leading the same ordinary life like his father.

This was just an ordinary dream of an ordinary noble child. Everything soon changed when the Royal Family did all that stuff.

'I see. Desire huh… I don't truly have a goal that I would continue to chase for as long as I'm alive. All my desires are related to my current life… I have yet to change to the new me… Just following the nature course. If somehow the Royal Family restores my family, will I have another desire?

'On the other hand, what if I forget about my family, the conflict, my hatred…? What am I? I am just an empty shell. That desire is the one that fulfills me for the rest of my life. So, what is the desire that I Noel Ardagan personally has? Something that is unrelated to my hatred, my family, or my enemies…

'My desire is…'

While he was thinking, Noel didn't realize that something was happening outside his body.

eyes opened wide. Sweats were covering his eyes despite the temperature becoming

body was emitting a dim

breath. 'An average person needed years of meditation to find their own desire, their spirit… Even the emerging genius, Anna Stargaze is said to require three days to awaken her

him. He was wondering if the commander was already aware of his

emitting from the

few minutes? Even I need to have a long

His consciousness had fallen so deep that it felt like he was leaving his

didn't feel anything in the deep

desire, a bright light started illuminating the darkness,

is this? Shouldn't I be in the training ground?" Noel looked left and right, finding

sound suddenly echoed inside his

his brain started to hurt. If it was a sound

seemed to understand the

while gulping down. Suddenly, he

Ardagan." Although a bit hesitant, Noel tried to approach the sword

blazing flame that gradually moved toward him, trying to burn

time, Noel's body started glowing as a snowflake symbol shone on

when something cold began to spread from his right chest. He

Noel frowned, not understanding

that exchange clash, another high-pitched sound echoed directly in his

the pain.

Ardagan. A sword whose purposes are to cut down whoever you want to cut

Icy Spirit of Northern

place where I meet my spirit? But a human is supposed to