System vs Rebirth

"You don't know anything, Anna. You are always inside the cage that you've created yourself." Noel looked down on her.

"I don't know what you're talking about." Anna gritted her teeth, glaring at Noel.

'Eh?'

This was a scene where they had a final fight before they got betrayed. The current Anna could see both her past and Noel's past figures before her eyes.

Her consciousness didn't question what happened to her or what kind of body she had right now. Instead, she was asking to herself about the reason why she had this kind of dream.

When she looked at this stand-off, she couldn't help but feel pain in her heart.

'That's right. Why did I fight against Noel in the first place? I think that the first time I fought Noel was at that time… I was visiting a small village and got angry due to the fact that they didn't have any good places to stay.

'The past me didn't have a memory like this, so I was immature back then. If I wanted something, I could get it. If I couldn't, I would do anything as I pleased.

'Yes, I was a genius, but my behavior was terrible. I might look nice on the outside, but I was a horrible human being on the inside.

'Back then, Noel was the guide to complete the mission and I was tricked by him the first time. I got lost and almost died in that mission.

'Still, all I had was hatred back then. By the time I got tricked on the second time, I got rescued by the local people. Yet, when they saved me, I didn't thank them. Instead, I killed them. That was the start of my regret.

'I noticed something when I looked at the happy smile they had when they found me and the horrified expression when I killed them.

'Noel might be taking revenge for this slaughter by forcing me to live in the wilderness without anything. Yes, he somehow trapped me in the middle of nowhere. I hated everything at that time, but to survive, I needed to eat everything.

the first time. I realized what a commoner felt

for half an hour just to fetch out some water. Yet, those same commoners were killed by me previously despite them offering

I tried to act differently. I wanted to fix my past and started thanking people no matter how

when she had a nightmare of the people she had killed so far because of her impulse.

what she had done was too

helping the people in need. They were smiling genuinely… Their smiles were much brighter and bigger than the people that smiled at

time, I realized that the people around me were smiling because they feared me, not because they were happy

like Noel, they couldn't give me the best smile. I didn't know why. I did my best to help them and gave the best solution, yet, there was no smile like

myself but never found the answer. Why could Noel make people happy while I couldn't despite doing the same thing

didn't understand… and I still don't…' Anna clenched her fists. 'Why? I did better than Noel. I was hailed as a genius unlike him. Yet, I couldn't attain what

changed into the scene where Eric and the others were kidnapped. When they saw Noel, the kids became so hopeful and

Noel left them, they swore to themselves that they would

her, they were horrified and angry. Although it was an act, she never had the need to clarify it. In her mind, there

can't even though we do the same thing?' Anna bit her lips before

don't know anything, Anna. You are always inside the cage that you've

kind of cage that I've created?" Anna gritted her teeth. "I don't understand.

her mind. She somehow could see the reason why Noel always tricked her and

was revenge, but if she looked at it a

she acted like a horrible person, so Noel tried to crush her by making her fall into the

knight only smiled at his last moment and

me to experience what it felt to help and to be helped. Yet, I threw that away and slaughtered those kind hearted people. After that, I was known as a

and lived like a normal commoner in the middle of nowhere. I learned how they lived and

feared me. No matter how hard I tried to