System vs Rebirth

"You don't know anything, Anna. You are always inside the cage that you've created yourself." Noel looked down on her.

"I don't know what you're talking about." Anna gritted her teeth, glaring at Noel.

'Eh?'

This was a scene where they had a final fight before they got betrayed. The current Anna could see both her past and Noel's past figures before her eyes.

Her consciousness didn't question what happened to her or what kind of body she had right now. Instead, she was asking to herself about the reason why she had this kind of dream.

When she looked at this stand-off, she couldn't help but feel pain in her heart.

'That's right. Why did I fight against Noel in the first place? I think that the first time I fought Noel was at that time… I was visiting a small village and got angry due to the fact that they didn't have any good places to stay.

'The past me didn't have a memory like this, so I was immature back then. If I wanted something, I could get it. If I couldn't, I would do anything as I pleased.

'Yes, I was a genius, but my behavior was terrible. I might look nice on the outside, but I was a horrible human being on the inside.

'Back then, Noel was the guide to complete the mission and I was tricked by him the first time. I got lost and almost died in that mission.

'Still, all I had was hatred back then. By the time I got tricked on the second time, I got rescued by the local people. Yet, when they saved me, I didn't thank them. Instead, I killed them. That was the start of my regret.

'I noticed something when I looked at the happy smile they had when they found me and the horrified expression when I killed them.

'Noel might be taking revenge for this slaughter by forcing me to live in the wilderness without anything. Yes, he somehow trapped me in the middle of nowhere. I hated everything at that time, but to survive, I needed to eat everything.

everything by myself for the first time. I realized what a commoner felt when they were hungry but had no money to buy something to

hour just to fetch out some water. Yet, those same commoners were killed by me previously despite them offering me food and water

fix my past and started

flashed before her eyes where when she had a nightmare of the people she had killed so far because of her impulse. She ended up puking hard that

she had done was

were smiling genuinely… Their smiles

the people around me were smiling because they feared me,

best smile. I didn't know why.

the same thing as him? Why could Noel gather so many loyal people under him while

understand… and I still don't…' Anna clenched her fists. 'Why? I did better than Noel. I was hailed as a genius unlike him. Yet,

kidnapped. When they saw Noel, the kids

they swore to themselves that they would repay everything to

was an act, she never had the need to clarify it. In her

can't even though we do the same thing?' Anna bit her lips before she recalled

You are always inside the cage that

kind of cage that I've created?" Anna gritted her teeth. "I don't understand. I

mind. She somehow could see

if she looked at it a bit more, she realized there was one more

met at the first time, she acted like a horrible person, so Noel tried to crush her by making her fall into the trap. When she

last moment and said,

wanted me to experience what it felt to help and to be helped. Yet, I threw that away and

got lost and lived like a normal commoner in the middle of nowhere. I learned how they lived

well because they feared me. No matter how hard I tried to change it,