System vs Rebirth

"You don't know anything, Anna. You are always inside the cage that you've created yourself." Noel looked down on her.

"I don't know what you're talking about." Anna gritted her teeth, glaring at Noel.

'Eh?'

This was a scene where they had a final fight before they got betrayed. The current Anna could see both her past and Noel's past figures before her eyes.

Her consciousness didn't question what happened to her or what kind of body she had right now. Instead, she was asking to herself about the reason why she had this kind of dream.

When she looked at this stand-off, she couldn't help but feel pain in her heart.

'That's right. Why did I fight against Noel in the first place? I think that the first time I fought Noel was at that time… I was visiting a small village and got angry due to the fact that they didn't have any good places to stay.

'The past me didn't have a memory like this, so I was immature back then. If I wanted something, I could get it. If I couldn't, I would do anything as I pleased.

'Yes, I was a genius, but my behavior was terrible. I might look nice on the outside, but I was a horrible human being on the inside.

'Back then, Noel was the guide to complete the mission and I was tricked by him the first time. I got lost and almost died in that mission.

'Still, all I had was hatred back then. By the time I got tricked on the second time, I got rescued by the local people. Yet, when they saved me, I didn't thank them. Instead, I killed them. That was the start of my regret.

'I noticed something when I looked at the happy smile they had when they found me and the horrified expression when I killed them.

'Noel might be taking revenge for this slaughter by forcing me to live in the wilderness without anything. Yes, he somehow trapped me in the middle of nowhere. I hated everything at that time, but to survive, I needed to eat everything.

For days, I suffered. I was hungry, thirsty, tired… basically, I did everything by myself for the first time. I realized what a commoner felt when they were hungry but had

an hour just to fetch out some water. Yet, those same commoners were killed by

rescued, I tried to act differently. I wanted to fix my past and started thanking people no

flashed before her eyes where when she had a nightmare of the people she had killed so far because of her impulse. She ended up puking hard

what she had done was too much even for

were smiling genuinely… Their smiles were

realized that the people around me were smiling because they feared me, not because they

tried to help them like Noel, they couldn't give me the best smile. I didn't know why. I did my best to help them and gave the best solution,

happy while I couldn't despite doing the same thing as him? Why could Noel gather

I still don't…' Anna clenched her fists. 'Why? I did better than Noel. I was hailed as a genius unlike him. Yet, I couldn't attain what he

the scene where Eric and the others were kidnapped. When they saw Noel, the kids became so hopeful and their

they swore to themselves that they would

horrified and angry. Although it was an act, she never had the need to

do the same thing?' Anna bit her lips before she recalled the first

You are always inside

that I've created?" Anna gritted her teeth. "I don't understand. I haven't created

mind. She somehow

but if she looked at it a bit more, she realized there

person, so Noel tried to crush her by making her

him like a dirt, the knight only smiled at his last moment and said, "I'm glad that you're

what it felt to help and to be helped. Yet, I threw

I got lost and lived like a normal commoner in the middle of nowhere. I learned how they

they feared me. No matter how hard I