System vs Rebirth

"You don't know anything, Anna. You are always inside the cage that you've created yourself." Noel looked down on her.

"I don't know what you're talking about." Anna gritted her teeth, glaring at Noel.

'Eh?'

This was a scene where they had a final fight before they got betrayed. The current Anna could see both her past and Noel's past figures before her eyes.

Her consciousness didn't question what happened to her or what kind of body she had right now. Instead, she was asking to herself about the reason why she had this kind of dream.

When she looked at this stand-off, she couldn't help but feel pain in her heart.

'That's right. Why did I fight against Noel in the first place? I think that the first time I fought Noel was at that time… I was visiting a small village and got angry due to the fact that they didn't have any good places to stay.

'The past me didn't have a memory like this, so I was immature back then. If I wanted something, I could get it. If I couldn't, I would do anything as I pleased.

'Yes, I was a genius, but my behavior was terrible. I might look nice on the outside, but I was a horrible human being on the inside.

'Back then, Noel was the guide to complete the mission and I was tricked by him the first time. I got lost and almost died in that mission.

'Still, all I had was hatred back then. By the time I got tricked on the second time, I got rescued by the local people. Yet, when they saved me, I didn't thank them. Instead, I killed them. That was the start of my regret.

'I noticed something when I looked at the happy smile they had when they found me and the horrified expression when I killed them.

'Noel might be taking revenge for this slaughter by forcing me to live in the wilderness without anything. Yes, he somehow trapped me in the middle of nowhere. I hated everything at that time, but to survive, I needed to eat everything.

basically, I did everything by myself for the first time. I realized what a commoner felt when they were hungry

how thirsty they were when they needed to walk for half an hour just to fetch out some water. Yet, those same commoners were killed by me previously despite them offering me food and

to fix my past and started thanking

people she had killed so far because of

that what she had done was too much

They were smiling genuinely… Their smiles were much brighter and bigger than the people that

the people around me were smiling because they feared me, not because

I tried to help them like Noel, they couldn't give me the best smile. I didn't know why. I did my best to help them and gave the best solution, yet, there

make people happy while I couldn't despite doing the same thing as him? Why could Noel gather so many loyal people under him while those who

understand… and I still don't…' Anna clenched her fists. 'Why? I did better than Noel.

changed into the scene where Eric and the others were kidnapped. When they saw Noel, the kids became so hopeful and their

Noel left them, they swore to

were horrified and angry. Although it was an act, she never had the need to clarify it. In her mind, there was Noel's figure

Noel give hope to others but I can't even though we do the same thing?' Anna bit her lips before she recalled the

Anna. You are always inside the cage that you've created

created?" Anna gritted

She somehow could see the reason why Noel always tricked her and let her

she looked at it a bit more, she realized there was one

crush her by making her fall into the trap. When she almost died, her trusted knight

and said, "I'm glad that you're alright, Miss

to experience what it felt to help and to be helped. Yet, I threw that away and slaughtered those kind hearted

I got lost and lived like a normal commoner in the middle

me well because they feared me. No matter how hard I tried to change it, there was