146 Ava: Without His Knowledge…
146 Ava: Without His Knowledge…
Lucas watches me with concern and care, but all I can say is, “Oh.”
Some part of me had expected Mom to stay in a coma forever. Or die.
I didn’t think about her much. Ignoring her existence is easier than dealing with–well, everything.
“I would have to return to Blackwood in order to question her.” Every word is careful and measured, as though he’s not sure how I’m going to respond.
He doesn’t invite me to go. I’m not sure I want to. He probably realizes that.
Selene glances toward us, her ears flicking as she listens.
“I don’t think that’s the best idea. Your pack needs you here. They need to see their alpha.” I’m hesitant to speak up, but Selene’s watchful gaze gives me a little confidence. “Alpha Clayton is still there, isn’t he? I think he should lead the interrogation.”
It’s our first time saying his name between us and I
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can feel Lucas‘ muscles tense.
Trying to give him a little comfort, I grab his hand, threading our fingers together. A silent message that I’m still here. That I’ve already made my choice.
My heart hurts when I realize how little I’ve really thought about the damage I’ve done to this man.
He relaxes, drawing me closer, his thumb rubbing against the back of my hand. “You’re right. I’ll call him.”
It’s amazing how warm my heart feels, knowing that I’ve given Lucas a little peace of mind, with a hint of my heart.
I’ve wasted so much time worrying about his
intentions. Worrying about being trapped in a gilded
cage.
Being brave is easier than I thought it would be.
He brings our joined hands to his lips, pressing a gentle kiss against them. “I have to meet with Kellan and discuss everything, but I’ll keep you updated. I
promise.”
***
The front door closes with a soft click, and Lucas‘
10:06
Without
with
middle, hugging myself as if that’ll hold all the
Mom’s awake.
Lisa’s gone.
Vampires attacked.
to get in touch with me.
father might be hiding in a city
lot to think through. To process.
me pace, her attention distracted from her show. Why don’t you summon Sister Miriam and see if you can get some answers? That might help you.
pause mid–step, thinking about Lucas. About
“I can’t.”
Isn’t that what you
know.” I rake a hand through
huhhling un
ma “It’s not that
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simple.”
Because of Lucas.
not a question. Selene’s too perceptive for
“I don’t want to lose his trust by going behind his back. But I can’t risk Lisa’s life over him, either.”
tell him everything.
me differently? What if he doesn’t want
my leg with her nose, her fur soft against my skin. He could have given up on you a long time ago.
1
to even admit it, and
little. She’s
despite everything. He’s nothing like my
you to be happy. Selene’s words are simple, but my
call him my
Without
bond based on fate or choice?
tongue to say fate, of
I think
bond insistently tugging
reason I want to connect with him.
It’s just Lucas.
How he came for
I run from
decide, feeling the truth deep in my heart. Our fated bond drives us
to be with
he is your chosen mate, even more than
fated one.
“But what if-”
on secrets and lies. But it’s your
betrayal to put my bond
Lisa’s life.
the wrong
half–convinced it is the
Without His
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