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146 Ava: Without His Knowledge…
Lucas watches me with concern and care, but all I can say is, “Oh.”
Some part of me had expected Mom to stay in a coma forever. Or die.
I didn’t think about her much. Ignoring her existence is easier than dealing with–well, everything.
“I would have to return to Blackwood in order to question her.” Every word is careful and measured, as though he’s not sure how I’m going to respond.
He doesn’t invite me to go. I’m not sure I want to. He probably realizes that.
Selene glances toward us, her ears flicking as she listens.
“I don’t think that’s the best idea. Your pack needs you here. They need to see their alpha.” I’m hesitant to speak up, but Selene’s watchful gaze gives me a little confidence. “Alpha Clayton is still there, isn’t he? I think he should lead the interrogation.”
It’s our first time saying his name between us and I
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can feel Lucas‘ muscles tense.
Trying to give him a little comfort, I grab his hand, threading our fingers together. A silent message that I’m still here. That I’ve already made my choice.
My heart hurts when I realize how little I’ve really thought about the damage I’ve done to this man.
He relaxes, drawing me closer, his thumb rubbing against the back of my hand. “You’re right. I’ll call him.”
It’s amazing how warm my heart feels, knowing that I’ve given Lucas a little peace of mind, with a hint of my heart.
I’ve wasted so much time worrying about his
intentions. Worrying about being trapped in a gilded
cage.
Being brave is easier than I thought it would be.
He brings our joined hands to his lips, pressing a gentle kiss against them. “I have to meet with Kellan and discuss everything, but I’ll keep you updated. I
promise.”
***
The front door closes with a soft click, and Lucas‘
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with
across the floor, my arms wrapped around my middle, hugging myself as if that’ll hold all the broken pieces inside of me
Mom’s awake.
Lisa’s gone.
Vampires attacked.
trying to get in touch with
hiding in
lot to think
She watches me pace, her attention distracted from her show. Why don’t you summon Sister Miriam and see if you can get some answers?
thinking about Lucas. About the baby steps we managed today.
“I can’t.”
Isn’t that what you wanted to do?
don’t know.” I rake a hand through
huhhling un inside
ma “It’s not that
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simple.”
Because of Lucas.
a question. Selene’s too perceptive for that. She sees right
by going behind his back. But I can’t
him
he looks at me differently? What if he doesn’t want me anymore?”
moment. Then she nudges my leg with her nose, her fur soft against my skin. He could have
1
admit it, and I
little. She’s
He’s nothing like my parents.
you happy. I want you to be happy. Selene’s words are simple, but my
always call him
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based on fate or
on the tip of my tongue to say fate, of course. But
I think
bond insistently tugging us together,
I want to connect
It’s just Lucas.
he cares. How he came for me.
I run from
heart. Our fated bond drives us together, but it’s
be with him.
mate, even more than he’s
fated one.
“But what if-”
a relationship on secrets and lies. But
like a betrayal to put my bond with
over Lisa’s life.
the wrong decision.
it is the wrong decision.
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