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162 Ava: Mom (II)

As we enter the hospital, the sterile scent of disinfectant and the hushed whispers of staff and visitors envelop us. Selene, ever attuned to my emotions, presses against my leg, offering her silent support. I reac

A few steps in, a security guard takes notice of Selene and frowns. "I'm sorry, but dogs aren't allowed inside the hospital premises."

Vanessa steps forward, her voice calm and authoritative. "This is a service dog. She's with us."

The guard glances at me, then at our bodyguards-

dressed in suits, with sunglasses, and essentially a walking cliche. His expression turns guarded and he waves us on. "Of course, my apologies. Please go ahead."

Relieved, I glance down at Selene, only to find her prancing alongside me, head high. Hey, you know service dogs aren't supposed to strut like show dogs, right?

She huffs, but stops her front-leg flicking prance.

Vanessa seems to know where to go as she navigates the maze of

corridors and several random sets of elevators.

With each step, the knot in my stomach tightens, anticipation and dread intertwined. Grateful for Vanessa's presence, I follow behind, digging my fingers into Selene's fur for comfort. Remember, she can't do anything to you, Selene whispers in my head.

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182 Ava Momin

The door to my mother's room is as mundane as any other. Brown. Silver handle. A note on the door asking to contact the nurse

before drawing labs.

Nothing that says a terrible person resides within and to beware of your heart.

My hand hovers over the handle as my heart beats loudly in my ears. Vanessa places a reassuring hand on my shoulder.

"Remember, Ava," she murmurs into my ear, "you are in control now. Your mother's power over you exists only in the past. You are stronger than you know."

Inod without glancing at her, closing my eyes and drawing in a deep, slow breath..

and I hold it for ten seconds before letting it go in

I can do this.

Selene and Vanessa, I push

room is dimly lit, the beeping of machines and a faint hiss coming from somewhere behind

her once-vibrant features pale and drawn. The sight of her, so

blue eyes, which can be as warm as a summer lake or as frigid

like she's dead

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The Mom

follows close behind, her presence a constant comfort. I reach out and take my mother's hand in mine, surprised by

lifeless it

cracking with

recognition. I swallow hard, fighting back the

I hate her.

I hate this woman.

with the fierceness

and I wonder if it would hurt this much. had I

existence, ignoring the fact that she was fighting for her life from the wolfsbane, was so much easier

Ava. It's okay

scrapes against the linoleum floor, harsh in the stillness of the room. Settling into it, I clasp my hands

see how far

tracking my movements with an unsettling intensity. Despite the dullness in her gaze, there's a flicker of something there-a spark

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the fierce woman I

you want me to come? 1sk, my voice barely above a whisper. The question hangs in the

long moment, my mother says nothing. She simply stares at me, her expression unreadable. Then,

reaches out towards my face. It's a surreal moment, one that seems to stretch on for

A

part of me wants to recoil, to pull away from her touch, but another part-the part that still yearns for a mother's

Her fingers draw closer.

Is this the moment I've craved for

moment, I allow myself to believe that this is it. That my mother is finally going to show me

the past is left in the past, and in the future lies

fingertips brush against my cheek, and I lean into the touch, my eyes fluttering closed.

weak slap, lacking the force and power of a healthy person, but the

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stinging more from the emotional blow