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Vanessa sighs, her hand warm and gentle against my back, rubbing in soothing circles. "Ava, understand that you can be wrong, even when you're right. Or right, even when you're wrong." A laugh bubbles up, hysterical and wild. "That makes no sense."

"You chafe under his protection. You feel caged, right?"

A quick nod. Of course. That much is obvious.

"It's okay to feel that way. It's normal, even. But is Lucas wrong to keep your safety in consideration?"

Selene sighs, bumping her head against my legs, and I tug at one of her ears. "No, of course not."

"The party was a terrible misfortune. None of us expected a

vampire attack on pack lands. For something like this to happen..." Her words trail off, and she glances away. "I don't even know how long it's been. We knew Blackwood was working with the Unregistered in some way, but to have this level of alliance is unheard of."

Hunching my shoulders, I mutter, "I never would have gone, if I'd known."

"I know." The gentle rubbing never ceases. "And Lucas didn't blame you. He doesn't blame you. He blames himself."

"But he didn't do anything wrong. It was me." Guilt gnaws at me. "I was the one who bothered him about the guards. About my freedom. I pushed to go to the party. Everything was because of

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1. me. The vampire wanted me, and now Lisa's gone."

Resting my forehead on my knees, I whisper, "I'm a plague to

everyone who cares about me. So many people are dead, and even Lisa..."

"A defeatist attitude isn't going to help you, Ava." The back rubs stop as Vanessa gets off the bed, her voice firming. "The time for wallowing is long past. You've grown stronger, and you're no longer the flinching massacre happened. Neither you or Lucas knew it would happen. It's a terrible and unfortunate situation."

"But it's my fault. What am I supposed to do?" Turning my head so my cheek is against my knees, I watch Vanessa as she stands in front of me. "It's my fault. I should have just sat at home and kept my mouths danger..."

Vanessa stares at me, one brow raised, as my words trail off.

can tell in her

me captive, demanding an answer I'm not sure

guards, risking everything for a taste of freedom, or to stay locked away in your apartment, watched at

silly when she lays

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her eyes remain unwavering. "Was there no middle ground, Ava? No way to get what you

to defend my actions, but the weight of her wisdom holds me back. Is she right? Could I have

of her presence. Perhaps I pushed too hard as well, little wolf. Her voice is more hesitant than I've ever heard

feeling too childish in how I'm moping, I do

breath and think, letting her words soak in, pushing Lucas and his

even to

expression softening with understanding. "The world is rarely black and white, Ava. It's a tapestry woven with

course not." The answer comes easily, a

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only the extremes, without considering the possibilities that lie between?" Her question hangs in the air, a challenge I can't ignore. I close

believe I have no choice, that I'm backed into a corner

down, I know there were other options, other paths I could have taken. Compromises I could have made, if only I'd been willing to look beyond my own stubborn pride. I was too determined to stand on my own

my independence

losing myself, of being suffocated by the constant surveillance and control. I wanted to prove that I could make my own choices, that I'm r Vanessa grabs my hand in hers, the warmth of her grasp traveling

Selene insists, with the softest whine. You are much

Vanessa echoes. "But that

is weakness. That doesn't

on v

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doesn't mean you won't

for freedom, for autonomy, is a powerful thing. But it's important to remember I nod, blinking back the

the fault lies with our enemies, it is a consequence that we should have avoided." A flicker of sadness crosses her face. "Our alpha will always c of those lives on his

Like me.

Only thinking of Lisa.

more careful, more

think you should have

Not on how to fix it, or how to take responsibility." Feeling somehow ashamed, I nod.

gently as my phone

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