Tangled

Unshift 313

Unshift 313

313 Ava: What Do You Think I Should Do?

Grimoire's presence inside of me is unfazed after his revelations from the morning. I swear his

book form even looks cheerful, sitting there on the table.

You seem worried, Selene says, sounding distracted.

"I am. I still don't agree with Grimoire"

About the summoning?

"Yes. Wouldn't you know if you were summoned?"

I suppose. Selene goes quiet for a bit, before asking, How does Lucas feel about it?

Lucas.

He's standing by the window, watching the light rain drizzle across our world. The soft patter of droplets on glass is the only sound outside of my voice. Sister Miriam and Vester left a while ago, leaving us to contemplate our next move. Lucas hasn't spoken since they departed, his thoughts as opaque as the cloudy sky outside.

"I don't know."

He seems ambivalent to the idea of summoning his wolf, but I can't blame him.

After dropping the bomb of Selene's alleged summoning-though she denies it-he did mention. the possible negatives.

While Lucas would not lose his sense of self, he might lose his wolf. Like me, he would exist as a human. But unlike me, he wouldn't have magic to bridge that supernatural gap.

No healing. No strength. What would happen if he were challenged then?

Is it any better than now?

Alpha survive without

around his waist, pressing my cheek against the broad expanse of his back. The steady thump of his heart

is warm, familiar, yet

and

undefined and uncertain. The warmth of his scent fills my lungs, surrounding me in assurance, soothing the anxiety beating in my

the silence, low and rumbling. I can feel the

he do? The options before us are all shit, covered in more shit, until it

shit mountain.

A What 10 You

You Think I

it weren't for the state

weren't for the

we'd have

wouldn't be forced into

learned so many

don't know," I admit softly. "There's so

over mine.

all the weight of the world in it,

your sense of self... I worry that you would feel

how it feels to be

it's still different from the bond any normal shifter has with their wolf. Distance can create emptiness within our bond. And-scariest of all-I can die and

slightly. "And I worry about what that would mean for

but I can sense him listening

him. "And selfishly, I miss you. The you who remembers

eyes searching my face. "I feel that connection with you," he says softly. "Even without the memories, there's something right about being with you.

"I feel it too," I

"But this isn't just about us. I have a responsibility to

nod, leaning into

regret that we are not one body?

admit. But I can't imagine not being able

the same for

bond has me smiling, and Lucas narrows his eyes.