The Accidental Wife by Sara Islam

Chapter 39

I had a daughter.

I had a daughter with Emily.

Going back to

kto my car

car wasn't easy. I had to force my legs to take me there. I was having a panic attack. I didn't get them a lot, but when the pressure got too nich. I usually experienced them.

I placed my hands on the steering wheel and focused on them just like Cara taught me. She told me that I needed to focus on something and counting from one to fifty slowly.

It took me a few minutes to calm down a little and the moment I did. I called Cara. She knew that I only called her when it was urgent, so it didn't take her a lot of time to answer. "C-Cara. I have a daughter." 1

1 stammered, hoping my voice was clear enough

"What? What do you mean she sounded shocked. I was shocked too.

"I have a daughter. I saw her today," I told her.

"With Emily?" she asked.

"What am I supposed to do. Cara! I saw her today with Emily and when I approached them, Emily didn't deny anything and she she n

named her

Roulie." I ran my fingers through my hair. I was much calmer now, but I still wasn't okay.

"What would you like to do, Julian? Do you want to have a relationship with your daughter!" she asked me.

yes! I want to

want to be a part a part

of her life. I want h

want her to know that she has a father," I quickly replied.

"Then talk to Emily. Tell her what you want. Did you feel like she doesn't want you to be in Rosie's life?"

""I. I don't think

so. I think she isn't going to stop in my way," I said. I wasn't in my best state when I was talking to Emily, but she didn't make me feel that she was opposed to the idea of my being in Rosie's life. I felt my phone vibrate in my hand and I saw a number on the screen, Whose "Okay, I want you to call her, ask to meet with her, and tell her all that you want," Cara told me.

"Alright. Thanks, Cara." I mumbled and took a deep breath,

was already easy for me to remember her beautiful face. I opened my WhatsApp when I saw that I received a message from

quickly as if she were waiting for my

I wanted to get used to her new name, but it wasn't

me for dinner tonight to properly talk." I was glad that she was easily willing to talk. I

location and I will be there by 6:30. Is that alright?" I wanted to talk. I wanted to

Emily and I weren't on the best terms, but did she tell Rosie anything bad about me? Did

of questions roamed my head and I wasn't sure if I could wait until 6:30. I wanted to call Mum and tell her that I had a daughter, but I didn't want to tell her anything before I at least had a few answers. I knew nothing about my daughter except

what Rosie liked, but I felt like I wanted to get her something. Knowing

Did she like dolls or cars? Perhaps legos? I ended up Billing the

also went to a bakery and bought six cupcakes. I didn't know what

big

She did it all by herself. I didn't like the fact that she lived that far away from me. A freaking forty-minute drive. At exactly 6:30, I rang the doorbell, I

of toys all

changed into some jeans and a pink blouse. Her pair was pulled up in a ponytail and she almost didn't have makeup on

offered ine a polite unile and

-

cupcakes, so I bought these, I told Emily,

winning her heart tonight," she

a long day

we could talk here before you properly meet her," Emily said

you sure she's not going to listen to us?"

saw my little girl

For it.

her favorite,"

like it's yours, I wanted to tell

eyes on the tablet. She was holding a teddy bear in her arms as her eyes were glued to the screen. She looked adorable. "She's four," Emily replied, making her

"When is her birthday!"

*September fifth."

"Middle name?"

"Lela

breath and asked her

did you find out that you were

month and a half after our divorce, exactly one week after I moved away from California." Emily looked at me for a moment as she spoke, then turned off the

didn't you contact me after

It was hard to say some things

that I didn't cheat, steal, or manipulate you into our marriage?" she continued my question for me with bitterness in her tone. I had no right to ask her that question, but part of me wanted to know why she decided to disappear instead. "I would have done anything you wanted, you know? I would have shown you how sorry I truly was. I still am sorry, by

reminded me. What if I was here for her too? "As I told you before, I didn't want to get in contact

has a father?" I asked, afraid

I breathed out in relief when she "I would never make Rosie hate you for something you have done to me, Julian. When I looked up, I saw her eyes on me. She still had the ability to make me nervous like a high school kid

absence to her?" I couldn't

didn't really know what else 1 could tell her. I loved the way her cheeks reddened. I wanted to hold her and kiss them like I use "I have written many letters and told her that they were from you. I have been preparing her for this day, Julian. I know how excited she is to meet you." Emily added. Delight filled my heart upon hearing that, but I hated how I wasn't prepared for something like that. I wish woman