The Accidental Wife by Sara Islam

Chapter 39

I had a daughter.

I had a daughter with Emily.

Going back to

kto my car

car wasn't easy. I had to force my legs to take me there. I was having a panic attack. I didn't get them a lot, but when the pressure got too nich. I usually experienced them.

I placed my hands on the steering wheel and focused on them just like Cara taught me. She told me that I needed to focus on something and counting from one to fifty slowly.

It took me a few minutes to calm down a little and the moment I did. I called Cara. She knew that I only called her when it was urgent, so it didn't take her a lot of time to answer. "C-Cara. I have a daughter." 1

1 stammered, hoping my voice was clear enough

"What? What do you mean she sounded shocked. I was shocked too.

"I have a daughter. I saw her today," I told her.

"With Emily?" she asked.

"What am I supposed to do. Cara! I saw her today with Emily and when I approached them, Emily didn't deny anything and she she n

named her

Roulie." I ran my fingers through my hair. I was much calmer now, but I still wasn't okay.

"What would you like to do, Julian? Do you want to have a relationship with your daughter!" she asked me.

yes! I want to

want to be a part a part

of her life. I want h

want her to know that she has a father," I quickly replied.

"Then talk to Emily. Tell her what you want. Did you feel like she doesn't want you to be in Rosie's life?"

""I. I don't think

so. I think she isn't going to stop in my way," I said. I wasn't in my best state when I was talking to Emily, but she didn't make me feel that she was opposed to the idea of my being in Rosie's life. I felt my phone vibrate in my hand and I saw a number on the screen, Whose "Okay, I want you to call her, ask to meet with her, and tell her all that you want," Cara told me.

"Alright. Thanks, Cara." I mumbled and took a deep breath,

less than an hour and it was already easy for me to remember her beautiful face. I opened my WhatsApp when I saw that I received a message from the

as if she were

I wanted to get used to her new name, but it wasn't easy. She was my Emily, the

wondering if you'd like to join Rosie and me for dinner tonight to properly talk." I was glad that she was easily willing to talk. I was glad that she wasn't making the

me the location and I will be there by 6:30. Is that alright?"

best terms, but did she tell Rosie anything bad about

daughter, but I didn't want to tell her anything before I at least had a few answers.

call with Emily. I didn't know what Rosie liked, but I felt like I

Perhaps legos? I ended up Billing the

cupcakes. I didn't know what she liked, so I ended up

big

to achieve. Her house was amazing, I wasn't that it suited her. She did it all by herself. I didn't like the fact that she lived that far away from me. A freaking forty-minute

amount of toys all

for me and I sucked in a breath. She was as breathtaking as ever. She had changed into some jeans and a pink blouse. Her pair was pulled up in a

ine a polite unile and

-

bought these, I told

heart tonight," she said,

like I was five years younger. I remembered how she would take me to the kitchen after a long day at work to serve me the food she made when she used to go home before me. I felt a pang in my chest and I tried

talk here before you properly meet her," Emily

not going to listen

I saw my little girl watching Tangled. She was so into the movie, reminding me of Emily's

For it.

favorite," Emily told

like it's yours, I

teddy bear in her arms as her eyes were glued to the screen. She looked adorable. "She's four," Emily replied, making

"When is her birthday!"

*September fifth."

"Middle name?"

"Lela

a deep breath and

"When did you find out that

away from California."

contact me after finding out about the

finding the..." It was hard to

continued my question for me with bitterness in her tone. I had no right to ask her that question, but part of me wanted to know why she decided to disappear instead. "I would have done anything you wanted, you know? I would have shown you how sorry I truly was. I still am sorry, by the way. I would have begged for your forgiveness if you had given me the chance." I

can talk about us, Julian. You're here for Rosie, not me," she reminded me. What if I was here for her too? "As I told you before, I didn't want to

that she has a father?" I asked,

father who loves her so much. She knows that you send her toys on her birthdays and Christmas and actually, the teddy bear she's holding now is supposedly from you. You got it for her on her fourth birthday." I breathed out in relief when she "I would

did you explain my absence to her?" I couldn't

I let out a light laugh at the naïve lie. "I didn't really know what else 1 could tell her. I loved the way her cheeks reddened. I wanted to hold her and kiss them like I use "I have written many letters and told her that they were from you. I have been preparing her for this day, Julian. I know how excited she is to meet you." Emily added. Delight filled my heart upon hearing that, but I hated how I wasn't prepared for something like that. I wish woman