The Accidental Wife by Sara Islam

Chapter 127

check myself in the mirror, making sure I look good. I have a white dress on with small baby blue flowers on it. It is a tie- strap maxi dress that I don't remember buying. There are many pieces of clothes that are in my closet that seem unfamiliar to me. I like them though. Something about them tells me that my style hasn't changed much during the past two years, but it has somehow gotten better. I'm glad that something still feels the same, because I'm tired of discovering new things about myself.

I hate how a lot of things seem foreign and the fact that not a single piece of memory has come back to me is really frustrating. I sometimes feel like I want to break down, but I'm doing my best to hold myself together. I'm trying to remind myself to be grateful for making it out of the accident alive, but it is getting hard. So hard. I don't know what I am supposed to do anymore. Everest has been texting me lately, urging me to enjoy what I have and forget about my memory loss. He has even taken me out once and I have to say, I truly enjoyed myself with him. I liked how for a little while, I was able to disconnect from all that I had been thinking about. Even though I have known Everest during the two years I cannot remember anything about, something about him puts me at ease. Perhaps it is because he doesn't try to push me to remember like everybody else. But while Everest hasn't been trying to shove any memory down my throat, he has been trying to get me to stop thinking about what has happened, which isn't easy at all. I know that he means well, but how am I supposed to simply forget about two years of my life? How am I supposed to give up on them? Part of me is missing. There's this hollow feeling that a lot of people don't seem to get, and I don't know how to make them understand.

Silas told me yesterday to dress nicely and if I wanted to wear a dress, I could do that. This is why I have put on this dress. I style it with sky-blue flats since I cannot wear heels. I want to get rid of the cast. My leg has been feeling itchy and I want to get rid of it as fast as possible. At least my scratches have healed, and my bruises have faded.

When Silas messaged me yesterday, telling me that he wanted to take me on a date, I was a bit hesitant at first before agreeing. My thoughts are all messed up and I don't want to lead him on. I don't want him to get hurt because of my inability to remember our relationship.

I make my way downstairs after I finish getting ready and wait for Silas in the living room. I find my mum downstairs and I remember that it's Saturday. Ever since I was young, my mum has always made sure to keep Saturdays and Sundays for the family to bond. We don't all need to be there, but she has made it clear throughout the years that she was always going to be there for us whenever we needed her. "You look beautiful." She widely smiles at me as I take a seat beside her.

"Thank you." I kiss her cheek. "Do you remember when I bought this dress? I found it in my closet, but I don't remember getting it."

"I got it for you when I went to Spain almost a year ago, but I think you haven't worn it before. It looks stunning on you though." I don't know why I feel relieved whenever I ask anybody about something I cannot remember, and they end up. answering me. "Silas is taking me on a date," I tell her, and her smile gets brighter. It is no secret that my parents love Silas. They have always loved him.

"But you don't seem too excited about it," she points out and I look down You do know that if you don't want to go on a

date you don't have to do it, right?" "I know, but I also want to remember what we once used to have. How am I supposed to remember if I'm keeping myself away from him?" I give her my reason. "You know," I continue, "he told me once that he had always had feelings for me and I kind of find that hard to believe." "You didn't notice that before, but your father and I have always been aware of his feelings for you. He has always loved you in his own way," she tells me. "Stop thinking about the period you cannot remember for a while. Try to think about how he 59% Chapter 127

used to treat you for as long as you have known him whenever you were upset. Remember what he had done for you when you found out your boyfriend was cheating on you."

I remember what he has done. The way he kept comforting me until I calmed down is glued to my memory.

to force yourself to do anything you don't want to do," Mum advises me, and I slowly nod. Maybe I do need to go with the flow. Perhaps this is the best option

in white jeans and a dark blue shirt. I smile at him as I attempt to stand up on my own. I can do it, but it takes me time. However, Silas, being the gentleman he is,

he he says, You

back. You good, too," I tell him. I like the cologne he has

I

"Hey, Emily." Silas

my mum and greets her by kissing her on her cheeks. "How

looking at him.

can leave whenever she wants to," Silas tells her

I

I assure her. Two days after I got out of the hospital, my parents got me a new phone and luckily, we were able to retrieve my old number. Unfortunately, I couldn't remember the password of my online cloud to get back my pictures. I wish I could remember

I thank him before getting inside and he closes the door for me. My heart is beating so fast and I know that it's going to keep acting like this

the backseat?" Silas offers, but I shake my

can sit in the front," I say, taking a deep breath before getting

we started dating, you became in charge of the music during any car ride, so feel free to play whatever you want," he tells

I play anything?" I ask to make sure, and he

to find something I want. It takes me half a minute to settle on a song and when I put it on, I notice

keeping my eyes

and its nice to see that some things haven't changed," he

it?" My voice is low and

like that. All I meant was that..." He nervously runs one hand through his hair. "I'm really sorry. I just meant that it was good that the accident didn't take everything from you. I'm just glad that you still have some connection with what you like even if this is