The Accidental Wife by Sara Islam

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Chapter 131

"Are

sure that this is okay?" I skeptically ask as I get in the passenger seat. I can already feel my heart racing and I'm not you sure if this is because I'm in the passenger seat or because I'm going to spend almost two hours in a car with Silas. "Give me one reason why this won't be okay," he wonders and I stay silent, not having a reason I could give him. Maybe it's because we haven't spoken in so long, and if he hadn't messaged me yesterday, asking me if I wanted to tag along with him, I wouldn't have spoken to him. "Exactly, there's no reason that we know of. Has Everest told you something?"

Well, he

"He

the captain now." My eyes go wideelings, but his face is neutral. He has cut his hair and the haircut suits him a lot. "How's football going?" I change the subject, not wanting Everest to be the main focus of our talk.

I look

he indeed has said lots of things. He expressed that he didn't like how Silas was my ride, but when I told him that my parents insisted that I should go with Silas, he gave in. My parents didn't say anything, but it was my way out if I wanted to save myself any hassle. I wasn't in the mood to escalate the whole sit but here I am," I say looking at him. "Wait! You know that I'm dating Everest?" I ask, fully taking in his question now. situation to a fight. expressed his I his dislike for the whole i idea, but "Yeah, I know. I saw you two kissing once in the lobby of our apartment complex," he answers and I slowly nod. I want to ask him how he's feeling, but I'm not going to do that. I can't do that. Not when I know that he's probably hurt. I'm dating someone he doesn't like. I at t him, attempting to to decipher his "I'm the when he says that. I remember that he told me he became the co-captain last year, which meant that he was bound to become the captain. However, hearing such great news from him is great. "Congratulations!" I "I exclaim, feeling genuinely happy for him. I may not remember anything about our relationship, but I do remember Silas being a great man and there's no doubt that he deserves the best in life. for a second I before looking back at the road. It's like we don't know what we're thirteen and no matter what, silence never had a place between us, because we used to bicker more than anything in the world. "How are the guys?" I ask, playing with the end of my sweater. When I decided to pull myself away from Silas, it didn't feel right to stay friends with them. They are his friends and I don't want things to get uncomfortable or awkward because of my presence, so I chose to walk away even though I liked their company. "They're doing great. If you want to attend one of the barbecues we hold at the house, you're welcome to come. You know that, right?" he says, but I know that he's only saying that out of courtesy. How am I welcome among them when I'm the one who broke their friend's heart? I can't even bring myself to text the girls because of the same reason. "Thank you,

supposed to say to each other. There's a voice in my head that keeps telling me we were never like that before and I feel like I'm inclined to believe it. Maybe it's because Silas has been there for long. I have

if I keep my distance," I

I want you to know that my door will always be open for you." His words are so kind that I find myself

lot better in the passenger seat,"

but it only

so proud of you." His tone

hate my inability to drive and I wish

fear.

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I want to say yes, because I know that Silas will be patient with me. As much as I hate to admit it, ot Silas is my safe zone. Even after everything, I know that I'm certain that he's going to get to my rescue

panic attacks, Rosic. So, even if

assures me.

I ask, attempting to get out of the situation in the politest way possible. to

uncomfortable now?" I hate how small his voice is as he asks me this question. It's like he's afraid of what I may