The Accidental Wife by Sara Islam

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I feel flattered that I'm included in the first memory you got back, Sabrina gushes in a playful tone, making me laugh even though this is the last thing I want. I told her about remembering the first game we went to together. To say that she is ecstatic would be an understatement. She also believes that it's just a matter of time before I will be able to remember everything again. I wish I were as hopeful as her, but I am not. My mind is busy with the enormous amount of thoughts that have been roaming inside it nonstop. Whenever I remember the way Silas reacted when we both realized that I had remembered something I smile like an idiot. His face broke into a huge smile and in less than a second, he carried me like I weighed nothing and twirled me around as I yelled at the top of my something." I ask you "Of course." She nods.

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lungs. "Ire?" I tell her as 1 cut a piece of the molten cake in front of me.

"Can I ask

"Why were you surprised when I told you that I started dating Everest?"

"Because... Fdon't think that he's the one for you," she cautiously says. I guess she's trying not to hurt my feelings. "I honestly don't understand why you broke up with Silas in the first place. Then, you suddenly started dating Everest out of the blue. and... I just felt like your decisions were rushed and it made me worried about you, because you have never been irrational I like how she's being truthful with me. I'm tired of people trying to be careful with me. She is blunt and honest and I'm thankful for that. "I have caused enough confusion and pain to Silas. I couldn't keep doing that to him. How was I supposed to keep him hanging when I wasn't sure of my feelings? It didn't feel right to do that to him, even if he didn't mind waiting for more." I sigh, running my fingers through my hair. "Silas would have waited for you," Sabrina points out and I shake my head.

"Just because he was willing to wait, that doesn't mean that I should have taken advantage of how good he was," I tell her.

I don't want to say this out loud to anyone, but part of me regrets dating Everest. Whatever sparkled between us was purely out of admiration for someone I didn't know well and once I learned more about him, I became sure that Everest and I were completely different. I'm not sure what I am supposed to do now. There's a voice in my head telling me to break up with him, but there's another one telling me to wait because all I have been doing lately is making bad decisions. It's like I'm standing in the middle of nowhere and I have nowhere to go. "You're stressed and exhausted, Rosie. You need to take some time off. Maybe you should call Everest and tell him that you can't hang out with him today," Sabrina suggests. I'm incredibly tired, but lately, I have turned into a whiny creature who does nothing but annoys everyone around them, so I need to suck it up and go with the flow. I have exhausted the hell out of everybody around me and they don't deserve what I'm doing to them. Kendall and Sabrina have turned into my therapists and Silas has become my punching bag. I hate myself for doing that to him. The worst thing is, not once has be complained, except for that one time at the ceremony we were at and he did it in the nicest way possible. "I'm all right." I give her a small smile. I don't want to go on that date either, but I keep telling myself that my judgment is clouded now and maybe Everest isn't bad for me. I'm tired of pushing good people out of my life. What if he turned out to be another good person that I decided to cided to push away? I know that I barely remember them, but I know that I was once friends with some of Silas's teammates and their girlfriends, and even though I occasionally say hi to them whenever I bump into them, the friendship we used to have no longer exists. I feel like I don't have the right to be their friend.

I met them because of Silas and they became my friends because Silas introduced me to them. Without Silas in the

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I would have never been friends with any of them. I don't want to put them in any weird position and I don't want Silas to think that I'm taking his friends from him. Not after I have taken a lot of things from him. "I will see you later." Sabrina says, getting up from her seat. I get up too and give her a hug before she leaves. I love the way she holds onto me for longer than usual, probably thinking that I'm in dire need of this hug and honestly, I am in great need of such hugs of any kind of support, but I'm not going to cay that out loud to anyone.

We're going to watch a movie, then we're going to a pub to watch one of his friends who

bag and Everest takes my land in his

the office today for my internship, but it's as boring as

without experience and luckily. internships count as a sort of experience," I encourage him. I know how much he

like the company

bad.

to include my parents one way or

he excitedly says and leans towards me to kiss my

movie I want to watch and as always,

"Silas, In

I tell him. The only time he

a chick flick!" he exclaims, making

talking about a woman who kills. How on earth can this be a chick

not wasting my money on something I don't enjoy. His

can pay for myself" I

course, I know that." He lets out a short chuckle and

want. I can watch it later with Kendall or Sabrina," I

I feel like he takes me on dates because that's what is expected from him. I don't think I have ever picked something on our dates. He's always the one

two small buckets of popcorn. He likes the normal salty one, while

bucket once he gets the tickets and

I don't know how he expected me to enjoy it. I don't think he cares about my enjoyment.

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