The Accidental Wife by Sara Islam

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I take a deep breath and start talking, "I have loved Rosic since I was sixteen. I met her when I was fifteen. She was a cute girl and her siblings became best friends with my sister, so the two families got close. I didn't know how to act around her, so I did what all stupid boys do at that age. I opted for annoying the hell out of her." I manage to laugh, but I know deep down that it is a sad one because remembering the way we used to be brings me sadness.

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"Sounds like a typical fifteen-year-old," Maisie points out with a smile and I nod.

"My feelings for her grew, but as we both grew up, it became almost impossible for me to speak out my true feelings. But Rosie knew that she could always depend on me if she ever needed anything and I knew that she would be there for me if I needed her. One time, I lied to my teammates and told them that Rosie was my girlfriend. I made up that lie because a teammate wanted to date her. The thought itself made me want to set the world on fire."

Even though the whole thing was a long while ago, I still don't like it whenever Karl is close to her. Well, he no longer gets close to her because she pulled herself away from the group, which is something I hate. I know how much she loves them and I also know that she only did that because she thought she would ruin my friendship with them. This isn't true at all.

"I told her about that lie and we ended up fake-dating." Maisie looks at me in utter surprise. "What started as a fake relationship turned into a real one. I was the happiest person on earth. Being able to call her mine was a dream that came true, but then... she got into a car accident and literally forgot the last two years of her life, which includes the time we dated." "Oh my God, Silas..." Maisie places her hand on my shoulder.

my

"For months, I tried winning her back. I tried to do everything in my power to show her that she meant something to me. That world revolved around her, but I failed. She broke up with me, telling me that it wasn't fair to keep me waiting for her when she wasn't sure of her feelings. She wanted me to move on, but here I am. I cannot move on." I look down, trying to take in all that I have just said. It's hard to accept this new reality. Not after I had her.

"I kind of understand where she's coming from. The poor girl is confused and feels guilty. She didn't want to give you any false hope," Maisise says. Part of me understands that too, but it's not easy to accept that. There's a difference between understanding and accepting and right now, I cannot push myself to accept that the love she once had for me is gone. "I was willing to wait, Maisie. I didn't mind waiting for an eternity for her. After she broke up with me, she started dating another guy called Everest. I hate him. He was her friend whom she met in college, but I had always known that he had feelings for her." I look at Maisie and find her frowning. "But... this is But... is too soon, especially for someone who has been through a lot in a short period of time."

"I honestly

think that Rosie is still confused and she doesn't know what she's supposed to do, but there's nothing I can do. I cannot just force her to make good decisions. The thing is, I know that Everest isn't good for her. He doesn't make her happy. It doesn't take a genius to see that. I know how she looks like when she's happy. I know her like the back of my hand and if anything, Rosie is almost miserable and I'm worried about her," I tell Maisie.

"Are you still friends with her?" she asks and I nod. "Listen, I know that you love her and everything. I know that she is important to you, but I think you need to put yourself first, Silas

"What do you mean?" I frown. Is she implying that I need to distance myself from Rosie? I can't do that. Not when I know that she's not okay. She doesn't need to tell me that she's not okay. I know her.

right now, crying because something happened, you're going to drop everything and rush to her."

a great friend, it also negatively impacts you," she says. How can helping Rosie out negatively impact me? Standing still while knowing she needs me not only will negatively impact me, but it will also make me hate myself. "You need to think about what being

not, I feel really happy whenever she is around. I don't think I can explain what being with her does to me. She Wed, UCI 23

to move out because I'm scared that she may need me at any moment. I want to be able to take care of her in any

with her." I agree with her. I thought about seeing a therapist, but I have been hesitant about it. Maybe I should give it a go.

Maisie

with gratitude in her

the king her smile. "Do you want to watch a movie?"

you know where to

me if you ever feel feel down." 'I

have things to do?

is Maisie's day. I want to take her mind off of everything that has caused her pain. I want her to do everything the wants to do to make her feel better. Two hours later, Maisie tells me that she needs to leave, so we both leave the apartment because I promised her earlier that I was

head too." I laugh, looking at her for a moment before looking in front of me again only to find Rosie. "Rosie, how are you?" I say, keeping my eyes on her. She seems

good. You?" Something about her seems different. Has Everest done something to her? I swear, I will

me introduce you to each other. Rosie, this is Maisie. Maisie, this is Rosie," I

says with her normal cheerfulness. She extends her hand

trying to be polite, but it's easy to tell that something is

okay?" I ask as

about! Goodnight guys." She doesn't

the elevators.

this is your ex-girlfriend? Maisie wonders and I nod. "She's really gorgeous." Yeah, she is gorgeous

lobby, fr is like two wanted me to bugs into Rosar today, but I'm not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thig 08:27 Wed, Oct 23GY

may need me at any moment. I want to be able to take care of her in any way," I try to explain to Maisie what Rosie

right, but I think you should start seeing a therapist to understand where to set your boundaries and to know how to deal with this new friendship you have with her." I agree with her. I thought about seeing a therapist, but I have been hesitant about it. Maybe I should give it a go. All that has been happening lately is taking a toll on me and I want my senior year to be a

before getting up. I take the empty plates to the

you, Silas, I'm glad that you didn't leave me alone at the library," Maisie says with gratitude in her voice. "Now you know where to find me if you ever feel down," I tell her, making her smile. "Do