The Accidental Wife by Sara Islam

Chapter 145

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My head is about to explode. It hurts more with the slightest movement. I cannot even bring myself to open my eyes. I let out a groan as I bury my head in the pillows. Memories of last night flood my mind and they're enough to make me wish I could disappear.

With all the power I have in me, I do my best to open my eyes. When I do so, I find a glass of water on my nightstand. I push myself up and find two pills beside the glass of water.

Silas. He must be the one who has left them for me. I find myself remembering the time I took care of him when he called me while being drunk at a party. Memories are easily coming back to me and I'm not sure if they can be considered a blessing or a curse now. I called Knox last night, but Silas showed up instead. I'm embarrassed that he saw me in that state. I always hear people say that when they wake up after getting drunk, they usually don't remember anything, but I do. I remember a lot of things. It's like my memory is intensively active now.

He was so gentle with me last night.

Who am I kidding? Silas has always been gentle with me.

The way he played with my hair made me think of the memory I had of him at the team's house. When I first remembered how he was with me at the team's house, I thought I was hallucinating, but I did ask him about it last night and he confirmed that my mind wasn't playing tricks on me.

Couldn't these memories have gotten back to me sooner? Had I remembered earlier, I would have never let him go.

I take the pills and force myself to get out of bed. I walk to the bathroom and slightly gasp when I look at my reflection in the mirror. I'm still in my last night's clothes and my make-up is a mess. I look like death. Washing my face is not enough to make me feel clean and refreshed. I need to take a shower. I take off into the cabin to wash the traces of last night off.

my

clothes and get

before heading back to my room. After putting on Something comfy, I head to the living room, expecting Silas to be there. However, I don't find

only said that he was going to stay to make me feel better. He has a girlfriend now. Of course, he's not going to stay at my place. Am I the stupidest girl on earth? Did I actually believe that he was going to stay the night? Drunk me had dreams, but they cannot come to life in my world of

enough to fill my stomach. Just when I'm about to turn the coffee machine on, the door of my apartment gets opened Hense, thinking of the worst, but my shoulders sag with relief when I see Silas. He has

hasn't actually left. He

he closes the door behind

not knowing what I'm supposed to say. I'm embarrassed. I didn't want him to see me in the

me, setting everything on

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small smile as I reach for the cup of coffee. "I'm so sorry about last night. You shouldn't have... I stop myself, fearing that I may make things worse if I

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His voice depict the pain he is in and I hate being the reason behind that. "Silas, you're my ex. You're dating Maisie now. I don't want to ruin your relationship with her," I tell him part of the truth. I'm not going to tell him that I can't stand being in the same room as him without thinking how stupid I was when he was mine. I'm doing everything in my power to stop myself from kissing him. I'm not strong enough to fight all the urges inside of me to try to

going to cut ties with me?" He reminds me

makes it hard for me to breathe. I do want him in my life, but I shouldn't be in

having me in your life won't do

you be in

from moving on," I say. It's so hard to prevent myself