The Accidental Wife by Sara Islam

Chapter 148

I have been at the gym for the past forty minutes and I'm completely and utterly out of breath and out of shape too. I used to be stronger than that. The tremendous amount of weight I have lost doesn't escape my notice. I have gotten so weak over the past couple of

months, and I need to change that.

The game is in two days and I don't know if I'm going to attend it or not. His family is going to attend and mine too. Apparently, it's the last game in the season and Silas is expecting an incredible offer from a prestigious team, so they're all going to attend to support him. After taking a shower, I put on my heavy hoodie and another jacket. I'm starting to get cold easily, so I need more than one heavy layer to keep myself warm. "Long time no see, Rosie. "I stop in my tracks as I recognize the voice. I turn around and find Caroline in front of me. It's been so long since I last saw her.

"Hello

here." I smile at her. I miss her so much and I miss Alexa and Natalie too.

"How have you been?" she asks me. She is

"I stop, unable to say that I'm fine. "I've baking normally, as if I hadn't abandoned all of them.

better."

I'm actually meeting Alexa and Natalie in fifteen minutes. Why don't you join us? We can catch up." she invites.

I shift my weight between my legs, not knowing what to say. "Haven't I messed up enough, Caroline?" I hate how defeated I sound, but I don't have any energy left in me to act strong.

"No, you haven't. Come with me." Not giving me the chance to say anything, she links her arm with mine and guides me to a restaurant nearby.

"I'm not well dressed, Caroline," I say before we get inside as I look at what I'm wearing. I'm in leggings and a hoodie- Silas's hoodie.

"Luckily, this

me

this isn't a fine dine restaurant." She grins, pulling me inside with her.

Knowing I cannot run away from this, I follow her inside. Alexa and Natalie are already here. My heartbeats quicken when I see them and all I want to do is run. They take me by surprise when they smile widely at me. The two of them practically jump from their seats and For a second, I find myself frozen, but I quickly snap out of it and hug them back. I miss them so much. Not only do I miss them, but I need them too. I need the friendship we used to have.

when we pull apart. This group hug was free therapy. I needed it

you more,"

again after I abandoned you." I shamefully look down. I don't understand the kind of forgiveness they're granting

thought it would be better to walk away from us, we don't hate you, Rosie. We may be upset, but we don't hate you," Natalie says with a small smile, managing to put me

tell them. I don't think there's anything I can say to them to make up for what I have done. I realize that I have turned into somebody I don't recognize anymore. Somebody who pushes people away and is

especially since I don't have the appetite for anything. I decide to take Caesar salad

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I start and allow myself to look at them instead of avoiding their

me. She is the only one who had a close encounter with him on the

get my father to give him a nice job," I

but I never thought that he

knew what it was until I heard him talking

you don't mind me asking, is your memory back?" Natalie cautiously asks, and

or not, but it is mostly back,"

"I reply.

they're going this easy on me. Shouldn't they give me a hard time for what I

to see me there." Even after what Maisie has told me, I don't

you so much, Rosie. Stop being hard on yourself," Caroline says, and I find my eyes

"I

out of my life, Caroline, after

my drunk a**home and spent the night taking care of me. I'm a terrible person." My tears betray me as they roll down my cheeks. I quickly wipe

my hand to give me moral

even though I'm the one who dumped him, but I can't just walk back into his life and be like 'Oh hey, Silas, maybe we should give each other another try!' I have caused enough

just like all of us. Even if you dumped him, I can assure you that he totally understands all that you have been through. Don't waste what you both have because of a

told me.

but the other part is petrified. "And to make sure that

like to have a sleepover at