The Accidental Wife by Sara Islam

Chapter 148

I have been at the gym for the past forty minutes and I'm completely and utterly out of breath and out of shape too. I used to be stronger than that. The tremendous amount of weight I have lost doesn't escape my notice. I have gotten so weak over the past couple of

months, and I need to change that.

The game is in two days and I don't know if I'm going to attend it or not. His family is going to attend and mine too. Apparently, it's the last game in the season and Silas is expecting an incredible offer from a prestigious team, so they're all going to attend to support him. After taking a shower, I put on my heavy hoodie and another jacket. I'm starting to get cold easily, so I need more than one heavy layer to keep myself warm. "Long time no see, Rosie. "I stop in my tracks as I recognize the voice. I turn around and find Caroline in front of me. It's been so long since I last saw her.

"Hello

here." I smile at her. I miss her so much and I miss Alexa and Natalie too.

"How have you been?" she asks me. She is

"I stop, unable to say that I'm fine. "I've baking normally, as if I hadn't abandoned all of them.

better."

I'm actually meeting Alexa and Natalie in fifteen minutes. Why don't you join us? We can catch up." she invites.

I shift my weight between my legs, not knowing what to say. "Haven't I messed up enough, Caroline?" I hate how defeated I sound, but I don't have any energy left in me to act strong.

"No, you haven't. Come with me." Not giving me the chance to say anything, she links her arm with mine and guides me to a restaurant nearby.

"I'm not well dressed, Caroline," I say before we get inside as I look at what I'm wearing. I'm in leggings and a hoodie- Silas's hoodie.

"Luckily, this

me

this isn't a fine dine restaurant." She grins, pulling me inside with her.

Knowing I cannot run away from this, I follow her inside. Alexa and Natalie are already here. My heartbeats quicken when I see them and all I want to do is run. They take me by surprise when they smile widely at me. The two of them practically jump from their seats and For a second, I find myself frozen, but I quickly snap out of it and hug them back. I miss them so much. Not only do I miss them, but I need them too. I need the friendship we used to have.

when we pull apart. This

miss you more,"

a seat. "I... I didn't think you'd want to see me again after I abandoned you." I shamefully look down. I don't understand the kind of forgiveness

don't understand why you thought it would be better to walk away from us, we don't hate you, Rosie. We may be upset, but we don't hate you," Natalie says with

to make up for what I have done. I realize that I have turned into somebody I don't recognize

comes to take our order and I find myself at a loss, not knowing what I'm supposed to eat, especially since I don't have the appetite for anything. I decide to take Caesar salad although I know I won't be able to finish it. "We haven't seen you in a while, so fill us in! What's new?" Caroline asks, initiating a conversation. 09:35 Wed, Oct 30 GO Chapter

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broke up with Everest," I start and allow myself to look at them instead of avoiding their gazes. The wide smiles on their faces indicate how they weren't fond

you break up?" Natalie asks me. She is the only one who had

using me. He was only dating me to get my father to give him a nice job," I tell

never thought that he would

I was with him, I always had a feeling that something was off, but I never knew what it was until I heard him talking about me with his friend," I tell them, shoving my

is your memory back?" Natalie cautiously asks, and

I remember everything or not, but

"I reply.

now have a better memory of us, right?" Caroline joyfully asks and I nod with a real smile on my lips. I cannot comprehend how they're going this easy on me. Shouldn't they

bad with Silas. I don't think he'd want to see me there." Even after what Maisie has told me,

says, and I find my eyes brimming with tears. told him

"I

out of my life, Caroline,

did you do that?" Natalie asks as she reaches for rought my drunk a**home and spent the night taking care of me. I'm a terrible person." My tears betray me as they roll down my cheeks. I quickly

hand to give me

that to him. Add to this the fact that I'm in love with him and I regret leaving him even though I'm the one who dumped him, but I can't just walk back into his life and be like 'Oh hey, Silas, maybe we should give each other another try!' I have caused enough damage." I rest my head against my palms as

ruin now. You weren't using him at all. You were going through a lot and Šilas wanted to be there for you just like all of us. Even if you dumped him,

extent what Maisie has told me. I can't help but wonder if the universe is trying to send

of me wants to agree, but the other part is petrified. "And to

have a sleepover at my place?" I