The Accidental Wife by Sara Islam

Chapter 174

"This is a masterpiece, Rosie," Sabrina gushes as she twirls in her dress that I have designed for her. I'm in love with her reaction. I can't believe that my best friend is about to get married and I'm the one who got to design her wedding dress.

Today's is the last fitting and it looks perfect on her. I spent a lot of time designing this dress, but the happiness I now see on her face is enough to make me forget the exhaustion I felt while making it.

Knox and Sabrina's wedding is in two months and she is really excited. I remember being this excited too when I was busy with my wedding preparations.

"I'm glad you love it." I grin, looking at my best friend. I wish I had it in me to vividly share with her this moment, but I haven't been okay lately. Between working on her dress, taking care of Silas and working on the dresses for my fashion show, I don't have a moment to breathe. I'm so tired. I have never felt this tired in my entire life.

Silas isn't making things any easier for me. After that night at the hospital, he didn't extensively drink for almost a month, but then he relapsed and now, we're back to square one. I don't even know what I'm supposed to do anymore. While I understand how hard it is to lose something, I don't understand why he's acting like that.

He is not the first athlete to endure such a hard injury and he's not going to be the last. His recovery is guar know why he's acting like it's the end of the world. I tried so many times to talk to him, but he didn't liste

1. so I don't

The self-pity he's drowning in is pretty foreign to me. He has never been like that. The Silas I know has a strong stamina. He is strong-willed and determined. He doesn't give up upon facing hardships. The man I'm living with is a stranger. "Thank you so much!" she exclaims, making her way towards me. She pulls me into a hug and I smile, hugging her back. Maybe this is my first real smile in a while.

I sometimes try to convince myself that this is how marriage is supposed to be, but then I look around me and I become sure that I'm wrong. Marriage is not supposed to be like that at all. My parents are a happy couple. Tristan and Scarlett are happy. Even Silas's parents are happy.

I know that there are happy couples around. I'm aware that all couples have their disagreements, but it feels like I'm running in a vicious circle and cannot put an end to my struggle.

right?" she wonders after changing back

programmed myself to give this answer even if I'm not feeling well. I don't want to bother anyone with my problems with Silas and I'm trying to keep our issues inside the building we call a

deep and I look away, afraid that if she pushes more, I may end up telling her everything. "Is everything okay with

okay, but / do the

look she has on her face tells me that

always listen." She gently rubs my arm as she says that and I take a shaky breath and give her a small smile. The thing I love about Sabrina is that she respects people's needs and privacy. I'm glad that she decides against pressuring me until I tell her what's wrong, because I don't think I have enough energy in my body to talk about what

a restaurant nearby," I tell

sinks a little. A pub. This means that they're

trying to deny all the signs before me,

me a favor?" I hesitantly ask her. "Sure," she

why I want her to do that, but fortunately, she doesn't. She sends the text to Knox silently, probably sensing that I

with the other one. Kendall has always been there for me ever since I was a child and the only time we spent apart was during college. Sabrina was the one who always had my back during college and stood by my side whenever I needed her. I'm glad that I'm blessed with such amazing friends like them and I'm certain that without them, life would have been so

exclaims when she sees Sabrina

preparations." Sabrina

since you don't have all your friends with you."

the wa. our order. I'm not that hungry, but I usually get the appetite to eat

omes and takes

impatient she is. I booked her a four-day bachelorette party in Puerto Rico. I know that she has always wanted to go there, but never got the chance to go there, so I'm