The Accidental Wife by Sara Islam

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Chapter 184

We have all just arrived this morning to Puerto Rico and by all, I mean the bridal party. I'm so happy for my best friend and I can tell that she is excited for her bachelorette trip. Despite the happiness I'm feeling for her, it pains me that I'm not fully happy. I thought that by leaving I would be able to keep Silas out of my mind, but it looks like I was wrong.

Silas is pretty resilient. He hasn't stopped messaging me on all my social media accounts and he has even sent messages with Scarlett and Mum. I admire his persistence, but I hate that it appeared after I left.

I should use this trip to unwind. I should do everything in my power to stop thinking about Silas. I exhale, taking in a long shaky breath that barely reaches my lungs. I need to make the most out of this trip.

Leaving Silas is my choice. It's a decision I made after thinking for too long. Why am I questioning everything now? I sometimes feel like I'm going crazy. But I also think that what's going on in my head is normal. I have ended a relationship that lasted for more than five years. Why am I expecting myself to forget everything in the blink of an eye?

"Rosie! Aren't you coming?" Sabrina excitedly hollers. I take a deep breath and look at her with a big smile on my face. I should be a good friend and refrain from ruining her trip.

"Coming!" We're going to spend at least three hours at the spa. There are six of us and luckily, the group is bitches free. We're all amicable with one another and our main goal is to make Sabrina happy.

The atmosphere of the spa is quite soothing. I can feel my tense body gradually relaxing just by smelling the nice aroma that fills the air. Even the music is calm and relaxing.

"Would you like a masseuse or a masseur?" The receptionist asks us.

"A masseuse please," Sabrina quickly says, making the girls snicker beside her.

"It's your bachelorette trip, Rina! You gotta loosen up a little!" Ava, one of her close friends, encourages her.

"Still, I want a masseuse." Sabrina shrugs. I know that she won't pick a masseur. She has already asked me to not surprise her with a stripper, stating that she felt it was some sort of cheating.

to touch me if she planned on getting me one. I was thankful that she honored my wish. "I want a masseuse too, please," I tell the receptionist. I'm not ready yet to feel another man's touch on my body. I may have taken off my ring, but that doesn't mean that

never do. At the end of the day, I'm still his wife. I'm his

immediately starts working. My body is tense due to the thoughts running in my head. However,

touch is doing wonders. A moan escapes my lips when she starts massaging my scalp. In some way, the thoughts stop for a few moments, giving me the chance to enjoy the music in the background. The session is supposedly an hour, but when the masseuse announces that the session is over,

day, we spend it by the beach, but make sure not to get any sunburns, because none of us wants to look fried in her

Sabrina looks at me with so much gratefulness writterf

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please stop thanking me? I say, doing up. "Yow bever this, Kate and I'm at

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brow to town. Well, I know from 1 feeling and it's

of them

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priness at the

thoughts to age, but sometimes I feel like I made a manice by walking away. The last time I felt as lost was when I woke up from the wadent able to remember the last two years of my life However, I feel like the

there." I offer her a

ways. I sometimes find myself thinking about the same thing too, but to say I'm scared would be

believe it whenever he says he's ready to change.

something to yourself," Sabrina tells me. I'm not going to play oblivious with my best friend. I know what she means by that, so I simply

my marriage with my

I doing

the answers to such questions. I don't know what I'm supposed to do to make sure that I'm

spending a few hours at the beach, we all head to our rooms to relax. Sabrina and I are sharing the same room.

going to sleep for a long time," Sabrina murmurs as the

get tired after spending time at the beach. I didn't even swim for long," I say as I do the

I call room service to bring us dinner to our suite. I also make