The Accidental Wife by Sara Islam

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Chapter 184

We have all just arrived this morning to Puerto Rico and by all, I mean the bridal party. I'm so happy for my best friend and I can tell that she is excited for her bachelorette trip. Despite the happiness I'm feeling for her, it pains me that I'm not fully happy. I thought that by leaving I would be able to keep Silas out of my mind, but it looks like I was wrong.

Silas is pretty resilient. He hasn't stopped messaging me on all my social media accounts and he has even sent messages with Scarlett and Mum. I admire his persistence, but I hate that it appeared after I left.

I should use this trip to unwind. I should do everything in my power to stop thinking about Silas. I exhale, taking in a long shaky breath that barely reaches my lungs. I need to make the most out of this trip.

Leaving Silas is my choice. It's a decision I made after thinking for too long. Why am I questioning everything now? I sometimes feel like I'm going crazy. But I also think that what's going on in my head is normal. I have ended a relationship that lasted for more than five years. Why am I expecting myself to forget everything in the blink of an eye?

"Rosie! Aren't you coming?" Sabrina excitedly hollers. I take a deep breath and look at her with a big smile on my face. I should be a good friend and refrain from ruining her trip.

"Coming!" We're going to spend at least three hours at the spa. There are six of us and luckily, the group is bitches free. We're all amicable with one another and our main goal is to make Sabrina happy.

The atmosphere of the spa is quite soothing. I can feel my tense body gradually relaxing just by smelling the nice aroma that fills the air. Even the music is calm and relaxing.

"Would you like a masseuse or a masseur?" The receptionist asks us.

"A masseuse please," Sabrina quickly says, making the girls snicker beside her.

"It's your bachelorette trip, Rina! You gotta loosen up a little!" Ava, one of her close friends, encourages her.

"Still, I want a masseuse." Sabrina shrugs. I know that she won't pick a masseur. She has already asked me to not surprise her with a stripper, stating that she felt it was some sort of cheating.

honored my wish. "I want a masseuse too, please," I tell the receptionist. I'm not ready yet to feel another man's touch on my body. I

would be a betrayal to Silas, and betraying him is something I can never do. At the end of the day,

bed and the masseuse immediately starts working. My body is tense due to the thoughts running in my head. However, it relaxes under her touch. She is skilled and knows what

touch is doing wonders. A moan escapes my lips when she starts massaging my scalp. In some way, the thoughts stop for a few moments, giving me the chance to enjoy the music in the background. The session is supposedly an hour, but when the masseuse announces that the session is over, it feels like I have only

to get any sunburns, because none of us wants

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Chapter 184

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thoughts to age, but sometimes I feel like I made a manice by walking away. The last time I felt as lost

I will get there."

give him another chance my best friend ways. I sometimes find myself thinking about the same thing too,

says he's ready to change. I heard him say that a lot and do you know what happened every single

yourself," Sabrina tells me. I'm not

my

I doing

don't know how to find the answers to such questions. I don't know

spending a few hours at the beach, we all head to our rooms to relax. Sabrina and I are sharing the same room. It's actually a

a long time," Sabrina

I don't know why I always get tired after spending time at the beach. I didn't even swim for long," I say as I do the same thing. "We should be at the

up, I call room service to bring us dinner