The Accidental Wife by Sara Islam

Chapter

185

I'm nervous. I haven't seen Knox since he was in California to attend Rosie's fashion show. The fact that my best friend attended my wife's fashion show and I didn't proves how much of a fuck-up I am.

It's not only that, but I made him question whether my wife was safe with me or not. I spoke like an empty-headed asshole who was full of arrogance. When I got drunk while we were hanging out together, I revealed to him a side of me he had never seen. Frankly, that side was new to me. It didn't exist at college and neither did it exist before the accident.

As I look at all that I have been doing for the past few months, shame fills me. How did I allow myself to turn into that atrocious version of me?

"Hi Knox," I say when he opens the front door of his house. I'm not sure if I'm still the best man at his wedding or not. I messed up big time and I never apologized. I'm here now to do it though. He seems surprised to see me. Maybe it's because I haven't told him I will be coming. I was scared of telling him because I didn't want to hear him tell me that he didn't want

to see me.

I can't take the loss of another important person. I'm hanging by a thread.

For the past few days, that's all that I have been doing. I have been trying to fix my mistakes and pick up the mess I made. I have my doubts and sometimes, I tend to think that I have already lost everything and nothing I do will fix what I ruined, but I would rather try than keep thinking about the what-ifs.

"Hi, man. Come on in." He welcomes me into his home, which is a good start. He would have kicked me out if he was mad at me, right?

My heart is beating fast. I guess this is how one feels when they terribly mess up. I have been friends with Knox for more than seven years and it would really crush me if I lost him because of my own stupidity.

"Do you want something to drink?" he asks me, as I follow him to the kitchen.

a seat

new terrible habit I picked. Now that I'm trying to recover, he also lets me know how he truly feels about this. "I have been sober for ten days now. I

complete your first month before reaching your three months of sobriety. Everything counts and I'm

fax

small express my true intentions. "I was at a really dark place and frankly, I'm probably still there, but I'm doing my best to not give in, and I mistakingly took it out on the people I love the most, so I'm here to tell you that

couple of seconds before he starts laughing, bending down and clutching his stomach.

think that I would stop being your friend because of

thought I messed up big time,"

"Unless you're trying to

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best friend

heavy load I have been bearing has just been lifted off my

easy as that with my wife, but what I did to her is way

the two of us head to the living room. We take a seat on

days, and this is the first time I don't get to spend it with her." I have already bought her gift, but I don't know

believe I need to wait for twelve more days to see her. I don't think I have the required patience for such an impossible task. If I know where she is, I'm going to get to her and do whatever it takes me

able to get in contact with her before the

but for a second,

I quickly ask and he nods, looking