The Accidental Wife by Sara Islam

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I'm nervous. I haven't seen Knox since he was in California to attend Rosie's fashion show. The fact that my best friend attended my wife's fashion show and I didn't proves how much of a fuck-up I am.

It's not only that, but I made him question whether my wife was safe with me or not. I spoke like an empty-headed asshole who was full of arrogance. When I got drunk while we were hanging out together, I revealed to him a side of me he had never seen. Frankly, that side was new to me. It didn't exist at college and neither did it exist before the accident.

As I look at all that I have been doing for the past few months, shame fills me. How did I allow myself to turn into that atrocious version of me?

"Hi Knox," I say when he opens the front door of his house. I'm not sure if I'm still the best man at his wedding or not. I messed up big time and I never apologized. I'm here now to do it though. He seems surprised to see me. Maybe it's because I haven't told him I will be coming. I was scared of telling him because I didn't want to hear him tell me that he didn't want

to see me.

I can't take the loss of another important person. I'm hanging by a thread.

For the past few days, that's all that I have been doing. I have been trying to fix my mistakes and pick up the mess I made. I have my doubts and sometimes, I tend to think that I have already lost everything and nothing I do will fix what I ruined, but I would rather try than keep thinking about the what-ifs.

"Hi, man. Come on in." He welcomes me into his home, which is a good start. He would have kicked me out if he was mad at me, right?

My heart is beating fast. I guess this is how one feels when they terribly mess up. I have been friends with Knox for more than seven years and it would really crush me if I lost him because of my own stupidity.

"Do you want something to drink?" he asks me, as I follow him to the kitchen.

water," I reply, taking a seat on the kitchen

doesn't beat around the bush. He has been vocal about his dislike for the new terrible habit I picked. Now that I'm trying to recover, he also lets me know how he truly feels about this. "I have been sober for ten days now. I know it's not much, but I

ten days first and you gotta complete your first month before reaching your three months of sobriety. Everything counts and I'm proud of you for finally realizing that you need to act quickly," he

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you were at my place." Apologize seems to be too small express my true intentions. "I was at a really dark place and frankly, I'm probably still there, but I'm doing my best to not give in, and I mistakingly took it out on the people I love the most, so I'm here to tell you that I'm sorry

he starts laughing, bending down and

of that one incident? You're

thought I messed up big time," I

something unforgivable," he assures me. "Unless you're

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best friend smirks, making me

of it," I tell him with a smile. A heavy load I

wish it was as easy as that with my wife, but what I

head to the living room. We take a seat

is that she's okay, but I don't know anything about her whereabouts. The thing is... her birthday is in two days, and this is the first time I don't get to spend it with her." I have already bought her gift, but I don't know if she is going to accept it from me when we see

have the required patience for such an impossible task. If I know where she is, I'm going to

will be able to get in contact with her before

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for her bachelorette party, right?" I quickly ask