The Alpha Chose Me by Missy Elliottxo

I lay in bed the full weekend. My phone was off and I made sure Carter didn't let anyone in. I didn't want to face them.

I didn't want to face him.

It was Sunday evening and I had moved from my bed to the couch. Stuffing my face with pizza and hot Cheetos, binge watching the vampire diaries. "You have to face him at some point bear".

"No I don't".

"Bear-...".

"I need you to be on my side right now Carter. I don't want to talk to him".

"I'm always on your side Leah but he's not going to go away".

"Don't care". I could feel his eyes burning into the side of my head. Never once did I look away from the TV. Jake was the last thing on my mind. "Hear him out".

"Absolutely not". I glared. "I don't care what he has to say". I couldn't speak to him even if I wanted to. I was too angry. Friday night still fresh on my mind. That girls hands on him.

The way he was caressing her body.

It made me sick.

"You don't have to stay with me". I shoved a slice of pizza in my mouth. "I'm sure you've got things to do".

"And leave you here in this state?". He shook his head. "This isn't you Leah".

"Yes it is".

"You're being ridiculous. Look how badly he's got to you. You haven't showered in days, your makeup is smudged all over your face and-...".

"Maybe I just can't be bothered okay. Maybe I don't want to shower or clean myself up. Maybe I just want to lay here and be sad. Have you ever thought about that?". I bit back my tears.

like seeing

to thank for that". I wiped my eyes pushing the pizza box

really fucked it

"You think?".

You don't

my laptop. Maybe I still had time to

no one is talking to

to snake their way in". I wasn't upset anymore, the angry cursing through my body at the thought

you're going to reject

opened up my laptop

will suffer when you do. You're meant to be

get over someone is by getting under

glared. "Don't fucking talk like

Google. Maybe I could submit my application online. I didn't have a scanner to send

is that you think before

long as I kept avoiding him I would be fine. I wouldn't let him

know what you're getting getting yourself into.

he has no one to

say I didn't

"I won't".

for a bit. Will you be

"I'll be fine".

.....

I showered.

cried, my eyes

and then I

I wrapped the towel around my body. I sulked for 2 days, I