The Alpha Chose Me by Missy Elliottxo

I lay in bed the full weekend. My phone was off and I made sure Carter didn't let anyone in. I didn't want to face them.

I didn't want to face him.

It was Sunday evening and I had moved from my bed to the couch. Stuffing my face with pizza and hot Cheetos, binge watching the vampire diaries. "You have to face him at some point bear".

"No I don't".

"Bear-...".

"I need you to be on my side right now Carter. I don't want to talk to him".

"I'm always on your side Leah but he's not going to go away".

"Don't care". I could feel his eyes burning into the side of my head. Never once did I look away from the TV. Jake was the last thing on my mind. "Hear him out".

"Absolutely not". I glared. "I don't care what he has to say". I couldn't speak to him even if I wanted to. I was too angry. Friday night still fresh on my mind. That girls hands on him.

The way he was caressing her body.

It made me sick.

"You don't have to stay with me". I shoved a slice of pizza in my mouth. "I'm sure you've got things to do".

"And leave you here in this state?". He shook his head. "This isn't you Leah".

"Yes it is".

"You're being ridiculous. Look how badly he's got to you. You haven't showered in days, your makeup is smudged all over your face and-...".

"Maybe I just can't be bothered okay. Maybe I don't want to shower or clean myself up. Maybe I just want to lay here and be sad. Have you ever thought about that?". I bit back my tears.

seeing you like

to thank for that". I wiped my

fucked it

"You think?".

bear. You don't

over grabbing my laptop. Maybe I still had time to send my application form. "For him to embarrass me.

no one is

snake their way in". I wasn't upset anymore, the angry cursing through my body at the thought of Jessica or Sarah trying to console him. He didn't deserve

going to reject

I opened up my laptop bringing up google

you do. You're meant to be

over someone is by

glared. "Don't

I typed Yale into Google. Maybe I could submit my application online. I didn't have a scanner to send it

I'm asking is that you think before

be fine. I wouldn't let him get inside my head. He wasn't getting to

what you're getting getting yourself into. He won't stop

has no one to blame but

say I didn't warn

"I won't".

for a bit. Will you be

"I'll be fine".

.....

I showered.

cried, my eyes red and

angry and then I

towel