The Alpha Chose Me by Missy Elliottxo

I lay in bed the full weekend. My phone was off and I made sure Carter didn't let anyone in. I didn't want to face them.

I didn't want to face him.

It was Sunday evening and I had moved from my bed to the couch. Stuffing my face with pizza and hot Cheetos, binge watching the vampire diaries. "You have to face him at some point bear".

"No I don't".

"Bear-...".

"I need you to be on my side right now Carter. I don't want to talk to him".

"I'm always on your side Leah but he's not going to go away".

"Don't care". I could feel his eyes burning into the side of my head. Never once did I look away from the TV. Jake was the last thing on my mind. "Hear him out".

"Absolutely not". I glared. "I don't care what he has to say". I couldn't speak to him even if I wanted to. I was too angry. Friday night still fresh on my mind. That girls hands on him.

The way he was caressing her body.

It made me sick.

"You don't have to stay with me". I shoved a slice of pizza in my mouth. "I'm sure you've got things to do".

"And leave you here in this state?". He shook his head. "This isn't you Leah".

"Yes it is".

"You're being ridiculous. Look how badly he's got to you. You haven't showered in days, your makeup is smudged all over your face and-...".

"Maybe I just can't be bothered okay. Maybe I don't want to shower or clean myself up. Maybe I just want to lay here and be sad. Have you ever thought about that?". I bit back my tears.

seeing you

your Alpha to thank for that". I wiped my eyes pushing the

fucked

"You think?".

bear. You

don't. I was ready to give myself to him. I had planned my life around him and for what?". I leaned over grabbing my laptop. Maybe I still had time to send my application form. "For

no one is talking

I wasn't upset anymore, the angry cursing through my body at the thought of Jessica or Sarah trying to console him. He didn't

going to reject

opened up my

not the only one that will suffer when you do. You're meant to be together, the bond will effect you as

get over someone is by getting under someone

Carter glared. "Don't

I didn't have a scanner to send it to my laptop so

is that you

long as I kept avoiding him I would be fine. I wouldn't let him get inside my head. He

know what you're getting getting yourself into. He won't stop

no one to blame

I

"I won't".

for a

"I'll be fine".

.....

I showered.

cried, my eyes

then I cried

the towel around my body. I