The Alpha Chose Me by Missy Elliottxo

True to her word Charlotte dropped off a bag of my things. I was sitting on the hospital bed, hair still wet from the shower, stuck in my own head, stuck with my own thoughts.

I wanted so badly to remember the accident, but I was getting nowhere. I remembered nothing other than waking up here.

"Do you want me to brush out your hair?". He asked.

Since when has he ever done that?

I shook my head. My hair I could manage but showering was a whole different story. My body ached, my face the worst. My nose wasn't broken but it was fractured. The bruising had already started to show, nice dark purple ones. "Do you want me to get you anything?".

"Some tea would be nice".

"Okay baby. Are you feeling any better?".

"Still sore but I'll heal".

"Yeah, you will". He kissed the top of my head before leaving the room.

I was uncomfortable. The cramps hadn't started yet but I was bleeding heavily, and I was afraid I was going to leak right through. As much as I was against staying another night, I was glad I was here.

as I could. I had to remind myself it wasn't just me that lost our baby. We lost our child, but I knew we'd be able to heal together. We had to. Jake had shown no emotion and I hated it. I didn't know what he was thinking. I knew he'd be hurting just as much as I was, but he never showed it. He always hid it away and used anger as a coping mechanism. I didn't want that. I

man thing or a pride thing I wasn't sure, but I knew I'd have to fight it out

her head in with a fresh jug of water. "Hey sweetie, how

"Uncomfortable but I'm okay".

vitals. I've moved your observations to every

will". Jake spoke as he entered the room. "Can you give her

don't want anything". I didn't like the way they made me feel. All drowsy and sleepy. I was also afraid of

edge off baby and make you sleep".

could give you

I shook my

are good. I'll see you again in four

...

was exhausted but my mind wouldn't shut off. I wanted to cry. Jake was asleep on

sat up slapping my hands off the mattress. I didn't want to wake him but at the same time I did. I knew the both of us hadn't had the best few days so I knew he would be exhausted as well. "What's wrong Leah?". Eyes still closed he rubbed a hand down his

snoring isn't helping and now I

helping me out of the bed and leading me to the bathroom. "Do you need me to

own bed". I

I would give to know what he's thinking.