The Alpha’s Fated Outcast: Rise Of The Moonsinger

84 Die and be done with it .

Lyla D

I should get used to disgrace by now but as I walked away feeling the thousand pair of eyes on my back, I knew that I would never get used to this , no matter how much I tried .

Maybe , I should just die and be done with it .

I walked until I could no longer hear the murmurs of those around me or see the pity in their eyes .

I still didn’t stop until I reached a small copse of trees hidden from view .

Only then , did I allow myself to break .

Everything inside me shattered .

The sobs came violently , shaking my entire body .

I pressed my back against a rough tree trunk and slid to the ground .

Not caring about my clothes or dignity as tears dripped down my face in torrents .

My mother’s words kept echoing in my head .

Not my daughter .

Wicked .

Worthless .

Abomination .

I touched my cheek where the slaps had landed , feeling the heat of broken blood vessels beneath my skin .

But the pain paled in comparison to the heartache I felt .

I had known , somewhere deep inside , that choosing Nathan would have consequences .

But this ?

This complete rejection , this public denouncement ? And this was not the first time .

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If my mother hated me so much , why did she give birth to me ? What on earth did I do to her to always get this hostile treatment ?

My sobs quietened .

I inhaled and exhaled deeply .

Once I’m done with whatever burial rites they needed me to do for my father , I’ll round them up as fast as I can and head back to my life .

Back in the human world … I mattered , I was an important person .

A valuable member of my work team , a good student at school , a good neighbour and Paul … he …

That was when I remembered that I had yet to reply to his text .

phone from my pocket , wiping the tears

nothing compared to what I’d had suffered 3 years and six months ago

give Paul a chance if he asks me out and hope our

, I might start a family

I shook my head

No children .

want any child of mine to suffer the same

world , men are fond of keeping

could be in a relationship and

if I told Paul that I didn’t

go to any length for the

satisfaction , I opened his message

and be done with it

him and smiling like a fool

was a

enjoying my texting when a call from Nanny

it

… ” I said

here in the bush with the sweet night air blowing at me

I was happy .

sound excited ? ”

Not exactly the

dear

I had a feeling

” I sighed .

little quarrel with

you he’s now an Alpha ? ”

Nanny chuckled “ He

So , did he propose yet

at

say that ? I told you nothing can happen between

we’re not involved

”

true but you can’t speak on his behalf

the way he smoulders you with his look whenever you’re not looking ; with eyes filled with lust , love

”

need to get your eyes checked

is not like that , Nan … ”

Sure , sure , she teased “ Just make sure you’re never

mate was a Lycan and their thing is big but I

of sex and … ” 1

Nanny … ” I blurted wrinkling my face in irritation

sex on the phone ? What kind of example are you setting

virgin , Lyla and

, I wish one of these days ,

too reserved for

got laid

Nathan !

memory flashed his name

was the last time I got

suddenly feeling ashamed as though if I