The Alpha’s Fated Outcast: Rise Of The Moonsinger

140 Whispers II A while later , after I was done bathing and cleaning up , I was lounging in my room pretending to read a book while I was trying to remember how I got to the forest .

Was I sleepwalking ? Did someone take me there ? Was it Ramsey or Cassidy ? Did they leave me there so I would be attacked by a Feral and killed ? I shook my head at the thought .

Maybe Cassidy but definitely not Ramsey but I was ruling Cassidy out because Ramsey had kept a leash on her .

Since I was moved from White Lake to White Moon , he hasnt come to see me but Id heard the maids gossiping about how he and Cassidy were always together and that they cannot wait for them to get married so everyone can be at case .

Also , there were warriors stationed at the wing where I was staying , maybe they saw something ? Ill have to ask them later .

A knock at the door roused me from softer but still tinged with concern .

Can I come in ? he asked .

I give him a funny look .

Of course .

my thoughts .

Nathan poked his head in , his expression He closed the door behind him and sat on the edge of my bed , his eyes searching mine .

I just came from Nannys room and I apologized for how I sounded earlier .

I was just so scared … shitless scared .

No one had seen you , the warriors placed outside your wing said they didnt see you leave but couldnt account for the forty five seconds they left their post for the next shift to come on .

Still are you fine ? Did you really go for a walk ? I Yes ! I lied smiling brightly And you know how clumsy I can get .

Dont blame , Nanny , she tried to force me to go back but I was too stubborn .

Have you seen her wolf before ? I asked in an attempt to change the topic .

Yes ! he chuckled .

Sigma wolves are rare sights .

I saw it once when I was a teen .

She had gone for a run with your father but Alpha Logan made me promise him that I would not say anything .

about it since everyone knew she was an Omega back then .

Why ? I asked , Being a Sigma wolf is not a taboo is it ? Oh ! Nathan sighed , clamping a hand over his mouth , I shouldnt have said that Say what ? I eyed him strangely .

Sigma wolves do not live in packs , they live in Moon Temples .

People say theyre messengers of the Moon Goddess herself and live all their lives serving her .

Theyre not allowed to mate or do any other thing aside from that .

Didnt you know ? News to me .

No ! I shook my head She never mentioned it .

Thats because she might get into trouble .

, I never asked but I think Nanny must have run away from the Moon

, Ive heard him and your dad argue a lot of

reunited with

was a lot

has been by my side for most of my life but I didnt know anything about her

never asked questions or anything

you think Im selfish ? I asked

or an easy one ? I swallowed hard

Hard truth .

not a little bit but

Youre never present .

for ages but youre never interested in what they do or in their kind

not true , 1 frowned

me a lot Fine

with her the longest

my

honestly dont know but that doesnt count

, he nodded

Maybe any peculiarity about her ? That one is easy

, observant , umm … loves coffee , loves me a lot … umm … swallowed hard , realizing I was beginning to sound

it and once , when your mom had been so angry , she threw grounded coffee at her

run every morning , back then in the pack , shed run as far as the human border to

favourite colour is blue because that was the first colour she saw

do not have insulation like regular wolves , she is … How did you know all these things

I am , Im always careful with asking questions

yes , she told us but the rest

things about her too and about me but I bet the only thing you know is

ran my hands through

shitty , youve soaked up in your hurt for so long that youre never aware of anything that goes on

like youve built layers of walls … nothing goes in and nothing

eyes misted with

it , I know almost nothing 140 Whispers I about you except your age , the year

cant even remember

!

hurt as an unavoidable

and held my hands Youre an amazing person

not too smart … he said the last bit with amusement in his eyes But it can be improved upon when

mother everything you see … you were my mother all the time we spent as teens before I had

, youre always fretting about me not eating or sleeping … I got that from Nanny

, she would badger me constantly about eating , exercising and things I had no business in doing even while we were still living in the pack Youre perfect , the only thing I want and hope you can get better at is

, Lyla … Id rather kill myself than do anything that makes

Youre going to make me cry He stared into my eyes , down to my lips and then he

beneath my clothes ,

in his

, placing open mouthed

murmured

rest later , I heard myself say as I

to me … I heard him sigh , his hand firm around my throat as his lips claimed mine

with reckless abandon , until he pulled away , resting his forehead

… youll be my ruin

want you so bad but … you need to