Chapter 170

170 When you love someone ….

Ramsey I stood before the floor length mirror in my room , watching as the servant meticulously adjusted my ceremonial attire for the Harvest Moon Festival , which would begin at midnight .

My room , which used to be a sanctuary , felt suffocating despite its size .

My grandfather , Elder Eldric , stood near the tall windows , his cane lightly tapping the floor as he gazed at the servant .

intently , as if taking his eyes away would cause something to go awry .

Lenny my Beta leaned against the small reading desk at the corner of my room , reviewing my itinerary for the evening and reminding me what I had to do or not while Cassidy lounged on the chaise , scrolling through her phone .

Even the servant assisting me with my attire moved silently .

yet managed to add to the suffocating atmosphere .

It was weird that I had almost everyone in the room who adored me , yet I felt like the most unloved person in the world .

For the longest time , my grandfather would always come to hang around whenever there was a big festival to watch me dress up .

He loved it more than anything .

And then , you have to recognize , Alpha Ray , his pack had the most bountiful harvest this year up West and they paid all their taxes and pledges , too .

Theres also Alpha Cade , who helped a lot of the smaller packs when they suffered through those Feral attacks months back .

He sent out his warriors and protected his own pack with his family .

I heard theyre all skilled warriors , Lenny was saying .

One year after a child is born , regardless of the sex , theyre made to start learning basic combat skills , my grandfather chirped .

So , the entire population from the West can fight .

I wish we had implemented it before .

It would give me peace if I knew half the members of the White Moon Pack can deflect a blow .

Dont worry , Elder Eldric , Lenny soothed him .

This generation of kids were raising will become skilled warriors .

Lexhaled slowly again , wishing the knot in my chest would loosen , but my chest was still heavy with emotions I could barely name .

My mind wandered to the scene at the bonfire earlier Lyla and Nathan .

Their happiness had radiated like the flames themselves .

Lylas laughter , their shared glances filled with want for each other , had stirred up a storm of conflicting emotions within me .

The image of them together refused to leave my mind .

Their happiness had been genuine , unforced .

Id always imagined for myself- the kind of bond my parents had and something Id never

sighed wearily , hoping the ached

broke

, meeting my gaze in the mirror

Festival would be the perfect time to announce the new date

ease and the joy that comes from this celebration , I think its time to let everyone know and it would not

the turmoil 14 When you love somecon … I nodded silently , my reflection showing a perfect mask of composure they hid the turmoil withing me

grandfather turned

for a wedding as soon as the festival ends , my dear ? Cassidy glanced up

Elder Eldric

ready , she replied evenly , though there was

doesnt seem like herself these

grandfather must have noticed it too , because he frowned slightly , his eyes narrowing

lately

Almost too quiet .

? Im

but she turned away immediately , offering a smile to my grandfather that didnt

days , more than a week , without any altercation , and I noticed

in her pack or , if she was around

to press further ,

finally finished fastening my cloak , bowed and excused himself

also muttered something about last minute arrangements and gestured for Cassidy to

lingering glance before she left the room with my grandfather without saying a word to me

ceaseless questions about things that didnt matter , so seeing this mute version

, it was just me and

concern and curiosity as soon as the door

itinerary and

? Lenny asked

sighed and shook

I say I

to the mirror , my reflection staring back

, I began with a hollowness

to propose to Lyla during

said yes ? A bitter

I did .

was the hardest yes Ive

, watching him as something inside me tore apart and pretending I wasnt green with envy , but the truth ? Its killing

moving the pins as my hands trembled slightly

Moon Priest said about destiny , about balance , about

when its this hard : Lenny sighed and patted me comfortingly on my

with him , Ramsey , and sometimes , the greatest way to love someone is to let them go , knowing you cannot provide 170 When you love

I deserve to be happy ?

heart loves dearly ?

it breaks my heart every time I try

closing my eyes , literally

unhappy ;

heart is closed off from her entirely and I feel so bad because

man who worships

this path herself

I know how

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