Chapter 170

170 When you love someone ….

Ramsey I stood before the floor length mirror in my room , watching as the servant meticulously adjusted my ceremonial attire for the Harvest Moon Festival , which would begin at midnight .

My room , which used to be a sanctuary , felt suffocating despite its size .

My grandfather , Elder Eldric , stood near the tall windows , his cane lightly tapping the floor as he gazed at the servant .

intently , as if taking his eyes away would cause something to go awry .

Lenny my Beta leaned against the small reading desk at the corner of my room , reviewing my itinerary for the evening and reminding me what I had to do or not while Cassidy lounged on the chaise , scrolling through her phone .

Even the servant assisting me with my attire moved silently .

yet managed to add to the suffocating atmosphere .

It was weird that I had almost everyone in the room who adored me , yet I felt like the most unloved person in the world .

For the longest time , my grandfather would always come to hang around whenever there was a big festival to watch me dress up .

He loved it more than anything .

And then , you have to recognize , Alpha Ray , his pack had the most bountiful harvest this year up West and they paid all their taxes and pledges , too .

Theres also Alpha Cade , who helped a lot of the smaller packs when they suffered through those Feral attacks months back .

He sent out his warriors and protected his own pack with his family .

I heard theyre all skilled warriors , Lenny was saying .

One year after a child is born , regardless of the sex , theyre made to start learning basic combat skills , my grandfather chirped .

So , the entire population from the West can fight .

I wish we had implemented it before .

It would give me peace if I knew half the members of the White Moon Pack can deflect a blow .

Dont worry , Elder Eldric , Lenny soothed him .

This generation of kids were raising will become skilled warriors .

Lexhaled slowly again , wishing the knot in my chest would loosen , but my chest was still heavy with emotions I could barely name .

My mind wandered to the scene at the bonfire earlier Lyla and Nathan .

Their happiness had radiated like the flames themselves .

Lylas laughter , their shared glances filled with want for each other , had stirred up a storm of conflicting emotions within me .

The image of them together refused to leave my mind .

Their happiness had been genuine , unforced .

was the kind of bond Id always imagined for myself- the kind of bond my parents had and something Id never quite managed to

wearily , hoping the ached

my grandfather broke

, meeting my gaze in the

Moon Festival would be the perfect time to announce the new date of your

ease and the joy that comes from this celebration , I think its time to let everyone know and

love somecon … I nodded silently , my reflection showing a perfect mask of composure they hid the

grandfather turned to

ends , my dear ? Cassidy glanced up

, Elder

evenly , though there was a quietness in

like

grandfather must have noticed it too , because he frowned slightly , his

been quiet lately , Cassidy

Almost too quiet .

Im fine , she

gaze met for a brief moment in the mirror , but she turned away immediately , offering a

than a week , without any altercation , and I noticed she was no longer in my shadows like

, if she

or maybe unwilling to press further , my grandfather

cloak , bowed

muttered something about last minute arrangements and gestured for Cassidy to follow

me one last lingering glance before she left the room with my grandfather without

unlike her ! I was used to her complaints and ceaseless questions about things that didnt matter , so seeing this mute version of her … I loved it so much

just me and

with concern and curiosity as soon as the door clicked

closer , folding the itinerary and tucking

you alright ? Lenny

shook my

if I say

turned to the mirror , my reflection staring back at me with a weariness that felt

me earlier , I began with a hollowness

to Lyla during the Harvest Moon Festival Lennys

said yes ? A

I did .

hardest yes Ive ever given in my life

apart and pretending I wasnt green with envy

moving the pins as my hands trembled slightly

, about me and Lyla … I dont believe it anymore

: Lenny sighed and

greatest way to love someone is to let them go , knowing you cannot provide 170

? A sad smile curved

woman my heart loves dearly ? The woman

that Ill never be what Cassidy wants and it breaks my heart every time I try to imagine our future

, closing my eyes , literally picturing myself and Cassidy as

each other unhappy ;

my heart is closed off from her entirely and I feel

who worships the

chooses this path herself , Ramsey

and I know

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