The Alpha’s Fated Outcast: Rise Of The Moonsinger

Chapter 194

194 Baby mama … Im sure if Nathan had told me he was an alien , a vampire , or even some wizard and had magically produced a wand and was waving it at me , it wouldnt have been as shocking as what he was asking me to do ..

I stared at him , with my mouth hanging open in disbelief .

The words hed just spoken suspended between us like bad breath .

Youre asking me to do WHAT ? I demanded , my voice rising with the sheer ridiculousness .

He sighed heavily , running a hand through his hair .

We would do anything to be with each other right ? Isnt that what this is all about ? I want to be with you and Im trying to suggest ….

To suggest ? I repeated staring at him .

What exactly do you take me for , Nathan ? Some kind of baby making machine ? Is that all I am you ? Do you think the solution to all our problems is for me to get pregnant ? I dont even know who I am anymore , Nathan .

My identity is in a mess , its jumbled … Lyla , just listen … NO ! I thundered po my index finger at him .

You listen ! One minute , my mother the woman whom Ive called mother all my life was rejecting me telling me that I destroyed her family and her home and I was a child born out of wedlock .

The next , another group of deranged men or Alphas or whatever it is telling me that I am a murderer and youre here asking me to get pregnant ? Are you okay ? Stop being sentimental for once in your life , Lyla .

Youre an adult … And so , I get an automatic pass into swallowing down surprises like this ? Realizing that everybody around me has lied and has been lying to me all my life .

Do you think this is the way Ive envisioned my future ? To be stopped from getting married on my supposed wedding day ? Lyla , YOURE NOT LISTENING … Nathan growled .

His eyes were flashing with irritation and anger .

Oh , Im listening , perfectly well ! I cut him off , I was shouting now .

What I cant understand you is why youre dragging an innocent child into this mess .

Have you completely lost it ? He took in a deep breath , waving his hand placatingly at me .

If youd just let me explain , he sighed .

There was desperation and exhaustion on his face .

If theres a baby- our baby before the coronation , I can reject Clarissa .

can marry you instead

one will question it and we can be together

perfect solution … For a moment , the room became quiet except for the rapid beat of my pounding heart in

Nathans filled

as laughter bubbled up my throat

off the walls of the

in the corners of my eyes but there was no

there staring at me in

solution

child and boom , all

with

as a means to an end but I

the only way we can

your problems ,

decisions and carry it on my shoulders because I want to be your mate ? Your Luna ? And for what ?

just another Alphas baby mama

but

about me ! Its

what

have , Nathan ? I snapped , I agree youve been a good friend , you even stayed in the dungeon for four years for me and I am eternally

about all the people that might be hurt if we make that decision ? How about you put yourself first , Lyla ? Everyone does that and has

not a messiah ? Clarissa is

but I know pretty well

, no one

, Im too old to start being in another one

Lyla ! he cried with

see reason ? Clarissa

sure a lot of men would die to have

trying to protect

the only way … I shook my head

No , Nathan .

This isnt right .

isnt about us and this is not the only way

is about

morphing into Ramsey and

clouded with

Im not ! Yes , you are

very thing you once swore youd never become