The Alpha’s Fated Outcast: Rise Of The Moonsinger

Chapter 209 209: Whispers and losses...

Lyla

The road to the Moon Temple at Golden Gates Pack was quiet, broken only by the occasional rustle of leaves in the soft breeze. I was at the back of a cab driving towards the pack, although, I wasn't in the right state of mind because I had barely slept the night before and my brain was hot from overthinking.

Right now, I only wanted to leave Blue Ridge, leave this entire world behind and disappear only… a small smile settled on my lips. Ramsey!

He seemed like the silver lining to whatever I was going through. We didn't have the chance to see one last time before he left Blue Ridge yesterday but we've been communicating. For the first time, it felt easy – almost as if there was no break between us.

I felt like I'd been with him my entire life. Our conversations were so natural. I found myself opening up to him, sharing things I wouldn't tell anyone on an ordinary day, and did I mention he's a listener?

Aside from that, I still couldn't get past what happened yesterday. First of all, Nathan had refused to see me. Beta Jeremy – Nathan's father had been kind enough to let me pass through the gates into the pack house.

All attempts to see Nathan after that proved abortive. His refusal to see me gnawed at me until it became an ache in my chest, I couldn't shake. Nathan has never turned me away. Not even when we quarrel.

I had tried reasoning with the warriors on duty to let me see him, even pleading but the instructions had been crystal – clear.

"When I'm ready to see you, I'll reach out," was the only response I'd received. It stung more than I cared to admit. After trying for the tenth time yesterday to gain access to his office, I had given up. I know enough to know when a man doesn't want you and I didn't want to keep forcing myself on him.

But now, I was on my way to Golden Gates to collect Nanny's things. A message had come from the keeper at the holding cells that she needed fresh clothes.

Finally, I arrived at the Moon Temple, with a sense of trepidation. The last time I was here, I had caused a scene. Though I do not regret confronting Nanny, I just wished I had contained my outburst. Looking back now, I felt like I had acted like a child throwing her first tantrum.

As I walked through the corridors of the Temple, I noticed the curious stares of the priestesses milling about the grounds. They were whispering behind cupped hands and speaking in hushed tones as their glances lingered on me, following my every move.

Most of them, especially the older priestesses, didn't bother to hide their curiosity. Ignoring, them, I continued walking, until I found Terra – Nanny's friend.

the entrance of the residential gates waiting for me, she had a known smile on her face, as if she noticed

said quietly, gesturing subtly with her head to the gossiping priestesses. "They're still processing

guilt washed over me as my cheeks burned with

to wake up one day and discover that life you've known, isn't what

tired to respond. "I'm here to pick up, Nanny's things," I said

What's going on? Why didn't she come herself?

her gaze on me felt like a magnifying lens, coupled with what Nanny once told

forced a smile. I didn't want to tell her about Nanny's arrest and all. "Don't worry,

studied me for a moment, then nodded. She seemed to have accepted my explanation. "Alright, come with me,"

walked deeper into the residential area, until we led to a room at the edge of the area, with Nanny's name boldly written at the door

"This is Miriam's sanctuary," she said

was small and modest. I pushed past Terral, my eyes searching for her wardrobe. I noticed, Terra hovering in the background as if she wanted to tell me something but she didn't

few minutes more, she

neither do I think I am worthy enough to talk to you about things like this

She paused.

ever. She rose to the ranks of a Moon Devotee, the position next to the High Priestess before she turned Eighteen, not to mention that she was chosen

eyes widened with

ever enjoyed and the privileges she would

me in the dark all these years is no excuse, Terra. She

thinks for everyone. She always wants to shield everyone from their pain. Even if it means carrying it herself. She just wanted you to have a

or a preteen, she could have said something when I became a teen. I spent my entire life trying to measure up, to be the perfect daughter… if I

"I know but you have to find a place in your heart to forgive her. At least you cannot deny

my mom, Terra. She loved me so much and I know