The Alpha’s Fated Outcast: Rise Of The Moonsinger

Chapter 209 209: Whispers and losses...

Lyla

The road to the Moon Temple at Golden Gates Pack was quiet, broken only by the occasional rustle of leaves in the soft breeze. I was at the back of a cab driving towards the pack, although, I wasn't in the right state of mind because I had barely slept the night before and my brain was hot from overthinking.

Right now, I only wanted to leave Blue Ridge, leave this entire world behind and disappear only… a small smile settled on my lips. Ramsey!

He seemed like the silver lining to whatever I was going through. We didn't have the chance to see one last time before he left Blue Ridge yesterday but we've been communicating. For the first time, it felt easy – almost as if there was no break between us.

I felt like I'd been with him my entire life. Our conversations were so natural. I found myself opening up to him, sharing things I wouldn't tell anyone on an ordinary day, and did I mention he's a listener?

Aside from that, I still couldn't get past what happened yesterday. First of all, Nathan had refused to see me. Beta Jeremy – Nathan's father had been kind enough to let me pass through the gates into the pack house.

All attempts to see Nathan after that proved abortive. His refusal to see me gnawed at me until it became an ache in my chest, I couldn't shake. Nathan has never turned me away. Not even when we quarrel.

I had tried reasoning with the warriors on duty to let me see him, even pleading but the instructions had been crystal – clear.

"When I'm ready to see you, I'll reach out," was the only response I'd received. It stung more than I cared to admit. After trying for the tenth time yesterday to gain access to his office, I had given up. I know enough to know when a man doesn't want you and I didn't want to keep forcing myself on him.

But now, I was on my way to Golden Gates to collect Nanny's things. A message had come from the keeper at the holding cells that she needed fresh clothes.

Finally, I arrived at the Moon Temple, with a sense of trepidation. The last time I was here, I had caused a scene. Though I do not regret confronting Nanny, I just wished I had contained my outburst. Looking back now, I felt like I had acted like a child throwing her first tantrum.

As I walked through the corridors of the Temple, I noticed the curious stares of the priestesses milling about the grounds. They were whispering behind cupped hands and speaking in hushed tones as their glances lingered on me, following my every move.

Most of them, especially the older priestesses, didn't bother to hide their curiosity. Ignoring, them, I continued walking, until I found Terra – Nanny's friend.

waiting for me, she

her head to the gossiping priestesses.

with embarrassment. "I'm so sorry

means to wake up one day and discover that life you've known, isn't what you thought it was. But whether we like it

for her understanding but I was too tired to respond. "I'm here to pick up, Nanny's things," I said after a

"Why? What's going on? Why didn't she come

at Terra, realizing that her gaze on me felt like a magnifying lens, coupled with what Nanny once told me

I didn't want to tell her about Nanny's arrest and all. "Don't worry, Nanny will

seemed to have

as we walked deeper into the residential area, until we led to a room at the edge of the area, with Nanny's name boldly written at the

"This is

before getting in beside me. The room was small and modest. I pushed past Terral, my eyes searching for her wardrobe. I noticed, Terra hovering in the background as if she wanted to tell me

hovered for a few minutes more, she

neither do I think I am worthy enough to talk to you about things like this but as

She paused.

a Moon Devotee, the position next to the High Priestess before she turned Eighteen, not to

eyes widened

Lyla. Everyone wanted to be like her and you'd think with everything that she ever enjoyed and the privileges she would let

in the dark all these years is no excuse, Terra. She has every opportunity to tell

with you and I know she's not perfect but Miriam thinks for everyone. She always wants to shield everyone from their pain. Even if it means carrying it herself. She just wanted you to have a normal life without her constituting pain to you. She was okay with you calling another

a preteen, she could have said something when I became a teen. I spent my entire life trying to measure up, to be the perfect daughter… if I had known, I wouldn't have bothered trying to

a place in your heart to forgive her. At least you cannot

was my mom, Terra. She loved me so much