The Alpha’s Fight for His Omega by Jess K

Read The Alpha’s Fight for His Omega by Jess K Chapter 99

***Rowen***

I woke up the next morning with a smile on my face. While Chastity, and I hadn’t done much, just the fact that she let me do that made me happy. Her reactions, and well everything had been what I hoped for. I had a feeling it would still be awhile before I got to make love to her, but I really didn’t mind, much. Waking up with her still asleep in my arms was also amazing as it rarely happens. She needed her rest though. She had worked hard the day before, and had been up incredibly early.

After kissing Chastity’s shoulder I slipped out of bed to take a shower. Just thinking about how she moved under me, and reacted to my touch made my dick feel like it was going to explode. Getting off felt just a bit better as I had some real imagines to think of instead of just fantasy. Well there was still fantasy, but I had a little clearer picture of what it would be like to be inside her.

Chastity was still asleep when I came out of the bathroom. She was too beautiful to resist so I moved to the bed, and kissed her on the cheek. She didn’t even move. With a quiet chuckle, I put food in Lilac’s bowl, and left the bedroom, closing the door behind me. I found Jax sitting on one of the couches in the living room, drinking coffee. I grabbed my own cup, and joined him. Colby showed up shortly after I sat down. Once Colby was seated, they both looked at me.

“Rowen, we need to talk.” Jax stated.

“About what?” I asked, feeling pretty confused.

“You and Chastity.” Colby growled.

“What about Chastity, and me?” I questioned, with a slight growl.

“Chill Rowen. You’re not getting the whole don’t touch her speech. No matter how we feel about it, you’re her mate. We have to accept that.” Colby said.

“Are you saying that you don’t like that I’m her mate?” I snapped.

“It’s not like that Rowen. Not at all. Yeah we’re protective of her. Especially me. No offense Colby.” Jax said quickly.

“None taken.” Colby sighed.

“You’ll feel the same way about Gina when she starts dating or finds her mate. Honestly, I’d prefer it to be you than some shmuck off the street I don’t know.” Jax said.

“True.” I agreed with a grunt.

“I just…fuck man. I just don’t want Chastity to feel pressured, you know?” Jax said quietly.

“Pressured how?” I questioned.

“To…umm…well one to be marked. And well into…fuck…..how the hell do I talk about this shit with my little sister’s mate? I don’t even want to think about it, much less talk about it.” Jax said frustrated as he ran his hand through his hair.

“We don’t want her to feel pressured into sex.” Colby snapped.

“You really think I would do that to her?” I growled, getting really pissed off.

“No. Yes. I don’t fucking know man. I just…I’m worried alright. She had a shit life for a long time. I just….I want her to take things at her own pace is all. We both do.” Jax sputtered.

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

“Rowen, you’re an Alpha. Alpha’s take what is theirs without thinking twice about it.” Colby said bluntly. “What the hell? Jax you should know me better than that! We’ve been friends since we were in diapers!” | said through gritted teeth.

“I do, but. It’s just that I worry about her.” Jax said.

“You know, I get it. In a way I do, but I’m fucking insulted. Jax, it’s been 6 months. Have I marked her yet? Have you heard me talking about marking her? Don’t you think, if I was going to just take what’s mine, I would have done it already?” I growled.

“Yeah. Probably.” Jax mumbled.

“Exactly. The last thing I want to do is push her, pressure her, or force something I know damn well she isn’t ready for. Hell, we’ve only talked about marking once in the last 6 months. That conversation happened on Monday morning. She wants to wait until she finishes school, and I respect that. None of this is your business, but some of it is her not being ready, and some of it is not wanting to make any already difficult situation harder. You have no fucking idea how hard it is to go a week or more without seeing your mate. When you do it’s only for a short amount of time. It fucking sucks, but I’m doing it for her. Because it’s what is best for her! I hate this shit, but I am doing it because I love her, support her, respect her, and want only what is best for her. Being at Cloverland is what is best for her so I suck it up, and do what she needs me to. All the while reminding myself that when she’s done she’s going to come home to me, and we’ll have our whole lives together.

“As far as sex goes. That isn’t any of your damn business either. Definitely isn’t, but that too is going at her pace, when she’s ready. I’m not pushing her in any way. She calls the shots here, not me. After knowing all that she has been through do you think that I would even consider pushing her for more than she is willing to give? Do you think I would take away the control she deserves to have over her own body? Do you really think I’m that much of an asshole?” I struggled not to start yelling at both of them.

“Rowen?” I heard a soft voice whisper behind me.

I turned to see Chastity standing in the door way with tears in her eyes. I was up, and over the couch in a second. As soon as I reached her, I searched her eyes to see what she was feeling. I was so worried I said something that hurt her, or make her angry at me. I cupped her cheeks, and ran my thumbs under her eyes to catch her tears.

“I….I’m sorry sweet girl. I…” I stuttered.

“Why are you sorry? You didn’t do anything wrong?” Chastity whispered.

“Yeah, but I….”

“Rowen. Thank you for loving me enough to do the things you are for me.”

I released the breath I was holding at hearing she wasn’t mad at me. I rested my forehead against hers, and just breathed her in. When I saw her smile at me, I couldn’t help, but smile back. When that smile dropped, and I saw anger in her eyes I got worried again. She pulled my hands from her face, and turned

to her brothers.

“YOU TWO! HOW COULD YOU? DO I GET INVOLVED IN YOUR RELATIONSHIPS? HAVE I GONE ALL PROTECTIVE SISTER ON MOLLY AND LEXI?” Chastity yelled, and I was shocked to hear how angry she

was.

“Chas, it’s not….” Jax started, but she cut him off.

“I DON’T WANT TO HEAR IT JAX! I DON’T GET INVOLVED IN YOUR RELATIONSHIPS IN ANY WAY! I SUPPORT YOU, AND LOVE YOU! I WATCH YOU BE IDIOTS, BUT I STAY THE HELL OUT OF IT! WHEN YOU AND LEXI WERE DANCING AROUND EACH OTHER FOR MONTHS, COLBY, I STAYED OUT OF IT! WHEN

YOU, AND MOLLY PISS EACH OTHER OFF, JAX I STAY THE HELL OUT OF IT! WHY CAN’T YOU HAVE THE SAME RESPECT FOR ROWEN AND ME?” Chastity continued to yell.

worried about your Chastity. None of us have been through what you have. We just don’t want you to feel pressured.

really, don’t you

“Ouch.” Colby muttered.

wrong?”

“No.”

of that, but this. This is not the way. Not at all. You two are trying to protect me from MY MATE! The one person you shouldn’t HAVE to protect me from!

of everyone in this house, right this very moment, only 4 of them have never hurt me in any way. Make that

“Three?” Jax asked.

Jax, but yes 3. Molly, Melissa, and

“I never hurt you.”

JAX! YOU LEFT ME IN THAT HELL AND I NEVER HEARD A WORD FROM YOU FOR 4 YEARS! YOU ABANDONED ME THEN LUNA JANE DIED, AND I WAS ALONE! COMPLETELY ALONE! THE TWO PEOPLE THAT PROTECTED ME JUST DISAPPEARED! JANE DIED, AND YOU JUST DISAPPEARED! THERE WERE TIMES THAT I THOUGHT I IMAGINED YOU BEING PART OF MY

YOU NEVER CAME HOME! YOU NEVER CALLED! YOU

YOU WERE NEVER HERE AND I NEVER MATTERED!” Chastity screamed

held her tight. She didn’t stay in my arms long. She pulled away,

still loved me. That I was still important to you. Yes Rowen did hurt me, but he has been working so hard to fix that. To make it right, and to show me he wants me, and only me.

wanted to pull her to me, and kiss the hell out of her, but now was not the time. I just grabbed ahold of her hand, and gently squeezed it to let her know I heard her, and I am here for her. It seemed she had somethings

to come to Cloverland to visit, but you never come just you. I’m not sure why Jax, but you don’t. I want to spend time with my big brother. I want to show him around, and rebuild the relationship we had when I was little, but you don’t come. You call, text, video chat, and come with the group, but never just you and me. Do you realize that Monday’s lunch is the first time it’s been just you, and me in over 4 years? Yes I know now that you were thinking of me all that time, but you never showed it. I never

to wipe her

Jax sputtered, and

Jax?” Chastity

man.” Colby

SCARED OK!” Jax

“Of what?” Chastity questioned.

let you know that you are important to me. The only person more important to me than you is Molly. I didn’t want to face it. I knew at some point you might tell me, but I was scared that you would at the same time. I know. I know it’s not right, but that’s the truth of the

“Seriously?” Colby questioned.

Ask Rowen, Colby, and Molly. While you were in surgery, they threatened to sedate me to calm me down. I was so angry. I was angry at everyone in this house for what they did to you. What no one knows, not even Molly is that I was more angry at myself because I abandoned you. Yes I tried to get out of going, or taking you with me, but I didn’t have a choice about leaving you here. I don’t have an excuse for not contacting you. Maybe I was afraid that I would, and you would hate me for leaving. You would tell me to fuck off. Maybe I was afraid that since I wasn’t here I wouldn’t matter to you any more. Maybe I was afraid I would find out

can only do better in the present, and future.”

say that, but I struggle so much to let

typically doesn’t make sense. On top of that I have all of you dealing with my cat when you may not even want to. You do it for me because it’s what’s best for me, but if it weren’t for me I have no doubt she wouldn’t be here. I also have a journal I write in every single day. If not twice a day because sometimes my head, and my heart are such a mess I need a way to get it out. I have my good days, and bad days. I still have panic attacks. Not bad ones, but

more. They may not seem like big things to some, but to me they’re huge. The point being that I battle it every single day, and all things considered I’m doing pretty well. It’s not easy, and some days are really bad,

I hear it. I’m so proud of you for how far you’ve come.

“It’s just what?”

morning because we’re. Well me more than Colby,

too

you need to

“What?”

were supposed to protect you from anything, and everything. That they were supposed to love you unconditionally, no matter your faults or your flaws, I wanted my mate. I knew my mate would get me out of the life I was living. I knew he would love me in the ways I wasn’t being loved. He would worry about me, take care of me, be everything I needed him to be, and more. He would save me in every way. I needed that. I wanted that. The moment I turned 18 I was ready to find my mate, and let him mark me. Yes it was because he meant safety. The moment I caught Rowen’s scent, and heard Leila say mate to me, I was relieved because it meant I was finally safe, and free. When I realized it was Rowen, I knew that I was definitely safe. That Aurora, Fiona, all of them could no longer touch me. They would have to treat me better for fear of their future Alpha punishing therm. If

now would make it even harder. If he marked me now I would probably drop out of school because I’m not sure I could handle it. For both of our sakes, this is for the best right now, no matter how much we may hate it. Yes my self confidence also plays a part because I want to be who I’m meant to be completely before I am marked so he gets the whole me. Yes, Rowen I know you’ll take me good, bad, or ugly, but building my confidence IS for me. Point is, we’re waiting because it’s the right thing. He’s not pushing, and yes we’ve only talked about it once. As far as our sex life goes, or lack of,

she loves me. The fact that she would have let me mark her the night of the Welcome Home party almost brought me to my knees. It reminded me of just how stupid I had been. She would have trusted me completely, and I fucked that

have

I had a feeling Jax, and Colby

have you two been there?”

We heard the whole conversation.” Lexi

I wasn’t thinking. I let worry take

it Colby. I really do, but

“Jax.” Molly growled.

and well. More than this morning. I just. I have no excuse. I

place. I know it came from your hearts, but you also have to let me live my life. You also have to let Rowen,

“We know.” Colby nodded.

Chastity stated,

a deep breath, and sat down on the bed. She fiddled with her hands as I watched her quietly. I wanted to give her sometime, and space

even know I had all of

push us to explode, and say things we’ve been holding back. Things we never even meant

I guess

“Chastity, are you ok?”

yes. I’m ok. I feel like another weight has been

that’s a good

I think I hurt

he needed to hear it so he could also admit

“Yeah. You’re probably right.”

Can….can I ask you a

“Sure.”

“Did you mean it?”

“Mean what?”

“That you love me?”

were going to ask

And

hands. I could see that blush that I loved

few days ago that I was falling. I was scared to tell you though. Then saying everything I did, I knew it, and I had to say it. Maybe I couldn’t bring myself to look you in the eye, and say it the first time because I was scared, but I did mean it. I do mean it. Yes,

girl, I love you so much.” I whispered as I

glad

was not to kiss you the moment you said it out