The Alpha Who Saved Me

CHAPTER 101

I was refusing to see Declan because I didn't want any reminders of Gavin in the days following his death, and the two of them are similar in the face. I thought it would hurt seeing Declan because I miss Gavin so damn much. I'm always expecting him to walk through the door or wake me up by making love to me or kissing the shit out of me, but there is nothing.

It wasn't until I watched that video that he made for me that I was able to start putting myself back together again. I don't want to disappoint him and he's right, our son needs me to remind him of his daddy, and I need to show him how to be strong. How can I do that if I hide away in my room? That's not being a strong Alpha, and I want to make sure that Gavin's son is the best Alpha that he can be.

And so, I showered for the first time in days, and then I got

dressed in clean clothes. I'm wearing one of Gavin's t-shirts tied at the waist, but it's clean and that's all that matters. I start throwing orders around at border patrol, the warriors, and the pack house staff, not in a mean way, but orders just the same.

It's the time that I actually spend with my son that almost breaks me. Thinking about how he was finally getting used to his daddy, only to have him ripped away from him as his life is just beginning. I'm so glad that Sara ended Daniel, because I wouldn't want to take away someone's mate like that, and I would have. I will always be indebted to her for ending her own mate, and she will always have a spot in this family no matter what. It takes a lot of courage. and strength to be able to kill your own mate, but a mother's love doesn't end when they grow up; it lasts a lifetime.

After spending time with Ash, I lay him down for a nap and then head down to the office to try and catch up on the finances and anything else that Spencer wasn't able to get done in the last few days. I've been in my office for about two hours now when I feel our synced heartbeats just before the knock comes.

Declan brings Holden to try and cheer me up, and I can't believe how much he's grown. Looking at the pup, a weird sense of knowledge about something that I can't put my finger on, comes over me, but then I push it aside as he asks about my son.

Linking Cici, I ask that she bring Ash to my office and then next thing I know, Declan is pulling me into a hug. I freeze, I don't want sympathy when I'm trying to be strong, but then it's like a cloak of some sort drapes itself around me, giving me comfort instead and I wrap my own arms around his waist.

"I'm here, Quinn, I'm always here...just remember that." He states, and I know the words to ring true because that is who Declan is.

There is a heaviness in my chest at his words, but there is also a little bit of healing to them as well. I can't really explain it. Even Tala is calm and collected as Declan holds me, and she hasn't been calm in days. I should feel off by being held by another male so soon after Gavin has passed even if this isn't what that is, but I don't. I feel a familiarity within the hug, and I embrace it.

After a few minutes, I pull away, though, when a thought comes to mind. I glance up at Declan and he doesn't seem to mind that I broke contact, so I address an issue that I've been thinking about for the past hour, "I need your help with the Blue River pack."

He smiles warmly, "Whatever it is, I'm here to help."

Holden without even thinking about it and take him over to my chair and bounce him on my lap as I continue, "We need

to Ayden first, but Demi doesn't want anything to do with it, even though it would only be until

true heir since Gavin was first born and born within fated mates, so his heir would be Alpha over Gavin's sibling." Declan explains, but I already

Ayden deserves some acknowledgement as being an Alpha's son." I say as I try detangling Holden's hand from my

his title for standing by and not saying anything about the Alpha's wrong doings. By stripping his title, any heir of his will

to do about the two temporary positions. There is a warrior in the Blue River pack. that Gavin talked about often, as being a good person. I believe his name is

will make a good Alpha, but as the temporary Beta position goes, I think he would work well," Declan goes on,

can talk her into it, letting her know that both

it for both her son and grand pup, I don't think I would be able to persuade her, not like Declan or even Amelia, "Maybe get your mother involved as well." I add as

can do." He replies just as the door opens and Cici comes walking in with Ash, who Declan snatches up right away.

warms my heart and I know that Gavin would agree with me when I say that Declan will be a great role model for our son. A breeze comes through the window just as I think this, and I smile as it caresses my skin, making me think of my mate. Maybe he

Sands who will be staying on with us for a while until Declan decides what he's doing with Langly. There's laughter all around and I can't help but think how Gavin would love this. I'm trying not to become depressed when I think. about him because I know he doesn't want that. Knowing

what will you be doing about hiring a nanny once Sara goes back to

even thought about it. I don't want to send

make a suggestion?" Sara asks softly, and I smile

back at her.

course, I will always take your advice,

means a lot to me, especially after everything that's happened. Sara continues, "I think Demi would make a great nanny, and

opposite. She notices my reaction and goes on to explain her thoughts on the matter, "I don't blame the poor girl for what my late mate did, and I certainly don't blame that innocent boy. Unfortunately, it happened, and Ayden is Ash's uncle by blood. I will not treat him

is being. I would not have guessed this of her after finding out the truth, but she surprises me at every

would be a wonderful idea, Sara. Thank you for suggesting her, and I will talk to her first thing in the morning." Sara seems really pleased