The Author's POV

They say that saying sorry was hard, but it was only now that I realized that asking for help was just as hard or perhaps even harder than apologizing.

"Pl…ease help me."

Uttering those words, it felt as though I used up all of the strength inside of my body.

I felt completely drained of energy.

Almost as though I had sprinted a full marathon. Uneasiness swept my body, and my heart beat faster.

Yet, despite feeling this way, the feeling I got after the initial lethargic sensation wasn't all too bad.

I felt this sense of relief wash over my body.

As though a heavy boulder had been lifted off of my shoulder, finally allowing me to stand up straight again. I couldn't quite explain it in words, but it just felt liberating.

"Haaa…"

I deeply exhaled.

"It's okay."

It was then that Kevin finally spoke.

Taking a step forward, with his hand on my shoulder, he looked at the moon in the sky.

"I know that you've been through a lot over the past few years. I won't pretend to know just how much you've suffered, and that I even understand what you're going through, but…I want you to remember one thing."

Kevin paused. With his eyes still directed onto the moon in the distance, he continued.

"Hard as things may be, you're not alone. It may look like you are, but all you have to do is look around you."

Turning his head, Kevin looked at me before turning to look at the others who were also staring at me.

"…and when I say take a look, I mean take a proper look. See just who is around you, and see that there are people out there that actually care about you."

Closing my eyes, I lowered my head.

Guilt crept up inside of my heart.

I understood that they cared about me, but the problem was not them, it was me.

Ever since coming into this world, I've seen everyone as my pawn.

People who I could move as I pleased for the sake of my final goal, defeating the demon king. Be it Kevin, Douglas, Waylan, my mercenary group members, everyone was a piece in my eyes.

A piece that I could move as I pleased.

That was how it should've been, but…

Recalling the words that Kevin had just said, for the first time, I felt like maybe my mentality was wrong.

Maybe, I was looking at things in the wrong way…not just for my own goals, but for myself as well. Perhaps, without realizing it, the so-called pieces became more than pieces to me.

It made me wonder, 'were these 'pieces' really as expandable as I thought they were?'

Lifting my head, and staring at everyone present, my eyes soon paused on Kevin and I finally opened my mouth.

"…I think I understand somewhat, thank you."

'Thank you for making me understand my flaws.'

A smile appeared on Kevin's face as he removed his hand away from my shoulder.

Turning his back on me, he muttered.

"You know, I don't know when, but from the very first time I met you, I felt like there was this invisible wall that you erected on yourself. As though you wanted to get as far away from us as possible…it was quite odd, but I never questioned you. I feel like you're hiding something, but who doesn't? Everyone has got their own little secret that they can't tell the others. I get that, but…"

Swooosh—

Turning around, a soft wind brushed past Kevin as his clothes fluttered.

looks like whatever your secret

brows jumped at

could say anything, Kevin raised his

tell us what your secret is. I'm just saying, if need help, we're

his words, but

novel world and I'm the

way I could tell

would most probably not believe me, even if they did, I didn't want to make

they've gone through in the past were just things that I had done in order

I could tell them that and was never planning

things were just

I smiled.

"I understand...thank you."

"You're doing it again."

voice sounded

my head, I was met with the sight of a frowning Kevin.

"Doing what?"

again. That smile you just did easily

He shrugged his shoulders.

tell that it's hard for you, so I won't say anything else. Just keep in mind the words that

"Than—"

"Cough."

for the nth time, I heard a faint cough

paused on Douglas who was standing not

one who was startled as Jin, Amanda, Kevin, and Melissa all drew out their

down, I'm

me, he alternated his gaze

sorted out your

voice echoed

his head and turning his wrist,

almost up. The elves will be

You're the old man from

from behind me. Surprise flashed across my face as I heard

Douglas and

"Huh? You've already met?"

he's the one that told

"He what?"

as I turned to look in Douglas's direction. My eyes

calmly smiled. "As you can see all's well that ends well. You may have lost yourself a bit, but I can tell that some

Douglas's words, I secretly

how it is…No wonder they were able to find me. It's because

was starting

been wondering why they suddenly showed up out of nowhere while I

shouldn't have made any sense. I merely shrugged it off before since my mind was too preoccupied with other things, but when I think

it finally dawned

finally realized how they were able to

also the

"Yes, we have."

Douglas nodded.

stroked my chin

"…is he okay?"

should still

in relief at his

I had asked Waylan and Douglas to back me up in case things went wrong. Already taking into consideration the possibility of possibly losing myself, I had asked Douglas and

wouldn't do something I

been terrible for

have been enough to satiate

wasn't enough for me to be satisfied.

again checking his

back. The ceremony is about to

turning around, raising his hand and pointing

before we go.

"…ah, right."

my clothes were in, a wry smile appeared on my