The Broken-hearted She And The Icy He

Chapter 200 The Weight of Shame

He was still drowning in a tide of self–loathing.

He despised fickle, indecisive people.

And he despised himself even more for becoming one of them.

But the cruel reality was–tonight, he had completely lost control of his body.

He tried, with great difficulty, to pull away. But as her kiss deepened, he found himself overtaking her, almost devouring her breath entirely.

“Mm…”

James‘ kiss was too fierce.

Lily, who had been completely absorbed in her romantic dream, found herself unable to breathe. The suffocating sensation abruptly pulled her back to consciousness.

She blinked her sleepy eyes open–and was met with a pair of red–tinted, misty eyes.

And right after that–James‘ face, inches from her own.

They were clearly kissing.

And her hand was still…

Realizing what she’d just done, Lily nearly fainted from shock.

In her mind, James absolutely hated her. He especially couldn’t stand physical contact, let alone intimacy. There was no way he would ever want to get close to her.

had dreamed of her parents

she’d dreamt of her mom–James had come to check on her when she cried in her sleep, and she’d clung to him like a lunatic, calling him “Mom” while ranting

couldn’t remember exactly what she’d done this

situation–she had probably kissed him. Maybe

she’d gotten mad that

just a dream–it had clearly happened in

She definitely kissed him.

hadn’t, then given how much he loathed her, there was

now.

usually pretty restrained when awake. Why did her damn mouth

back her right hand like it was

waist, she quickly pulled that back too and scooted to the edge of the bed, putting as much

kissed her so hungrily,

burned away all

from his arms- -now that she was sitting away from him–he felt

that cooling void, also brought his rationality slowly

the crushing realization: he had kissed her. He had pulled

had almost gone too

He had betrayed Leila.

been right–he wasn’t worthy of being called human. He

eyes, the pain so fierce

“James…”

Lily had caught the flash of pain and revulsion

ago.

what inner turmoil he was facing. Naturally, she assumed it was because she— emboldened by her dream–had crossed the

how to explain it in a way that would make