Chapter 0441

Eli became more insistent that he know where I was at all times after that. When we are together, he is affectionate and loving. We have always been physical in our relationship, but it was different now. It was as if he were desperate to let me know how much he needs me and loves me. He’s terrified that he’s going to lose me.

I understand why he’s feeling that way. I’m the key, the central point in the power source of the Guardians. Cara and Angel can pull from me, but without the strength of my mind link, they can’t go further than that. I can tap into the power of not only my sisters and their mates, but also every member of all three of our packs. I haven’t been vocal about that. I don’t want to scare anyone, but when I connect with them, it’s almost like candles getting lit in my mind. As each person in their pack connects to the link, the candles light and I can see them in my mind. It’s strange and it’s overwhelming. It also means that I can hear them. Between the three packs we have close to

1500 wolves. That’s a lot of voices in your head at one time. It’s why I’m so exhausted after

training.

So, without me, they are strong and powerful, but only individually. With me, our strength pools

makes me angry. These hunters coming to take away our lives, our happiness. And for what? Because we are different than they are? Because we intimidate

must destroy us?

having a baby boom in our pack right now. With so many recently mated couples, it’s not surprising. Amber and Carlos are expecting their baby boy in the less than a month. I think they probably got pregnant at the tournament just like Angel. She and Liam are expecting their little girl in the next month as well.

ago that she and Noah are expecting. She’s very excited and she and Amber love to talk about their pregnancies and baby planning every time

to Sirona about it and she says that between all the stress that we’ve been under, the changes in our pack, getting off my birth control, and Guardian training, that it’s not surprising it hasn’t happened. She’s told me to be patient and let it happen, but it’s hard. It feels like every day someone new is telling me that

Tula told me she and Thomas are expecting. That is only a

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Melinda have the kitchen staff making baby food. Jeremy is busy making bassinets, cradles and toddler beds. Anna and her

conceive. I know he wants a child as much as I do. But I think it’s different as a woman. It feels like my body isn’t doing what it was made to do. Something that seems so easy for everyone else, is beginning to seem impossible for me. Everyone tells me I’m young, and I have plenty of time. And that’s true. But I’m an Alpha female. What does it say about me that everyone in my pack, including

I fear that he will reject me if I can’t have a child. That fear is what keeps me awake at night. The fear that it doesn’t matter how strong I am, doesn’t matter than I’m an Alpha female and

to leave me?

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