The Dark Side of Fate

The Dark Side Of Fate By Karima Sa’ad Usman Chapter 61

61 Remorse

~Leo~

I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it. Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day. Most of the northern captives always do. I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room. I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there. I was going to see

Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself,

Leo. I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow. She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable. I have pleaded with you several times. You have disgraced me and belittled me. Most of the Lunas mock me now. I do not have a title, and neither are we married. Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia. She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed. (1

“Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda. I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise. She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first. She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her. I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak. She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you. You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed. You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share. I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her. Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her. I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden. And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick,

I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises. I was her first, and I broke everything. I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda. She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant. I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you. It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came. I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

“I do not hate or dislike you. If anything, you have been with me through this difficult time, but I can’t forgive myself for what I did to Tamia. I saw the pain in her eyes before those men attacked, and I can never shake off the fact that I caused

That pain was a permanent fixture since the dinner party when I met you. I failed her every single time until there was nothing left to salvage,” I said and began to weep.

had to let out my hurt because, other than being my wife, Tamia was my best friend and confidant. I thought Casper was my best friend, but I was

was there all along, and I took her for granted. She was always there to lift me up; she had my back and looked out for me. She made me happy and went out of her way to put a smile on my face. had

me cry. The irony was that she was the cause of

have to forgive yourself,

love.” She said with a definite tone, meaning she knew something

my tears,

this?” I asked her, and

she likes. Recently she went to the west unaccompanied to discuss peace with Alpha Jake. She has moved on Leo, and she is happy.

let you go, Leo; you should do the same,” Amanda said,

at the all-region games; I am sure you will have closure then,” she said and

closure you want, I know you won’t come around,” She

on this. I want to be there. I want to hold your hand through it, Amanda,”

do not get to pick and choose, Leo.

in or not,” she said, and I understood what she was saying and

time. I will try to

with her, and she looked around

tears.

your sleep, even when we make love. How much more do you want me to endure? I never wanted this for myself. I have done everything to fit into her shoes. I have been training since they took her. I have studied hard and am a work in progress, but you are not encouraging me or giving me the support I need. You are not helping me, Leo. I am going through the transition alone. I can’t continue like this.” She said, and I buried my face in her neck close to

knew I was playing dirty, but I was

Amanda. I am begging you.” I pleaded

said and

wanting her and I let him slowly

and kissed her.

defences, and Black took over. She was our mate, and we were trying to

up to someone banging

looked at the clock, and it was twelve

wondered who would be knocking on my door late in the night.

had bought a bigger bed for her room so she

to the room I shared with Tamia, and I doubt I could do that. Buying a new house was looking like the way forward, but

hoping to get Tamia back this time; I just wanted to be sure she was genuinely

lord, I planned to help Devin take her from him. She deserved to be happy, even if it wasn’t with me.

wore my shorts and advanced

see it was Kyle. He

him into

and red, and I wondered why he

out of his mind? I went to get him joggers, and he wore them and sat on my couch.

did it take you to get here?”

minutes, I went through the woods,” He said, and I knew that was the only explanation for how he could

taken over from Linda and become

with you?” I asked him, and he began to weep.

unspeakable things to her, and now I am paying dearly for it,” he said, and I wondered