The Dark Side of Fate

The Dark Side Of Fate By Karima Sa’ad Usman Chapter 61

61 Remorse

~Leo~

I did not know the meaning of misery until I found myself living in it. Since I learned that Tamia was getting married to Sylvester, my heart has broken into a million pieces.

I was hoping she would come back one day. Most of the northern captives always do. I wanted to right all my wrongs and seek her forgiveness.

I sat on the couch in my living room. I stared at the invitation to the all-region sports games sent to me by the council, and even though we had responded, I was dreading going there. I was going to see

Tamia in his arms, and my heart could not bear it.

Amanda came out of her room, and that was when I noticed she had packed her bags.

“Where are you going to? You are almost due.” I asked her, and she bowed her head.

“This isn’t the life I wanted for myself,

Leo. I can’t continue living in another woman’s shadow. She has moved on, yet you choose to be miserable. I have pleaded with you several times. You have disgraced me and belittled me. Most of the Lunas mock me now. I do not have a title, and neither are we married. Why did you do this to me, Leo?” She said, and I did not know how to start.

“I can’t forgive myself for what we did to Tamia. She did not deserve all that happened to her here.” I said, confessing my truth, and she sobbed. (1

“Why?” she asked, and I looked at her.

“I broke every promise I made to her because of you,” I said, with my heart wrenching.

“She would have done the same had she found her fated,” Amanda said, and I shook my head.

“She was stronger than me in that regard, Amanda. I know Tamia, and she would die before breaking her promise. She would have risked being weak to stay happy with me.” I said and bowed my head.

“I was her first. She did not want to get with me because we weren’t fated, but I assured her she had nothing to worry about,” I said, and after saying it, I saw myself as a deceiver.

“She did not want me, But I assured her. I told her I would reject my fated and risk being weak. She trained to be strong because of me, and we used to joke about balancing each other’s strength.” I said, and Amanda came to sit next to me while I wept.

“I promised her many things and broke everything that day on the balcony when I did not reject you. You came to my home quite alright, but you did not force me to get into your bed. You did not force me to accept the bond or claim you and did not force me to make her share. I lost my way completely and found myself doing things I couldn’t even imagine to her. Never spending time with her, refusing to go out with her. I did so many things to her, Amanda; I treated her like a burden. And do you know the twisted part of all of this was that I expected her to bear with me and understand? I was a selfish prick,

I said, laughing at myself.

“I hurt her and broke all my promises. I was her first, and I broke everything. I can never forgive myself for what I did to my wife, Amanda. She wanted to have children, and I told her we should wait; I could only understand her pain when she found out you were pregnant. I knew she would be hurt if I did not take the same precautions with you. It was as if I had used her to while away time until my fated came. I had failed completely, so I can’t move on, Amanda.” I said and looked at her.

“I do not hate or dislike you. If anything, you have been with me through this difficult time, but I can’t forgive myself for what I did to Tamia. I saw the pain in her eyes before those men attacked, and I can never shake off the fact that I caused

That pain was a permanent fixture since the dinner party when I met you. I failed her every single time until there was nothing left to salvage,” I said and began to weep.

my wife, Tamia was my

and looked out for me. She made me happy and went out of her way to put a smile on my face. had never felt so alone in my life.

and let me cry. The irony was that she was the cause of my pain and

forgive yourself, Leo. Tamia

said with a definite tone,

the hug, wiped away my tears, and

this?” I asked her, and she smiled.

with her. She presides over council matters. She can do whatever she likes. Recently she went to the west unaccompanied to discuss peace with Alpha Jake. She has moved on Leo, and she is happy. Why can’t we do the same?”

go, Leo; you should do the same,” Amanda said, and

am lying to you, you will see them at the all-region games; I am sure you will have closure then,” she said and

but until you get the closure you want, I know you won’t come around,” She

this. I want to be there. I want to hold your hand through it, Amanda,” I said, and she shook her head, wiping away her

get to pick and

all in or not,” she said, and I understood what she was saying and nodded.

time. I will try to

right.” I pleaded with her, and she looked around

tears.

into her shoes. I have been training since they took her. I have studied hard and am a work in progress, but you are not encouraging me or giving me the support I need. You are not helping me, Leo. I am going through the transition alone. I can’t continue like this.” She said, and I buried

was playing dirty,

me time, Amanda. I am begging you.” I pleaded with her, and she refused weakly with

I said and kissed her

her and I let him slowly take

and

and Black took over. She was

to someone banging on my

at the clock, and it was

would be knocking on my door

back to sleep. She had bought a bigger bed for her room so

I shared with Tamia, and I doubt I could do that. Buying a new house was looking

to get Tamia back this time; I just wanted to be sure she was genuinely happy.

by the wolf lord, I planned to help Devin take her from him. She deserved to be happy, even if it wasn’t with me.

wore my shorts and advanced toward the main

was shocked to see it was Kyle. He

let him into my

I wondered why he

went to get him joggers, and he wore

midnight. How long did it take you to get here?” I

the only explanation for how he could get

seemed Kyle had taken over from Linda and become the new

with you?” I asked

my Linda go, Leo. I was a horrible man. I did unspeakable things to her, and now I am paying dearly for it,” he said, and