The Dark Side of Fate

The Dark Side Of Fate By Karima Sa’ad Usman Chapter 217

55 Battles of the heart and mind (Book 2)

~Susan~

Love could be messed up sometimes, and in my case, most of the time. That was my story when Maurice Volkov threatened my life, and my uncle had to move me to the south. I did not hear anything that day, but the paranoid man believed I did, and for that, I was asked to leave the north or die.

Writing the letter to Sylvester was hard, and I shed many tears. Tears that had never stopped falling ever since.

I knew he would be heartbroken, but my heart was bound to break more because I knew the truth. While he would hate me, I would have no one but myself to hate for being in the wrong place at the wrong time. That was twelve years ago now, and my heart was still aching.

I never moved on from Sylvester. I couldn’t. I used to dream that we would return to the north one day, and I would see him. I will tell him the truth, and he will forgive me. Unfortunately for me, things did not turn out the way that I wanted. It hurt.

I was happy for Sylvester.

Tamia was a perfect fit for him and his personality, but where did that leave me? I was stuck in limbo. I could not move forward, and neither could I move backwards.

Devin brought light and life into my life, and I had fucked it up. I was afraid that fate would fuck us up, and he had argued otherwise, citing Marcel and Theodore’s love life as an example, but what if we were the exception?

Devin thought I still wanted Sylvester, but that wasn’t true.

He just reminded me of what I could have had. I also did not miss that he was now fated to Tamia. The moon had blessed them abundantly.

I sat in my new room and wept bitterly.

I should have said yes when Devin asked me to marry him. I should have thrown caution to the wind and said yes but instead; I said I would think about it.

I did not mean to hurt him with my words, but I had seen marriages crushed by fate. However rare the fated bond was, it somehow managed to fuck something up if it came. I was worried that we might get into it and something like that would happen to us.

I needed to be brazen and sure.

I needed to be determined for it to work out, so I said I would think about it. It wasn’t because of Sylvester. It was to prepare for the unknown.

One thing Devin was yet to understand about me is that I suffered from depression. It was a well-kept secret, but it ran in my family. Hence our erratic behaviour. I tried to keep it under control by distancing myself from people and doing things that made me happy, but it was there.

My secrets and reluctance to open up had cost me dearly.

I loved Devin so much. My wolf Cleo and I could not give him up. I had done everything. I had learned to cook and throw out all my baggage just so it would work.

I was determined, but it crushed my soul when he said he would place me in the friend zone.

all the family I had now. My uncle and cousin had paid for their crimes with their lives;

evil they were, they were my family, and we loved

and I was always afraid about talking about them with Devin

speak of them? I had a lot bottled up, and it

him, Sue,” I

to the kitchen to complete my

come to see him seemed into him, and nothing stopped him from

happy and less

did not know what to

not want to be a burden. I did not want to force myself

on Devin like that. He is ours,” Cleo said, and I

want us. He let us leave his room last night, and this morning, when I mistakenly brought up his proposal, he wanted to

I told my wolf, and she

anything. We always let people boss us around, lie to us, manipulate us and hinder us from achieving our true potential. So what Devin is mad, we will just have to prove to him that we love him and this is meant to be. We have

go of Sylvester and wish him well, but I couldn’t do the same with Devin. We should leave,” I said, and my wolf was

it instead of running away as usual,” Cleo said,

Sullivan for a purpose. We have to make her shove it, Sue. Do

the swelling around my eyes and stepped out of

the living room,

with Devin, I decided to

trashed my food and cleaned the place. I was mad

doing?” I asked her, and

wasn’t around, I knew she would throw

had hated me since Devin brought me home. I knew she wanted him, and I had foolishly

does it look like?” she asked

all the luna duties around her. I mean all.” She said, and I did not want to believe that Devin

someone had to step in,”

The pack has moved on.” She said, and I was stunned by her words. It had only been three months. Three freaking

not say anything to her. I just turned and

was

moment I came out, I saw her exiting

hold your breath, Susan. I will do right by him,” she said and

and I decided to take

the woods so no one would see me. I might have lost Devin, but I

wolf form. Sometimes I would remember my

did not return to the house

moment I stood at the door, I dreaded it. I did not

in the living room attending to some files, and