The Indifferent Ex-Husband Heartstrings in the Mall of Fate

Chapter 552

When I first started writing this letter, I felt like I had a ton of stuff to spill to you, but then again, I was kinda at a loss for what to actually say.

It's like we've been tight this whole time, but there's always been this massive mountain range between us that we just can't seem to bridge.

I tried to step into your world once, but no dice - I couldn't find the way in. Then I tried to distance myself from your world, but I couldn't shake it off; guess that's just fate doing its thing.

People always say, 'You pay off in this life what you owe from the last.' Whenever life throws me a curveball, I can't help but comfort myself by thinking that maybe my whole purpose this time around on Earth is to settle all the emotional debts from my past life. Once I'm square, I can ascend back to where I came from. Sure, it's a bit of a childish, mystical thought, but it does help me face the sucky stuff with a bit more chill.

It's the same deal this time around.

Truth be told, for the longest time, I didn't have the guts to waltz back into your world. We didn't tie the knot because of love, nor did we untie it because love was missing - it was just a bad fit. Yet, this fact that we both nodded to two years ago, we have to revisit and shatter it because of the kiddo.

often say your world is too far out of reach for me, not just because of our social standing but probably because of our different upbringings leading

stuff - you just wanted a life, while I was after

got to stay. I had a family but didn't really have one. Growing up, I always wanted to know what it

company. Maybe that's why companionship means more to you. I don't know if I'm on the money with this take on you, and if

marriage. Spending my first half in a loveless environment and facing the prospect of spending the second half the same way was downright despairing for me. So for a good while, I resisted any suggestion you made, including getting back together

I was stuck in this unrealistic

ever liked and truly loved. I never got any love back from my family, so I couldn't help but pin those unfulfilled hopes on you. I obsessed over whether you liked me, loved me, and I always hoped my feelings for you would be reciprocated. If not, then it felt like it was better to

into this world without any wrongdoing on your part, can't just think about myself like I'm flying solo. Theresa likes you, and you love her. I can't rob you two of your right to enjoy family time

We could've been like any other couple, living in harmony. All the imbalance was just my own obsession. I guess I was too caught up in my own head without even realizing, and

patch things

letter ended with a string of ellipses,

with him. Maybe she wanted to send it but felt the timing was off,