The Luna and her Quadruplet Pups by Jane Above Story

#Chapter 83 – Ethan’s Confession

How did it come to this? I think morosely. How did everything go so wrong so quickly?

I’d like to think I’ve been shielding the pups from the truth about what happened between Jane and I all those years ago for their own safety and peace of mind, but if I’m honest, I think I’ve been protecting myself. I know how horribly I messed up with Jane, and as badly as it hurt to see my former mate looking at me with that expression of utter betrayal, seeing it on the faces of my innocent pups is worse. When I left the house this morning I was their hero,

now I’m their villain.

“Why don’t you come sit down.” I suggest to the pups, hoping they’ll agree. How am I ever going to explain this to them? They’re too young to even understand a fraction of it.

Despite my tormented thoughts, they obey. One by one they toddle into the living room,

settling on the sofa while I take a seat on the edge of the coffee table in front of them. I search their young faces for any hint of

openness, but they all seem completely

closed off.

“Listen.” I begin, not even knowing where I’m going with this. “I made a lot of

mistakes in the past, and I did a lot of things

I’m not proud of, but I love you and I love

your Mommy more than anything.”

The quadruplets exchange meaningful glances, “what does that mean?” Ryder

questions.

“It means that it’s true. Eve tricked me into

believing something terrible about Mommy,

and… I punished her.” I confess, “I put her

on house arrest.”

“But how could you b’lieve Eve?” Riley

demands, clearly affronted on her mother’s

behalf.

“Because I didn’t know how evil she was

then.” I explain, “I don’t have any other

excuse. I was a fool – I let her make a fool of

me, and believing her is the biggest regret of

my life, second only to how I treated your Mommy afterwards.”

“Wha’s house arrest?” Parker inquired,

clearly distracted by my previous choice of

words.

“It’s like what Paisley said, a permanent

time out.” I share.

“So you made Mommy a prisner,” Riley

summarizes, “for something she didn’ do.’

“Yes.” I concede. “That’s right. I made her

and I’ll never regret

more.”

see their affection

blame them. If someone did to

did to

can’t believe how quickly things have flipped upside down. A little while ago

long time, and now I’m awash with shame, guilt, and despair. I’m losing them. I think forlornly, I only just got them, and I’m already losing

your own fault. A little voice

my head, after all, if you

cruel to Jane they wouldn’t be able

and stupid.

understand the

white shades of youthful indiscretions,

To them I’m the evil man that hurt their

did you find out?”

this suddenly

both out

admits, looking

if I’ve just kicked a

I growl. To

and Ryder actually flinch away from

them. If I thought I felt ashamed before, it’s nothing compared to how terrible I feel

I caution, softening my tone,

((

I was just

looking as though the

simple.” I sigh, feeling a rush of pure hatred for the other man. “People aren’t angels or demons. Good people do bad things sometimes, and bad people do

you?” Ryder asks

at

a good man who was tricked into doing something terrible, but

that I’m not the same man I was then.”

understand.

They don’t.

that possible?” Riley demands, “you weren’t

hand through my hair, “but people change as time passes. You’ll see when you get older, sometimes you can change so much over the years that you don’t even recognize the person you used to be, and having children is one of

understand.”

saying he has

Riley explains in a

I chuckle humorlessly, “I don’t

I

can’t change the fact that

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before, but you’re not

now?” Parker

like to think I’m not anymore, but that’s not for me to decide. It’s for

do it ‘gain.” Ryder contributes, gazing at me

already in trouble’ gain. Was dis your fault too?” She asks

I’m doing everything I

mother.” I insist.

you think?”

dunno.” She whimpers, “I love Daddy, an

‘I love Mommy.”

Mommy.” Riley reminds her,

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put their heads together, murmuring to each

their low voices,

think we should leave.” Riley is saying.

is much nicer to

agrees.

right, Mommy’s scared.” Parker

want her to be scared. I think

we should leave.”

pulling away and looking curiously