Jane

I didn’t intend to tell Ethan about my decision now, l hadn’t even decided whether to tell him outright before all this happened. When I was walking home after meeting my mother’s ghost in the park, l’d daydreamed about sharing the news with Ethan. I thought we could go out on another date, and I could figure out some romantic scheme to surprise him. Our current predicament is about as far from that fantasy as possible, but we have to focus on whatever slivers of hope we can find right now.

I can’t bring myself to admit that part of me is terrified Ethan and I might only have each other from here on out. I’m terrified that we’re too late to save the pups, that they aren’t just missing… but gone. In my heart, I feel that they’re still alive. But what if that’s just a mother’s stubborn hope, an innate refusal to accept the unimaginable?

Ethan is trying to be patient. I can tell he’s eager for me to explain my meaning, and trying to restrain his impulse to drag the information out of me. Any other day I might take pleasure in teasing him, but right now I just want to be close to my mate. My mate.I repeat in my head, as if it’s decided. I thought l’d only come to terms with sharing the kids with Ethan and possibly seeing if there might be a future for us romantically, but my heart seems to be on a different page than my head.

“I was going to tell you,” T broach hesitantly. “1 made a decision the other night, before I knew the pups had been taken.”

“Yes?” Ethan prompts me, the curiosity plain in his deep voice.

“I’m not going to leave.” I murmur softly. “I mean… if we get the pups back, I’m not going to take Paisley, I’m not going to take any of them from you. I’m sorry it took me so long to do the right thing-I was just so afraid. But I was wrong.”

Ethan’s arms were already enveloping me so snugly it was hard to remember we were two separate people, rather than one, but now they squeeze me so tightly I can scarcely breathe.” When we find them.” He corrects me, burying his face in the curve of my neck.

Emotion is thick in his voice when he continues, “Thank you so much Jane. You have no idea how much that means to me.”

“Of course l do.” I reply, my eyes already burning with tears. “It’s why I’ve held onto them so tightly all these years.

He purrs, and my knees go weak. Of course, the wonderful thing about Ethan is that lI never have to worry about weak knees, because I know he’ll always be there to keep me upright – and this time is no different. He absorbs my weight as if it’s nothing at all, increasing the rumbling vibrations in his ch3st and making me feel completely safe despite the fact that we’re in the middle of a crisis. “Is that all you decided?”

asks, clearly sensing that I’m

to think about anything but

a no to me.”

you so calm?” I inquire, both

steely edge. “I’m furious, and I’m terrified. But I’m also determined to do whatever it takes to get them back. That gives me purpose – it keeps me

than I can express in words, and clench my eyes shut. A few tears escape, but I

“We need to get

with me?” I request

question you never have to ask” He replies, sweeping his arm

his neck, I let Ethan carry me into his bedroom. He strides straight into the master bathroom and

alone” l inform him dryly, “not

since all this began, Ethan offers me a lopsided grin, one which so keenly resembles Parker and Ryder’s frequent expressions that l almost burst into tears.

make an exception,” I decree as he approaches.

between my legs, resting his hands on my hips and lowering his l!ps to his mark. He doesn’t k!ss or fondle me, just rests his mouth against

“It ll be okay. I’m going to make

you.” I affirm,

him to carry the weight of that responsibility alone. I realize he’s distracting himself by taking care of me, doing the only thing he can to not feel completely helpless in a helpless situation – but I can see how

have turned on us: half an hour ago Ethan was scolding me within an inch of my life for pushing myself too hard. I refused to stop looking for the kids and come home, but my mate forced me to see reason, insisting that we rest

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